Ready 2 Die

[Germanuser]

Ready 2 die 

19 years old 

give me a suicideplan which has a bit dignity

[Guest]

Give yourself time. It gets better after a few years. 

[Guest]

Well, it can get better but that’s not always the case. Just hang on, see how it goes.

[Germanuser]

Hey, how are you doing?:) since when you got hppd?

i got this shit since one year, overnight from intelligent to dumb af, and I didn’t thought it can get worser..but so dumb how I was i made it chronic and the problems just turned bigger, no one really knows about it, they know something is going wrong with me, but how can I say heeey I got caught, to everyone? I aint gonna take my life..but you can just live alone, you can’t mess with normal peoples shit, so how ever get a woman? Etc..

you say years..I just started with my real treation since 2 weeks..so stopped smoking weed, my hppd turned so much worser since one month..since I took a half of tab ..just was 1 p lsd.. i know dumb af..since I stopped smoking weed it was a more depressed time since ever..for example now I feel a bit better than yesterday..the same I thought before a few days..and see what I wrote yesterday for example..I think if I had stopped everything after ive got hppd the first time..I would be nearly cured or there was a lot of hope..know I’m more like in a mild acid trip 24/7..get extremely headache in the back of my had after concentrating a bit.. ( concentrating a bit is for me also to concentrate for a normal conversation..just to follow..not able to respond good) So enaugh..

tell me about u..

how long do u have hppd ? what u have already done to get better ? How are you living now? 

[hppdvictim92]

Hi germanuser!

Don't worry. So you just stopped smoking weed 2 weeks ago? Please do yourself a favor: If you can't stay sober, please, PLEASE search for addiction treatment. Otherwise you might become permanently worse. 

It's very important to stay sober for as long as possible (=forever!). You won't recover if you continue doing any drugs. 2 weeks is literally nothing. Even one year is not much time.

I have HPPD for 7 years now. I continued doing drugs after I got HPPD for about a year. BIG MISTAKE. Please DON'T do the same. I started feeling recovery 2 years after my last drug use. And now (5 years after last drug abuse) I feel like 80-90% of my symptoms are better. Often I can barely notice HPPD anymore, just when I concentrate on the symptoms. It doesn't affect me anymore and I am very glad about that.

I would still have full HPPD if I didn't stay away from any drugs (in my case including alcohol an cigarettes).

You can also talk to me in German via PM if you'd like to!

Edited January 19, 2020 by hppdvictim92