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Hey guys.Im 19 and last weekend (4 days ago) i used ecstasy for the first time. I took less then 1/4 of a pill and 3 hours later 1/4 again. At most it was half a pill (not tested, i know thats really stupid). I have done weed before but between every smoke there was about 1 to 2 weeks break.Now my questions is do i have hppd?The moment i woke up the next day of taking ecstasy i was scared that something was wrong with me. I had some blurred vision and a bit of a headache. So i started looking online and found out about HPPD. Now i am trying to see if i have the symptomsbthey discribe and guess what? i do have some of the symptoms.I have the visual snow one but only if i focus on it but yea its still scaring me.I do have afterimages but only when i look in really bright lights and itbonly stays for 0.5 second. And some bright car light have like this star shape but i think i had that as a child aswell.So yeah what do you guys think?I also want to mention that during the trip i didnt halucinate so im not sure if i eveb can get hppd without having halucinated. And the trip was good.The thing im most scared about is that i will never be able to drink a beer and smoke weed again. (i read that people with hppd cant to that anymore cause it increase the symptoms).What i dont have is things morphing in stuff and i dont halucinate. I dont feel disconnected with myself.Am i overthinking stuff or what?Thanks for reading,Henkneedshelp
Hi, my name is Sander, I'm 16, from Amsterdam and I hope you can help me. I have derealisation, HPPD, slight psychosis, and slight depersonalisation. There once was a time I had ADD, PDD/NOS, psychosis, derealisation, depersonalisation, seratonin syndrome, Alice in Wonderland syndrome, and HPPD at the same time. My HPPD and derealisation were caused by weed but are still pretty heavy. My psychosis and depersonalisation were caused by by weed too but worsened by an overdose XTC. After that I got Alice in Wonderland syndrome and Seratonin syndrome which went away after about two months. Now I'm currently only bothered by slight depersonalisation and slight psychosis and severe HPPD. I am very sensitive to drugs. I overdosed at 300mg of XTC (Dutch XTC but the worst clean XTC you could get here). I can have a great trip on 75 miligrams (that's back when I only had PDD/NOS and ADD). I am going to a festival this summer and booze is very expensive there so the cheapest solution would be XTC. Now I have a source of very clean blue Tesla's with a high dosage of MDMA. Or I can get pure MDMA. My question is not if it's a smart idea to do this, (because it's really dumb) but how high the odds are that I can fall back into the mental diseases I had and how big the influences are on my current mental disorders. Thanks for reading