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Missjess

I made a video on youtube about ibogaine and it causing my hppd..

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Just watched your vid, respect for doing that as I know how hard it must of been. Hope others can learn the dangers associated with the plant. Good work jess

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Respect.

I recognize soo much, especially that random weird thoughts, although i must say that is becoming less with me. I dont know why, mayb because of NAC? Driving my car sometimes goes perfect, but always the same routes. If i have todrive i always think about it for hours, sometimes i do get a panick attack.. i always think i die then or get unconscious. It has also to do with the people in the cars they and i think do they see i have issues? Well its insane. !@@!!%%

You have to take away all stressfull things, even if it is your partner or some people, sleep when you feel like shit.. excersise. Eat well, and NAC magnesium + vit C. This helps me alot.

YOU need to get better.

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Very brave thing to do, I have alot of respect for you doing this, it is something I have thought about, but have never felt able.

 

If it can help one person from suffering our fate, it is well worth it.

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Really great honest video.  I hadn't thought that ibogaine would help for people like us, and i think i had voiced that.  The one good thing that did kind of come out of that shitty ordeal is that now (as you said in your video) that you know what it's like to have hppd and take ibogaine and you can warn people of its dangers.  And that's exactly what you have done.

It sounds terrible, ibogaine, and i hate the idea that it hurt you and worsened things some.  I am wishing right now it will all go away (bad symptoms) for you.  And for the rest of us.

Nice to see you as a real person and not just a figment. 

Thank you again for the video.   It will be ok if we all stick together; we love you jess.

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Uggh.   Well, here is the funny thing (if you can find some humor in it  : / ......):

 

I was on both the HPPD site and the DP/DR site.  I often see many people from the hppd site come on the dp site because dp/dr is one of their symptoms. 

I remember you on the dp site and, at the time, i was on a sober kick (..I still am) and i was like to anyone who said "hey i'm gonna do this or that drug",  "Yo, not a good idea."   LOL

 

I remember you asking if it was a good idea and i remember just giving out my usual stock answer of "Not a good idea, i think". 

 

But f--k it!!!!!

 

Just roll with it, and don't let anything too traumatic get to you.  

It sucks you've now entered the site of HPPD as a member.

But ....eh.... you will improve ... i give it a 99% chance.   

We all want you to get better and we all have hope/faith for that,  because we are all going through the same thing.  

 

We understand.

 

 

Feel free to lean on any of us, if you are having a bad day or a hard time. .... OK?

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-mg

Yes I had dp for 7 years in fact that was why I chose to do ibogaine to cure it! But yeah it knocked me into hppd freak show land instead!! Perhaps I shud have listened to ur advise :(

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Nah.  Not at all. You'll be fine.....    ...........Nah, I'm dealing with my own crap.   I'm propping up my bad self-esteem with the illusion of me really knowing anything.  LOLLLL

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Hey missJess

 

Thankyou for shareing your story. Im very sorry to hear of your experience. Well done for having the courage to exepress and share so others can be warned.

 

Are you from Australia ? Me also .. im currently in Qld.

 

I really do hope so much that you find some relief and resoloution soooon.

 

Best Regards :)

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Wow Jess, youre really pretty. You seem extremely coherent, conscious and aware. I expected a much worse case scenario reading your posts. Don't get me wrong Im not downplaying your situation as I have no idea what its like in your shoes. But for whats its worth I believe in my heart and intuitively that you will at least make partial recovery, hang in there girl!

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Wow! I am 7 years in and to look at you, a normal person sitting there talkting about it really gives me some kinda comfort that i am still human. If i wouldn't have had HPPD i couldnt relate to your experience, only that you were talking about some illness. It encourage me to make my own (idea of a HPPDonline youtube channel?)

 

Anyway glad to see some faces behind all the avatars and names.

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Nice video, Jess! It's courageous of you to put yourself out in that manner to make your experience with ibogaine and your proceeding state of being known to the public. I truly feel for you. In our brief conversations on here, you've across as a kind person, and you appear to be young and attractive - you don't deserve to feel the way you do  :(

 

There's a bunch I'd like to say, but knowing myself I'll end up rambling. That being said, I've been doing a lot of contemplating, experimentation, research, conversing with researchers/clinicians, etc. lately, and believe that you, as well as anyone else here suffering from severe HPPD/co-morbidities, could benefit from a lot of different modalities. Considering the neurological/sensory disturbances you described, what you stated the doctors thought could/did happen, your previous experiences with certain meds, etc. some things come to mind for effective treatments. I was planning on making an update on here due to my recent absence, in which I can describe some of the things I'm alluding to.

 

It'd be awesome if you made an HPPD channel. If you're interested in what I stated above, or ever need anything, feel free to message me  :)

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yeah we should do  HPPDonline u tube channel :)

Totally agree with that ! I would be happy to make more videos just so the information can get out to the public

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Nice video, Jess! It's courageous of you to put yourself out in that manner to make your experience with ibogaine and your proceeding state of being known to the public. I truly feel for you. In our brief conversations on here, you've across as a kind person, and you appear to be young and attractive - you don't deserve to feel the way you do  :(

 

There's a bunch I'd like to say, but knowing myself I'll end up rambling. That being said, I've been doing a lot of contemplating, experimentation, research, conversing with researchers/clinicians, etc. lately, and believe that you, as well as anyone else here suffering from severe HPPD/co-morbidities, could benefit from a lot of different modalities. Considering the neurological/sensory disturbances you described, what you stated the doctors thought could/did happen, your previous experiences with certain meds, etc. some things come to mind for effective treatments. I was planning on making an update on here due to my recent absence, in which I can describe some of the things I'm alluding to.

 

It'd be awesome if you made an HPPD channel. If you're interested in what I stated above, or ever need anything, feel free to message me  :)

Hey..,if I was to make a hppd youtube channel...what does that involve like how could I do that and what further videos would I post ? Would people ask me questions and I make video replies ?

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