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  1. Make the font larger. Difficulty reading due to HPPD is due to two reasons: visual distortions, the other being cognition (comprehension, etc). To aid the ability to see the words more clearly, I believe enlarging font size will help, because the after-images will be more pronounced, and thus more easily seen as such. Try it for yourself. See if it is easier to read this exact paragraph at this higher font. I'm only talking in terms of visuals, not comprehension. For me, the trailing after-images make reading difficult sometimes, but the larger font seems to help. Make the font larger. Difficulty reading due to HPPD is due to two reasons: visual distortions, the other being cognition (comprehension, etc). To aid the ability to see the words more clearly, I believe enlarging font size will help, because the after-images will be more pronounced, and thus more easily seen as such. Try it for yourself. See if it is easier to read this exact paragraph at this higher font. I'm only talking in terms of visuals, not comprehension. For me, the trailing after-images make reading difficult sometimes, but the larger font seems to help.
  2. That'd probably be even better, Still~
  3. I think there should be two new sections considered to be added to the website. Frist: Anxiety Everyone with HPPD deals with it, and it is actually one of the few factors that execerbates existing symptoms. Everyone has their own methods for coping with anxiety, and I think we need a place where all of that can be easily found. There is an entire section devoted to benzodiazepines, such as Clonazepam and Xanax, including their abuse and withdrawel. Well, why not a section which deals with how to make benzodiazepines less of a necessity, such as one which extinguishes anxiety at the source, such as negative thought processes, instead of placating it with medications (the destructive side-effects of which many of us can attest to). This would not, of course, remove or lessen the necessity for a benzodiazepine section, as it is an enormously beneficial (and at times critical) tool when used properly. Second: Philosophy This would be similar to the anxiety section (and perhaps the two should be one) in that they both target the same problem. But philosophy extends beyond the scope of anxiety. Again, everyone has their own philosophies; from fate, to God, to atheism, to why to be positive, for why to be hopeless, why it is pointless to go on, why it is worth fighting to go on, reasons to live, reasons to die, reasons to be kind, reasons to think reasons exist. And everyone could weigh in on everyone else's views, which would foster the dissemination of ideas, and enrich everyone's lives with new ways to look at the world, new ways that might breathe fresh life into each of us. Those that seem appropriate to your life and how you see the world, take them with you. Those that do not seem accurate to you, simply discard them. And those who propose their own philosophies, be they their own or from another known philosopher, may find others' views on it suplement it. They might even challenge it, which could still lead to further, healthy contemplation. This section would require great composure from those who post. The potential for cruelty towards a worldview of someone else that clashes with your own could not be tolerated and would make the section impossible to run, as it is not the job of the moderators, who donate their time and energy and effort for free (shout out to all moderators: thank you), to comb a single section constantly because it is profuse with childishness. Anger, I believe, is ok, but not towards another person on the forum. Our situations are to serious for cruelty towards one another. We make up this community, and it is up to us to try to improve it for each other, and especially for the hundreds who comb the website who have not yet decided to become a member. I was one of them. Trust me, there are many, many more. Also, I do not know the logistics of this (for example, if it would cost the website more money to run if there were more forums). This is just to get a consensus on whether these seem good ideas. So, what does everyone think?
  4. I just ran across this on Wikipedia: "Neuroplasticity is a non-specific neuroscience term referring to the ability of the brain and nervous system in all species to change structurally and functionally as a result of input from the environment.[1] Plasticity occurs on a variety of levels, ranging from cellular changes involved in learning, to large-scale changes involved in cortical remapping in response to injury. The most widely recognized forms of plasticity are learning, memory, and recovery from brain damage..." I'm not saying HPPD is brain damage, by the way. In fact, I think it is more likely a sort of brain disorganization. But in the case that it is, or that it could be classified as brain damage, there is reason for optimism. Here is the link: http://en.wikipedia....Neuroplasticity It goes on to mention something about the most easily recognizable form of neuroplasticity has to do with visual sensory neuronal systems, so perhaps even stuff like visual snow and after-images will repair themselves via this plasticity. There have also been studies done to induce neuroplastic events. They've done it in rats and cats and probably a billion times. I know very little about this at the presetn, as I am just beginning to study it. More in the future. I'm doing a class presentation on a form of neuroplasticity. I'll put interesting stuff on here. The more I read, the more hopeful I get. Hope you all are well. Peace.
  5. As for taking other hallucinogens to test if they improve your symptoms, that is an extremely risky idea. It has some merit, as we simply know so little about HPPD, every bit of information helps. That being said. Don't take 4-HO-MET. It is very possible the 'decrease' in your symptoms is from the benzodiazapine alone. As to 5ht-tolerance, that is currently over my head, but from what I do know now, it doesn't seem to make sense to me. I could be wrong, however. But 5HT is a serotonin receptor, so that receptor being somehow put into a more tolerant state (I don't know what you mean by tolerant. More receptive to serotonin? Less receptive?) would not seem to make sense to me. I think you should keep coming up with hypotheses, but I absolutely have to encourage you to not do further hallucinogens. The affect of watching visual snow by watching static could be indeed a viable sort of technique. Or it could be completely placebo. Or it could be that you simply do not notice as much snow because you have beceom desensitized due to seeing so much of it on a TV. So at the least we have a new idea on how to combat visual snow. It's a good idea. But do NOT take the hallucinogen anymore. It is too much of a risk. If you were in some kind of completely controlled, completely clinical lab setting, and there was data to suggest the hallucinogen might aid in reversing HPPD, it would still be a huge risk, and probably unethical. It would probably never be approved in a clinical trial if it is illegal. So, that's it. Basically, my opinion is that further hallucinogen use should be avoided COMPLETELY by anyone with HPPD. There may be at some time a time and place to test different, potentially dangerous, chemicals on how they affect HPPD, but now is not the time. You take too huge a risk for too small a potential benefit. That's how I see it.
  6. From webMD: "Don’t use 5-HTP until more is known. 5-HTP might be UNSAFE." As far as making HPPD permanently worse, I have no idea. There are other medications to help with anxiety that are safe. You should take those if you can. Klonopin, xanax, valium, etc. I wouldn't take 5-HTP.
  7. David I need you to contact me immediately. I cannot send you messages on your profile page on this site, and know no other way to contact you privately. Contact me asap at Locrian4@gmail.com
  8. Hooooooooooooly shit. Thanks David. "YOU ARE MORE LIKELY TO CORRECTLY DIAGNOSE HPPD IN YOURSELF than receiving a correct diagnosis by a clinician." So true. My Harvard trained psychiatrist attempted to, while contradicting himself at times, tell me I did not have hppd. I will try to dig into these as much as I can, as I am taking a class on the neurological basis of learning and behavior, so this might be just barely what I can comprehend. You're a knight, man. I don't know if everyone realizes it, but you are.
  9. To Ludwig, yes a musician . I had no anxiety issues with Keppra, though I do believe for a few weeks after first taking it I experienced increased aggression, but it was minor. Broccoli, send me an email and I send the testimony file. My email is Locrian4@gmail.com
  10. I take 1500 mg of Keppra, 150 mg of Seroquel, and 200 mg of Lamictal. Seroquel is an anti-psychotic designed for usage for patients with schizophrenia and/or bipolar disorder. It is also a massive sedative, so it will damn near knock you unconscious when it takes effect, so you take it at night. If you have trouble going to sleep, this is a major benefit, though I suppose it would be considered a side-effect. It's also used in conjuction with other medications to aid in other areas, such as reduction in OCD or anxiety, etc. I actually have a post of the list I compiled on this website. I'll find it. I will send you the file.
  11. I know that for myself, I watched these forums for about a year and a half or more before I became a member. We need to make this place more welcoming to people who have HPPD. It is not that the forums are unwelcoming. I agree also that I think there is some degree of denial going on, as if to say "If I don't join HPPDonline, then I'm not one of them, I don't really have HPPD like they do." This, while so easily seen as foolish when written down, can be incredibly powerful in the subconscious, and I think really is hampering people from joining. The labeling effect, as its knowin in psychology, is a powerful phenomenon. I think what people have said about the more we post, the more it will encourage others to post is true as well. I also think the format of the website could use improvement. Perhaps we could create a tutorial of how to use the site. For example, the "Follow this topic" feature... I have no idea how to use. Perhaps I just click on it, but I haven't bothered yet, as I have so much studying to do I don't want another thing to learn, and I'd rather just mosey around the forums. I think this is innefficient though, obviously. But for a person with severe HPPD, this might be a very real probelm, because when I had bad HPPD, I literally might not have been able to figure it out, or it would have been a really huge task. Also, there might be some paranoid thought about privacy being an issue by joining the site. "What if my employer finds out... or my parents... or I leave the computer on and my landlord sees it or" I think we could use a tutorial. If I get time, I will work on one. And if there already is one, sorry for my ignorance.
  12. Yep. Pre-HPPD or minor HPPD. Stop where you are and count yourself lucky. You got to experience drugs. Now your time with them is over. It is time for a new chapter in your life. You will either stop the drugs completely, or regret permanent condition of potentially horrific symptoms the rest of your life. The intrusive thoughts you have (chopping people open, guts, gore, etc), I had those as well. I would catagorize this as an HPPD symptom as well. Cash your chips in and move on and enjoy the aspects of life you can only really enjoy with the absence of any and all drugs. I know that sounds hard, and even sounds crazy. I remember when I smoked weed every day all day that life without weed seemed crazy. Any huge lifestyle change is an enormous task. There are benefits and drawbacks of life with or without drugs. Hallucinogens can expand your consciousness, show you music in ways you will never experience again to the same degree (unless you strengthen your mind, which will allow you to notice more stimuli, and thus recapture some of that drug-like experience), etc etc etc, and those things are wonderful. But they also have this hell-side effect of HPPD. If you are getting HPPD, trust me, every single hallucinogen you try from this point on you will regret. Enormously. If you want to know how bad HPPD can get, you can read my introduction, or you can just ask me, and I will scare the fucking shit about you. You wanna know what it's like to live in a nightmare, a real nightmare, where you wimper at night in terror at shadows, I can tell you about them, and much much much much more. So, basically to sum up: there are positives and minuses to a life with hallucinogens, and positives and minuses to life without them. You now get to enjoy the second part. It is a different life, and, trust me, the rewards are great and wonderful in their own way.
  13. I've been struggling with tiredness myself. I take a lot of 5 hour energy, but I know it's basically terrible in some way I don't know of or care to know of. It sounds crazy, but when I get sleepy, I've just started going jumping jacks. Like about 20 of them. It works. Just keep doing them till you're awake. Pretty scientific isn't it.
  14. Another thing: Don't be afraid to tell your doctor "I don't want general anesthesia." They may actually want you to get general anesthesia because it would require a hospital room, and thus make the hospital money. So they might pressure you. I have to get something done next friday, and the doctor said, basically "We should do it at the hospital. They have a lab right there and we could get the results back quickly." I said, "But I don't want general anesthesia. Is there any way we could do it without." And he said, "Yes, we could do it right here. I could give you local anesthesia. And infact, the lab we have here is better than the one we have at the hospital." Money. Remember: the doctor works for you, not the other way around. You tell him how it's going to be when it comes to the choices that are up to you. Don't let them bully you.