wont be beaten

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  1. Hi guys I have been taking seroquel also known as (quetiapine) for the last few years. anyways i have stayed away from the boards during this time as i just feel it makes me think about hppd which makes my symptoms worse. I dont know if seroquel has helped or not. I seemed to be a ble to cope for a while but recently my hppd has came back so i cut down on my dose and i have still stayed bad. Anyways what i need to know is should i be on this drug in the first place? has anyone else had any experience with seroquel? i need to know what to do. should i be taking something else? i dont want to take any benzos at the fear of becoming addicted. The visuals dont even bother me that much, its just the anxiety that i can't deal with.
  2. Did he not give u any advise on how u could help yourself cope with hppd?
  3. Hello I'm from the uk and would LOVE a phone consultation. How did you get in touch with Dr Abraham and how long does it take to set up? How long were you on the phone for? Did he tell you anything that has helped you?
  4. Do u experience any of my other symptoms aswell? Such as the hot flushes and bone clicking etc? How do u deal with it?
  5. Hello guys, Im a 27 year old man who lives in Newcastle, England. I have been suffering from what I believe to be HPPD for 11 long hard years. I foolishly used to take alot ecstasy and marajuna when I was 14,15,16 years of age and I got it from that. I suppose you could say I have self diagnosed myself. I have seen numerous doctors, quacks etc over the years, I've tried massages, hypnosis and god knows what else to try and rid myself of this horrible demon. I used to be such an out going person who was up for anything and loved being sociable and to be honest the centre of attention. Over the years I have actually managed to get some of these personality traits back but for a long time I have been more the kind of person who won't go out and wants to be alone for fear of being anxious. I used to come online a few years back and read everyone elses stories and medication experiences etc. But to be honest I was so anxious at the time it all freaked me out and I physically couldn't look at the screen. So I stayed away from reading stuff on HPPD over the net, the more I read about it the more i thought about it and the more anxious it made me. Even as I write this now I am starting to get very twitchy and feel nervous and on edge. Every day I see flashes of light, electrical looking waves in my field of vision. Some days it worse than others. If I concentrate on it I can actually make it worse so I obviosly dont ha ha. Sometime when i close my eyes I see a lazer show in my head which I can actually manipulate. This completely freaks me out. I'll be honest the vision stuff doesn't even bother me so much anymore its the anxiety that comes with it that effects me the most. I am just going to list my symptoms to make it easy Visuual disturbances Anxiety Constant sweating Fatigue (I am tired from the moment I wake to the moment I fall asleep) Constant bone clicking Aches and pains all over my body Sometimes it feels like my bones are actually rotting away inside me, I feel like 90 years old Headaches I get music playing in my head One song over and over, it drives me insane!!! Hot flushes teeth fell like they are rotting I used to get head zaps (i dont now) I am sure I've probably missed something out. Anyway I tried various meds and somehow I ended up taking Seroquel (quetiapine) for the last 2 years. I was prescribed it by my doctor and it made things worse to start off with but over time I seemed to be able to cope, although the visuals stayed constant. I have since been trying to get off the tablets due to the fact I don’t want to be on them forever and they also give me false hunger which has made me gain a lot of weight. I don’t know if its helping coming off them or not, my head is all over the place all of the time and I cant tell. I have found that exercise helps a lot and I try to play football or go for runs as often as I can. I also find that trying to block it all out actually does wonders, the more time not spent thinking about hppd the better. Anyways I am still determined to beat hppd and become free of it. It has put a big obstacle in front of my life and I am ghoing to knock it down one way or another. I guess I have eventually plucked up the courage to write something on these boards after all this time just to have the opportunity to talk to others who have HPPD. I am having a rough time at the moment and need to speak to others who know what I am going through. Please reply and let me know if all this sounds familiar, what meds help u? what other tricks do u use to feel normal? Do any of you live local to me? I’d love to actually meet someone face to face who is going through the same thing. Thanks for reading