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After a lot of research, i came across this medical review : https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3736944/Very interesting and rare hppd study.
Overall, it seems that Lamotrigine has been able to cure long term HPPD like mine is , and for good, or significantly decrease visual disturbances and symptoms.
I'm actually testing nootropics on many levels, but i'm willing to step-up to more epileptic oriented drugs.
Anyone has more input about Lamotrigine on long lasted HPPD (mine is about 20 years old...) ?
Hey guys i think i found the triger for recovery
sorry for bad engrish
This is called subliminal audio i has been known to cure many physical and mental problems so i ascume that this would help.
I know this sounds like placebo but it is not i know because you can hear those voices in the video
here is the video and update if it helps
instructions are in the desciption
I've had HPPD for 4 years now following a few years of heavy drug use and the main culprates which were 2 life changing bad trips which left me with severe PTSD, Anxiety, Depression and many other problems, or atlesst it exacerbated my already unrecognized childhood issues which I thought weren't too bad or gen non existent.
The point of this thread was to share my story and what I've learned to find hope and happiness, even oneness with myself.
Im still in the thick of HPPD recovery in the sense that I still suffer daily with the fear, ocd's phobias and manic depression but I have found what I'd call enlightenment or what I think is Thebes start of.
during recovery I've tried to find every answer, I changed my diet I've been completely sober of all substance for 2 years, I had an emasculate routine and diet, I did exercise everyday, all revolved around my illness HPPD and other illness, I was a slave to my mind.
In simple I found acceptance, I also realized I was part of a spiritual journey, I know to many it sounds naff, it did to me for years but when you find acceptance to your HPPD and acceptance to the fact you've become part of a higher spiritual initiation (is what's I call Amir as it makes sense to me and I hope to you) it becomes easier.
the main issue with HPPD is questioning it, fighting it, researching WHY, but the answers only come the day you decide to live and accept whatever the fucks going on which trust me I know at times can feel like interdimentional head fuckery - so you guys know I've been to the darkest depths of this illness - I've anxiety so bad I thought I became fear it's self whatever that is, I've traveled into distant realms of depression, anger and emotional retardation, I tried to end my life twice Andy became and out and out drug addict in attempt to resolve it but what helped me again was accepting what was... just was.. it's bigger then me, it's higher then me or at least my self and my ego so just let it happen. The article that essentially triggered this view on life for me explained that most of us experiencing these extreme feelings, emotionally retarded, anxiety, visuals are those who have been swept into an ego death or spiritual birth which they explain a lot better, i know it may sound ridiculous to some and I was one of those some, so I'd recommend highly to accept it. Accept the feelings and your happier better soul will give birth, resist these feelings and fight the illness and it'll grow as it's a clever cunt.
This is the article which explains acceptance and the ego death.
P.S. don't rule out other coping mechanisms, they all help in some ways or at least most of them, diet, routine and medication. Ive tried almost every medication but it wasn't for me but I have heard of some cases that helped hugely.
P.P.S. Specific to HPPDers, when you find acceptance, your ego and visuals will get worse or should I say they did in my case for a bit, they're part of your ego or stleast the negative part of your HPPD is so they react like a child and try to cling onto your self as if they don't want to die which is what the birth of your soul will do. I'd also like to mention I am no pro, I am just going off experience, I have just practiced mindfulness, meditations and spirituality during my recovery.
I hope this helps anyone suffering or even those not sufferent, just looking for a bit of help.
I'm from Spain and im soffering this fucked shit HPPD since I was 15 yo. To the beginning i had several mild psychotic attacks. These were horrible, but suddenly they went.
First symptoms were vs, halos, flashes, ed, low libido,depressión, anxiety, dp/Dr, panic attacks,...
Nowadays i have a regular Life. I have a good job, i try don't to think about HPPD, i have girlfriend, but i feel that i have to give another Big step because we wanna hace childs and everyday since 10 years ago i take 1 pill of lorazepam and 1/2 of deprax, just to leave me sleep 6-7 hours at least. I want to leave them because i feel memory loss and other bother sympthoms. And because i want todo face It without drugs.
As well i would like to know if someone else has soffered ed even to with Viagra. I don't know if it's a secondary HPPD effect, but i would bet for It. What do you think?
My BEST wishes for all. I'm sure we can get much better and cure this shit.
Sorry about my english.
I am just wondering if anyone has recovered from Hppd.
I am not sure I have it but I go through waves (every 8 months roughly) where I start getting extreme anxiety, head pressure and severe derealization or brain fog to the extent that I stay at home. This could be related to something else but I have had two bad shroom experiences (4 grams the one time and 3 the other). What I am wondering is if that might have triggered this? Are these high enough doses, it sure felt terrible, and I regret it. the head pressure and detachment / derealiztion is unbearable. I have no visual symptoms like trails or lights etc, at all. I actually felt perfect for the last 9 months, better than ever, no anxiety nothing. also bear in mind that I had no ill effects right after the bad trips, only months later. Is this typical of Hppd? I have also come off of benzodiazepines (11 months ago) and I attribute a lot of how I feel to that, but I would like to know if it could be from the shroom and if it could possibly heal over time.
Also for those who have had such symptoms and it does happen to be hppd, is there any hope of recovery. I don't mean just living with it but I mean it going away. Any feedback would be greatly appreciated, Id love to hear from a few different people to hear how they progressed. Again, I havent lived with derealiztion every single day for the last 11 months, I have essentially had two 4 week bouts of it in the last year. Other than that I have had pretty much full clarity for the last 10 months up to now.I hope that makes sense.
Thank you in advance, and I hope you are all well and recovering.