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      dooo i have a chance of getting better if i go healthy and stop smoking
    • By Annie
      Hello(:
      my name is Annie, and I started dating my amazing boyfriend Kai a few months ago. I love him, absolutely crazy about him. He has HPPD with a sister diagnosis of anxiety. I do not have HPPD but I do suffer from GPD and Social anxiety. So I understand his anxiety. This is where my question comes from; if you were dating someone, and you have hppd, what would you want them to know? Kai is a little closed off about it, because he is now 5 years sober from drugs, and 3 year sober from alcohol so he really doesn’t like going into the details of it, and what he did when he was under the influence. So what would you want your significant other to know, recognize, do to help, etc.? I know his medications, when he should take them, what makes his visuals worse and all that but I want to do more for him. 
      Thank you for reading and responding!! (:
    • By gabriel
      I came to talk to you about my symptoms a little bit. I'm Brazilian, so if I say something wrong, I apologize, but I'm still not fluent in English.
      About 11 months ago I tried lsd with a friend, after an hour we used weed, and after that I had a very bad trip. Only today I was able to find this forum, because until then I did not even know what I really have. After using lsd, I have never used lsd or weed again. Since then, I have a lot of anxiety, sometimes I feel very depressed, and I really feel some visual effects, such as sensitivity to light, things seem to vibrate a little, and it seems that sometimes I see traces in moving things.
      What makes me bad is that I can never stop thinking about it all, I try to fight against my own mind not to think about it, but it's very difficult, when I realize it, I'm thinking about it. From what I understand I have hppd, but is it normal for me to think about it constantly? Sometimes I think I'm going to go crazy.
      This site was very inspiring to me, until then I was very afraid of what happened to me, and not knowing that there are so many other people with the same problem. So, THANK YOU for making me a little calmer. I will accompany you always now, hoping that I will improve. Thank you.
    • By kühlschrank
      Dear Fellow Hppdler!
      So iam a hppd newbie , i've had it since this march. so roughly 5 Months.
      I actually just want to ask you if my symptoms are Hppd, or pre hppd, PTSD or whatever!
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      NO visual snow! NO trailing! NO afterimages!
      The only Vision related things are:
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      But somehow only bright colors do increase^^, weird stuff ^^ Normal colors look normal
      My vision got worse, like my general eyesight got worse.
       
      Then i also got DR , but no DP!
      Actually only the derealisation bothers me...
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      Do you think this is Hppd?
      Iam not sure about this, i got my hppd from some horrific lsd trip , so may i just have a trip related trauma? and my mind is trying to protect itself from it by going in DR mode?
       
      PS: of couse i stopped ALL drug use since then
      sincerely,
      J
    • By Alex C
      Hi,
      I'm new to this forum and have only spent a couple of hours reading through it.
      I have had mental health problems as long as I remember but it has never been diagnosed. So it's not definite but the family doctor, past psychiatrists, and my school nurse have all thought that I suffer from anxiety and depression, and I believe so too.
      all of my symptoms make me feel ver depressed and anxious, and like my life is hopeless and I can't live like everyone else.
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      I still have hope for this going away as a lot of the symptoms are only really there when I think about them. So I was wondering if others think this seems hopeful or not?
      the fear of my symptoms never going away also scares me a lot and makes things a lot worse.
      i am basically sober now, I don't even drink caffeine, but I do occasionally drink alcohol which I am trying to stop. I am on a diet and I go to the gym for a couple of hours daily.
      i can have episodes where I feel a lot better and that it is going to go away, and I can sometimes have whole days when I don't think I see any visual disturbances, but small things like my mood being changed can bring it on again where I feel worried about the hallucinations all the time.
      i am only 17 so I don't have access to any medication to help yet and it takes a long time to go through the children's mental health service.
      i was wondering if people think my hppd will fade eventually, and if there is anything else I can do to further my recovery.
      please don't give comments that are negative or make me feel like I will never be cured because it makes things a lot worse for myself.
      thank you for any responses given!
       
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I've had hppd for a year now and it has completely ruined my life,

I'm always either paranoid/depressed and about 5 months after getting hppd I got social anxiety.

I have bad visual snow and everything in my vision looks weirdly outlined?!

Nobody believes me and my whole life basically feels like a trip?

I haven't done any acid but I still smoke weed everyday but it's basically the only thing that keeps me sane lol

I have no idea what to do with myself and half of the time I'm thinking whether my life is worth living anymore, anybody else get any of the same shit happen? How long have you guys had it and do you know anyone that's actually fully recovered from this or are we all fucked?

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Smokes weed everyday... Mmmmmmm

Wonder why you are not recovering any? I have no idea. STOP ALL DRUGS

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Yeah stop smoking weed !! Weed is well known to cause derealization...

I have stopped all drugs, alcohol, stimulants and even tea !! I am sensitive to everything it's crazy.

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I've been 10 days without smoking weed now but I'm starting to suffer from really bad depression, and none of my symptoms have calmed down. What is the best medication for it?

This is bullshit, I've developed paranoia, depression & anxiety in the past year. Before ever touching acid I was completely normal human being with nothing to worry about

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Hey there ...hang in there have u considered trying lamictal or keppra? A sweet girl from this forum has posted me out some of her lamictal to try and she has had success with that.

I feel the same way u do...rlly struggling to hang in there it's a fuking horror show if nothing works for me I will not be able to continue living like this no fuking way!

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I've been 10 days without smoking weed now but I'm starting to suffer from really bad depression, and none of my symptoms have calmed down. What is the best medication for it?

I'd suggest trying some CBD, if you have the pocket for it. So far CanChew seems to be legit, whereas CibDex made me stoned.

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I'm going to try CBD again; I'd recommend it though from my previous experience. It was no xanax, but it was mildly anxiolytic. The thing is, though, that in the literature there are doses up to 1500mg/day used, whereas Cibidex and what not contain like 1.5mg per half dropper. Odisa, I saw you post about some other brand/source of CBD on longecity, any experience with it? it's expensive (like $100), but is a much higher dose (like 1500mg of CBD per cap). I may try some next month. 

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Unfortunately, I've heard bad reviews about that one; there are some on this site, as well as on longecity. The people behind the Cibidex products (who also sell CannaGum) are extremely kind. I still have A LOT of their products, so I may as well just take some daily until I run out. 

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Well that's all that matters! I'm actually glad to hear that just so I know I have more options (if something doesn't work for me I tend to try other sources of the same product to rule out a simple error in sourcing).

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Yeah stop smoking weed !! Weed is well known to cause derealization...

I have stopped all drugs, alcohol, stimulants and even tea !! I am sensitive to everything it's crazy.

. I was just curious on the severity of ur symptoms as well as how long u have had hppd?? I too had to quit coffee and tea, it made my visuals go squirrelly. This disorder is horrible especially when ur at the pinnacle of it whilst everything seems to affect it.

Hppdlife u are obviously not to far into hppd if u can smoke marijuana regularly, there is certainly a thrush hold and u could be on the brink of full blown hppd after ur last session with marijuana. Not trying to scare yeah I just wouldn't want to C u like me.. Trust!!

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Maybe but it works for me lol

Brake how u doing? Are u still doing the Cannabidials if so do they tell u what specific Cbd's ur ingesting?? There is a great feeling of relaxation with certain terpinoids that mix well with Endocannabidiols that make a good stack all natural which is good. Just make sure u stay away from the TETRAHYDROCANNABIDOLS.. TRUST.. But then again some people can do it without freaking out, I wouldn't recommend it especially if u have severe hppdΘ_Θ

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Yes I am still using CBD oil but not everyday anymore. And wow I didn`t know there that there are different kind of CBDs.

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Yeah, apparently there are different kinds; they all contain CBD (no difference there), but some have, as hppd24years stated, terpinoids along with dozens of other compounds that have cool lil names that I can't remember (haha). Very similar to how different all curcumin supplements are, in which some also come with turmeric essenial oil (essentially the turmeric fat), and some have dozens of other compounds that are beneficial, yet increase the cost, hence why most brands/sources don't include it. 

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Hey dude, I've been in Hell for a while now with this but ever since I stayed 100% away from weed I've been feeling better everyday.

I mean, I won't smell a bag of weed, I'll leave the room or party if I'm getting second hand smoke, everything.

Even slight second hand smoke triggers severe symptoms for me.

It wasn't until I made a super hard effort to remove ALL WEED that I started making HPPD-free progress.

10 days is a good start, but you seriously have to stop smoking. Maybe forever.

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U know there is a handful of peeps on this site that can smoke dope with hppd which is extremely rare but they can't drink booze or get drunk because it exaggerates their dp/dr. I'm the complete opposite I can get completely inebriated from alcohol and the next day I feel normality at its natural form. It's a catch 22 for me I simply can't drink every day. U_U hppd24years.

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U know there is a handful of peeps on this site that can smoke dope with hppd which is extremely rare but they can't drink booze or get drunk because it exaggerates their dp/dr. I'm the complete opposite I can get completely inebriated from alcohol and the next day I feel normality at its natural form. It's a catch 22 for me I simply can't drink every day. U_U hppd24years.

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U know there is a handful of peeps on this site that can smoke dope with hppd which is extremely rare but they can't drink booze or get drunk because it exaggerates their dp/dr. I'm the complete opposite I can get completely inebriated from alcohol and the next day I feel normality at its natural form. It's a catch 22 for me I simply can't drink every day. U_U hppd24years.

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I'm one of those who cannot take a sip of alcohol :(

I wish I could !! What is life without a cocktail or a nice glass of champagne or wine with dinner !!

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