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I was wondering if they are around here people who can give us a testimonial of complete hppd recovery.
Means no more symptoms at all, complete reverse to normal.
If so, how did it happen, was it permanent ?
How long did you endure HPPD ?
Thanks in advance.I did experience one complete recovery when i was 18, 6 month after i got the first HPPD signs. I remember I had one smart drink loaded with Taurine, and i had that cheering feeling that my friends loved me. Maybe we smoked too that day. I was i the street, and then suddenly, It was gone, the snow and all. I felt again my 2 feet, grounded on earth. It was 100% reversed.
Unfortunatly, it came back after a party with a very little shroom dosage. I remember the morning i was looking at the fire in the country side and it was back...
25 years ago...it's still there, and i'm not paying attention to it. but Damn, i wish i could figure out how to get rid of it still !
Hey guys i think i found the triger for recovery
sorry for bad engrish
This is called subliminal audio i has been known to cure many physical and mental problems so i ascume that this would help.
I know this sounds like placebo but it is not i know because you can hear those voices in the video
here is the video and update if it helps
instructions are in the desciption
Hi, new to the forums. only took the drug once havnt ever done anything else and have been 100% sober since 7 months ago when I took it.
Took shrooms, was good till one month later where I got eye pain light sensitivity and headaches. Im sure they are linked. I also noticed I had breathing walls when I would zone out. 7 Months in I still got Mild snow and stuff still shifts and moves when I zone out. I also had a panic attack after the month of shrooms where I didnt know what was happening. had episodes where I would slap myself trying to "feel" something and that time I didnt know what DP was. Anyway reading all the stuff about HPPD definitely gave me some more anxiety as I noticed stuff which was there but at the end of the day it didnt bother me before I knew what it was. I have mild anxiety now which is getting better I think because before I would freak out about changing my damn wallpaper thinking it would make me feel a certain way but that doesnt happen now. I used to be SCARED to leave the house but not anymore. I think its slowly getting better. ONE MAIN THING which is keeping me down is the headaches with lightsensitivity which always gives me terrible anxiety when I think about it too because I keep wondering whether I fucked my brain up. Headaches have gone better then when it started but its still there paired with light sensitivity. I have to squint often.
Does anyone have experience with this bad headache and light sensitivity symptom? Does it fade with time? Any help will be greatly appreciated. I really do hope this Photophobic headache goes as well as the visual phenomena which is fuel to the fire when I decide to worry about it lots. Please Help
I've had HPPD for 4 years now following a few years of heavy drug use and the main culprates which were 2 life changing bad trips which left me with severe PTSD, Anxiety, Depression and many other problems, or atlesst it exacerbated my already unrecognized childhood issues which I thought weren't too bad or gen non existent.
The point of this thread was to share my story and what I've learned to find hope and happiness, even oneness with myself.
Im still in the thick of HPPD recovery in the sense that I still suffer daily with the fear, ocd's phobias and manic depression but I have found what I'd call enlightenment or what I think is Thebes start of.
during recovery I've tried to find every answer, I changed my diet I've been completely sober of all substance for 2 years, I had an emasculate routine and diet, I did exercise everyday, all revolved around my illness HPPD and other illness, I was a slave to my mind.
In simple I found acceptance, I also realized I was part of a spiritual journey, I know to many it sounds naff, it did to me for years but when you find acceptance to your HPPD and acceptance to the fact you've become part of a higher spiritual initiation (is what's I call Amir as it makes sense to me and I hope to you) it becomes easier.
the main issue with HPPD is questioning it, fighting it, researching WHY, but the answers only come the day you decide to live and accept whatever the fucks going on which trust me I know at times can feel like interdimentional head fuckery - so you guys know I've been to the darkest depths of this illness - I've anxiety so bad I thought I became fear it's self whatever that is, I've traveled into distant realms of depression, anger and emotional retardation, I tried to end my life twice Andy became and out and out drug addict in attempt to resolve it but what helped me again was accepting what was... just was.. it's bigger then me, it's higher then me or at least my self and my ego so just let it happen. The article that essentially triggered this view on life for me explained that most of us experiencing these extreme feelings, emotionally retarded, anxiety, visuals are those who have been swept into an ego death or spiritual birth which they explain a lot better, i know it may sound ridiculous to some and I was one of those some, so I'd recommend highly to accept it. Accept the feelings and your happier better soul will give birth, resist these feelings and fight the illness and it'll grow as it's a clever cunt.
This is the article which explains acceptance and the ego death.
P.S. don't rule out other coping mechanisms, they all help in some ways or at least most of them, diet, routine and medication. Ive tried almost every medication but it wasn't for me but I have heard of some cases that helped hugely.
P.P.S. Specific to HPPDers, when you find acceptance, your ego and visuals will get worse or should I say they did in my case for a bit, they're part of your ego or stleast the negative part of your HPPD is so they react like a child and try to cling onto your self as if they don't want to die which is what the birth of your soul will do. I'd also like to mention I am no pro, I am just going off experience, I have just practiced mindfulness, meditations and spirituality during my recovery.
I hope this helps anyone suffering or even those not sufferent, just looking for a bit of help.