HPPD on little dose

[lofej]

Hi,

Just found out that this forum exists and a few months ago what HPPD is. Figured I share my story what made me come here sadly

Around year ago I did my first ever psychedelic around 50ug of LSD, even before that a year I did 2-3 times MDMA, for the first days I didnt notice anything unusual, I felt good actually. Then came the strange morphings in my visions in low light conditions, I actually saw my tattoo on my forearm become a full sleeve on my arm, for many months after still...strange feeling, I immediately know whats going on, some kind of after effect of the LSD, so I got scared away from psychedelics,...after that I only touched weed which I had no problem with it, up until this point, a few weeks ago, I been on a really down point of my life, been struggling with anxiety and depression most my life, but the last few years I felt like its getting better, however, I figured I give a try to microdosing LSD, maybe I will get my life together with the help of it. I always looked at drugs as tools, never as something just for fun, so I started 2 weeks ago, taking around ~30ug, then 3 days off, and again..until the 4th time, I felt positive I really thought this can help me, get things set in my life. but...after the last dosage, on the next day I went to bed for an afternoon sleep, got a weird like LSD dream, which best I could describe as the oncoming of LSD that feeling, that gets stronger and stronger, at that point I woke up, all of a sudden, panting and somewhat scared,.. with a ringing ear(tinnitus) and mild visual snow,(i think i had it before but now more aware maybe?!, and the floaters. I knew what was going on, HPPD - because around 2-3 months ago I bumped into this HPPD thing, so I briefly looked it up.

Like everyone else here, I'm also scared that I have two live with this and just wont go away, and literally no cure for it,
Also annoyed by the fact that didn't even properly had the chance to know more about psychedelics, because I still want to know whats my mind has inside, but my well being is more important.

However I gonna stop experimenting, even with weed, been on regularly weed(2-3times a week) which helped me the most, but I tried smoking few days ago, and made the tinnitus worse sooo...,
I'm just try and gonna focus on things that matter now, stay focused, get goals, live life without fears, get a better life!
I just really wish the ringing would go away, thats really annoying, I don't wanna focus on it and dwell on it every time I hear it in my head, but it's there..hopefully gonna slowly go away.

Peace!

28/m/Hungary

 

Edited January 28, 2019 by lofej

[palinoptical panopticon]

I had tinnitus last year and it's gone after 3 months.

The ringing would made me go insane!!! It was so loud at times (on both ears) that I could barely focus on anything other than that. When I couldn't sleep the second night in a row, I decided to take just half a lorazepam and boom.. no ringing.

Doctors don't like to admit as they're pretty addictive and not appropriate for a long term treatment, but benzos are the only really effective meds, no ginko or other bs. It's not an ear issue, it's a central nervous system issue. That's where benzos are effective.

Unfortunately after the benzo wore off the ringing was there again.

So I took lorazepam again a few times, my tinnitus decreased immensly, and when it came back, I didn't give it a chance to get my attention. When I took a shower I put some music on, same thing when I was driving or cooking. Before bed I listened to podcasts until I was sleeping and all together I just avoided silence or moments where I could hear the ringing.

Eventually after not having paid much attention to it, it slowly but surely faded away until there was no ringing.

One of the most important thing with stress related tinnitus is that you need to avoid stress at any cost! Stupidly I was given cortisone (stress hormone!!!) as a treatment first which made my tinnitus go through the roof.

Long story short, bring your tinnitus to baseline with a benzo (of course be careful not to take it too long), avoid silence and stress and chances are good that your tinnitus fades away.