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So, when my hppd was really bad (I mean if I ranked it on a scale of zero being normal and one hundred being "I'm going to kill myself." My score would have been a 98, no joke) I use to feel as if my inner voice, you know, that voice you hear while you think...had disappeared. Then it slowly came back, eventually. Anyone else know what I'm talking about?

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Yes. In a way. I'm a writer. And I have always been acutely aware of the presence I have within myself. I still "hear" myself. But I struggle. I feel like it's much more quiet than it used to be. I also have trouble creating mental imagery as strong as I used to. I still can, but I have to focus, and it isn't too clear.

As a writer these skills were invaluable to me, I truly hope they return to normal soon.

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Yup rene, same here. Thats what bugged me the most honestly. I always had a quick response for everything, and then i was just a zombie...i literally had to force myself to think. Is that gone for you now, due to the keppra?

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I have this issue and severe brain fog as well. I can get scary thought loops sometimes as well, especially at night when I can't sleep. Like Boogres described it feels like being a zombie all the time. I won't be able to live like this for the rest of my life. :(

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I think i have the opposite problem.... The inner voice just wont be quiet and it sometimes feels way out of my control.

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I think i have the opposite problem.... The inner voice just wont be quiet and it sometimes feels way out of my control.

I experience this at night when i cannot sleep, then the "thought voice" goes out of control and that freaks me out. However, my thought process and "thought voice" is not the same as it was before i got HPPD. It feels like it's gone and i often have to force myself to think.

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Shit. I know exactly what you are talking about. That was the beginning of my problem this time around. I tried to remove my inner voice while reading. And now i realize that I can't get rid of my inner voice while reading or else i will go crazy. For me, the inner voice is necessary while reading. IDK a little off topic but this is how i feel.

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My inner voice has always been present, i like to narrate my life in third person, makes things more interesting :)

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It's kinda like when youre trippin...sometimes your mind is racing and youre struggling to control your thoughts, other times you can spend 30 minutes staring at something watching things morph or whatever without a thought in your head...

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