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i wonder if anyone here struggle with identity.

 

Will i ever get it back?

i only get partal fragments here and there, but i never feel like a complete person.

everything is just a rollecoaster of bullshit.

 

in the beginning i still felt like myself, but not anymore, i am only a distant memory. 

Anyone get their identity back during this?

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i wonder if anyone here struggle with identity.

 

Will i ever get it back?

i only get partal fragments here and there, but i never feel like a complete person.

everything is just a rollecoaster of bullshit.

 

in the beginning i still felt like myself, but not anymore, i am only a distant memory. 

Anyone get their identity back during this?

I struggle a lot with this, what helps is to be around people who helped create your identity/ego, such as your parents, close friends, etc.. you are a product of your environment as they say. I find when im deep in a conversation with my mother or father, my true identity comes out and for that split second i feel normality, but its fleeting. The trick is to be able to hold onto that identity after the conversation has ended. I have yet to achieve this.

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thanks for replying.

 

i wish i could describe who i was, but i feel its gone, i will never be close to who i was

 

nobody created my identidy, i did so myself, so i have nowhere to go, not even home

 

my friendships are falling apart, only thing i have left is family but that is also a struggle.

 

everybody says their life is over, my live didn't even begin, i'm 25 and its killing me more by day.

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My life never 'began' and i'm in my early 30's.  

Not only do i have many shitty relationships, i have a shitty relationship with myself in terms of connection with reality and self esteem. 

Don't worry................It can get a lot worse. 

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My life never 'began' and i'm 24.

I am going alone abroad to work on Scotish farm, I will be living in a container with 3-7 unknown people because I need money for treatment.

relationship with my family is over. No one ever believed me that I am ill, although EEG showed anomalies.

It looks like, that I will need a lot of klono.

 

Always look on the bright side of life...


 

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oh god, i just rambled on and on about the existential looping thoughts i have on this topic but firefox shortcuts are the worst. yeah, i struggle hugely with identity, what constitutes the 'self', and so on. i'm not sure if pursuing philosophical/existentialist literature is a good idea or a bad one.

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