David S. Kozin

HPPD 2.0

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I am making some cosmetic, functional and other changes to the website to test features and see if it will handle some future plans.

I have had some very challenging years, but now I have the plans to implement and I am fearless. Also, I get really pissed off when the HPPD story is told incorrectly on large government-funded websites, drug treatment centers and places I would never have thought HPPD would even appear.

Even to the relatively educated Psychadelic class, the idea that LSD could cause HPPD was at best an overstated condition, and at worst (most common) it was considered to be a myth.

I must admit that the "Millenials" have really tried to reduce the stigma associated with the disorder just by joining Facebook groups for HPPD. Some of you have created videos, music, blogs and for me to see HPPD listed in online pamphlets for drug-addict treatment centers is AMAZING and SCARY. It is amazing that the information I have noticed is stating that HPPD of the Consistent Visual Type is real. Previously, flashbacks were recognized, but not the long lasting visual disturbances. 

That is Amazing. We owe it to you, the members before you and to the majority of the researchers who haven't slanted their datasets.

This is Scary. I would rather have no study that a bad study. If a case report is published where a person is diagnosed with HPPD based on two criteria (1. Patient states they are experiencing hallucinations & 2. The patient stated the hallucinations began with the drug). The individual is treated with Risperdal (risperidone), which is recognized in multiple reports in the Archives of General Psychiatry and other literature (and many of our/my personal experience) to exacerbate HPPD. Consequently, there is a study that states a person with HPPD was cured with a drug normally contraindicated for the treatment of HPPD. The error is the diagnosis. If this was a freshman in college with a family history of schiophrenia, and who had early signs of a disorder belonging to psychosis, it should have been identified as Hallucinogen-induced Psychosis and part of the HPPD syndrome is that drugs like Risperdal make it worse. 

 

So, I have three studies. I am applying to a clinical mental health program and seeking an advanced graduate certification that would enable me to open up a clinic, practice counseling with a  legal clinical license and this is my life plan. 

I would like to get hired at the Lab of the school I am applying to, and do so with my own research funding. 

(I know, I have promised a lot of things lately, but it seems there is always a crisis, but if I can eat and spend 4 hours a day to this project we will have these studies completed before I am finished.)

Additionally, the degree will allow me to legally diagnose individuals that have HPPD with the formal diagnosis of HPPD. I would be a dedicated clinician to HPPD and related disorders, and if that doesn't use up enough time then I will work with individuals with opiate and benzodiazepine addiction. Creating a humane Withdrawal Protocol for Benzodiazepines in America would be one of the most significant contributions to addiction medicine since the biological model. 

I asked people to sign up to my YouTube channel, and I am at 25. However, I had nothing of value posted on my channel yet. Now, it has changed. Two sections of an interview with Dr. Henry David Abraham, where I asked questions and Dr. A answer about two very important sections on HPPD. I found them after many years, and they are from 2001. 

My youtube page is: 


Here are some images of HPPDonline.com and NODID through the years.

 

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I forgot. Those images are not very clear, but anyone can look up hppdonline.com at the Internet Way Back machine, and see how much this community has done. 

There is some very useful information contained in this archive, which would take forever to download unless someone who is very savvy could obtain the files they have in their archive.

I have begged people to follow my youtube channel, and I realized I wrote about this in the message above, but YouTube is ADHD crack, and I forgot to include the link. AND CLICK SUBCRIBE. Click Watch on the boring watch video. 10,000 Views is an important Metric. I will put up more videos, but these 2 are classic:

 

CLICK ME TO SEE DR. ABRAHAM VIDEOS: https://www.youtube.com/DavidKozinVerified

 

 

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I'm honestly convinced the Baby Boomer generation is the source of so many problems today. They were a huge reason for why Trump got elected. They harbor most of the racist beliefs in the U.S. They're materialistic. They aren't all that keen on science. And as you've alluded to, they don't seem particularly interested in admitting anything that came from the 60s was damaging when in fact that whole era ripped the U.S. apart. My dad is a perfect example. All he did was brag about how much drugs he did when he was young. I looked up to him so of course I tried to do the same. Look where I ended up. Also, as you've stated, there's such a strong inclination to disbelieve HPPD because by doing so they'd have to admit LSD isn't the miracle drug they all thought it was. 

My only questions is where neurology comes into all this. HPPD is so clearly a brain malfunction and needs study in that regard. I don't at all see HPPD as an emotional disorder with neurological side effects but rather quite the opposite. It's the visual distortions that precipitate the emotional struggles. It's so obvious based on the decades of this disorder existing and on my own experience that the standard mental health practitioner has absolutely no clue what this is or how to deal with it. I really feel like this is something that needs the attention of neurologists given our symptoms align so much more with those that brain specialists spend a lifetime analyzing. 

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David, excellent post!  In my experience hppd is quite uncommon.  I'm still in touch with the people I dosed with decades ago.  I was the only one who ended up with this condition.  Granted, that's a small sample size of about a dozen people.  That being said none of them had even heard of anyone with long term post-dose symptoms.  Understand that we indulged nearly continually for quite a few years. This is just about the only place I post.  The internet is a place I find unnerving and prefer to keep a low profile. My point?  I don't know really.  Your post just got me thinking.  

K.B.   I hear what you're saying about the 60s generating acting like drug use was a badge of honor.  In the late 60s I was a pre-teen who was fascinated by these stories.  I couldn't wait to give it a try.  My drug use was at best misguided and at worst, self destructive.  Raising kids is hard but as parents we need to set a healthy example.  I was very blunt  with my kids when it came to drugs.  I realized the mandatory DARE program in the US was telling them half truths and they knew it.  Because of that a lot of kids thought the dangers were lies fashioned as a means of control.  That being said, I didn't open up about my use until they were out of college.  Again, I don't have a point really.  Just thoughts tumbling in the brain.

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On 18/11/2017 at 6:54 AM, K.B.Fante said:

I'm honestly convinced the Baby Boomer generation is the source of so many problems today. They were a huge reason for why Trump got elected. They harbor most of the racist beliefs in the U.S. They're materialistic. They aren't all that keen on science. And as you've alluded to, they don't seem particularly interested in admitting anything that came from the 60s was damaging when in fact that whole era ripped the U.S. apart. My dad is a perfect example. All he did was brag about how much drugs he did when he was young. I looked up to him so of course I tried to do the same. Look where I ended up. Also, as you've stated, there's such a strong inclination to disbelieve HPPD because by doing so they'd have to admit LSD isn't the miracle drug they all thought it was. 

My only questions is where neurology comes into all this. HPPD is so clearly a brain malfunction and needs study in that regard. I don't at all see HPPD as an emotional disorder with neurological side effects but rather quite the opposite. It's the visual distortions that precipitate the emotional struggles. It's so obvious based on the decades of this disorder existing and on my own experience that the standard mental health practitioner has absolutely no clue what this is or how to deal with it. I really feel like this is something that needs the attention of neurologists given our symptoms align so much more with those that brain specialists spend a lifetime analyzing. 

I feel like psychologists don't understand hppd because it varies, not one person's hppd is the exact same. My personal belief is that hppd is mental illness or brain damage done by rcs. The brain is obviously wired differently for people who are susceptible to hppd as opposed to the people that aren't. There's a reason for that. People are born with these hallucinations not knowing what the hell they are so they say oh i have hppd. My brother has severe autism, sees static, and weird hallucinations, whose to say I am not on the spectrum just because I haven't been diagnosed, at this point it might make sense.

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@HDDeer

Interesting.  Your post got me thinking.  When I was a little kid I used to see recognizable shapes in the trees between the branches.  I think it's called negative space.  When I looked at the stars I'd see cobweb like threads connecting the stars and I'd immediately see shapes.  If I stared up under the trees at night I'd see cartoon like animations play out in the vague outlines of the branches and leaves.  This was long before I had tried anything psychoactive.  I was basically a normal kid with no indication of mental illness or schizophrenia.  

I'm starting to think my brain is simply wired to see patterns.  I'm wondering if these natural abilities, for lack of a better term, are indicators for contracting hppd or at least the flavor of hppd I have. 

When my daughter was about 5 she made a comment about seeing shapes between branches.  My Mom has made similar comments over the years.  Perhaps there is something genetic at play.

I realize none of this is concrete but your post brought back these memories and helped me connect some dots.  

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