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  1. I started on x2 500mg tabs a day. I don't think we need more than that for HPPD because it's a low end dose for Keppra but now I take as needed which is either X1 500mg day or x2 but I would say start with x2 or atl at work your way up to that dose. I have zero side effects but initially I hear it can have some. Those will go away. Klonomopin or xanax both would work well since she might feel comfortable doing klonomopin over xanax I would say 1-2mg per day should be ok on either. print out the study's on this site showing her th science of it th xanax family of drugs affects the region of brain and calms the HPPD and together I find they managed my symptoms completely. I printed articles from this site showing the science and user experience to let my doc try maybe that will help you. Also for Keppra make sure you demand name brand. It's more expensive but makes world of difference. Worst case you can try for a while than try generic and see if still works. But if you try generic you will never know if bad effects are from generic or drug itself. Hope that helps good luck.
  2. Yeah that's great I hope you can sort it out. Honestly spiritual growth is something I always wanted to work on but never got around to fully embracing the lifestyle, I would be curious how you feel about it and how it affects your life and energy. I know how hard it can be to get a script for Keppra but I really feel it can help you so it's a shame swim might not be able to find out. Best of luck.
  3. Yeah one thing to keep in mind is hallucinogenic drugs even plant based can cause depersonalization and derealization which can accompany HPPD almost always according to Dr. Abraham. I actually am subbed to a YouTuber who did some Indian ritual type drug and after the trip was left with lingering severe DP/DR that still affects him to this day. Like Jim Morrison said once the doors of perception are open, they can never be closed. Sounds like you are describing almost exactly feelings of DP/DR so I would almost say for sure that's what you are experiencing right now. My visuals (tracers,floaters, light sensitivity, etc) were never what really debilitated me it was the horrid feeling of anxiety and racy mind and just not feeling 'myself' that went with them. Pretty much exactly what you described. Also of relevance to you I have a young friend who took 9 hits of highly potent LSD and it did not hit him untoll two weeks later when he was rushed to the ER and now also has DP/DR as like you said DP/DR feels like a form of PTSD which leaves your mind in a constant state of fight or flight. That's how this all began for me, with a bad trip in the 90s that caused me to lose control and experience a sort of out of body experience that freaked me out. The best thing anyone can have on hand when doing LSD is xanax or a benzo. I would argue it should be a requirement and I was told by another mid 20s friend who consumes and sells the stuff that is becoming a rule of thumb now days which is quite smart if you think about it because it could help calm the mind enough during these episodes that the trauma is not permanent since it clearly affects the same parts of the brain that hallucigens do science is now showing. With all that said I can't say if this is going to be permanent for you or not but you have to assume it very well could be. These things are not easily reversed. Your best bet is to try and somehow convince a doc to script you some Keppra (which is primarily for DP/DR btw) and a low dose benzo to calm the mind. It's possible that taking this treatment along with spiritual practice can re rewire your brain before things become permanent. Hope that helps.
  4. I can't speak for everyone but there is no question for me this is not going away, it will most defiantly be something that only manages symptoms along with a benzo. Together they seem to work really well, again I only had any sort of sucess with the name brand, I tried around 5 generics and each made me feel different and none helped symptoms (except for Teva which they discontinued). So yeah I would say it's life long treatment for sure, but your mileage may vary. If I quit taking it for a day or two I notice all my tracers and static noise coming back along with feelings of DP/DR.
  5. It was more around 2013 year I finally got established relief but basically because visiting this site is depressing as fuk and I was busy starting a business and raising a family along with dealing with new health complications that consumed my life and caused just as much pain and anguish as HPPD did due to lasik surgery complications. With that said who gives a chit why I'm posting now? Are you trying to imply something against my lack of character? It would have been easy to forget about this site all together instead of taking time to post my results in an effort to help someone who might benefit from this treetment as much as I have.
  6. So I haven't been to this forum in years. I think I joined over 12+ years ago. I used to be very active here. I am writing this for all the new generation eager for a possible solution. I never thought I would find a cure but I did. I suffered from severe LSD induced HPPD and DP/DR since I was 17 I am now 35. I have tried everything and nothing helped. I have read the research been to Boston you name it. It ruined my entire 20s and high school years, I always felt not myself and had massive floaters and tracers. It was like being on a low dose of LSD. Like a bad trip that never ended. I was living in a nightmare that no one understood. From 2010 to 2012 I decided I was gonna find a cure or end up killing my self. I heard some people mention mild sucess with Keppra and convinced my doc to script me. I tried generic and it didn't help made me feel worst, I had read reports on net about people who take Keppra and some mention of huge difference between name brand and generics. I tried every single generic of this drug that is out there and none helped at all and had bad side effects. As a last ditch effort in 2012 I gave name brand a try and BOOM not long after my symptoms of visual disturbance and feelings of depersonalization began to fade. I took x2 500mg tabs a day along with low dose xanax as needed. Long story short I am happy to say HPPD is a distant memory now and I get all my name brand Keppra free as part of a program they have for people that can't afford. I usually only take one 500mg tab a day and if I miss a few days the tracers start coming back and that feeling of being in another reality like I'm back in acid hits. Soon as I take a Keppra it relieves my symptoms 100% (benzo helps as a combo). So this is for anyone looking for a drug to try to help them as I litteraly never visit this site anymore. For those who tried Keppra generic with no luck I can't stress enough I had zero relief it has to be NAME BRAND!!!! Even though I have plenty of problems in my life now due to lasik surgery complications I can't tell you how fuking nice it is to be my old self again and not have HPPD! I am a completely different person and it's all thanks to Keppra name brand and small doses of benzo. I find you don't even need a high dose, 500mg a day and I'm good. But I can't stress enough this was not the case at all with the generics. Hope this post helps someone. One last thing is I am also able to smoke pot and drink alcohol again without aggrevating my symptoms like it used too, which I don't recommend but I use cannibus for neurapathy. If your smoking recreationally you need to quit. The Keppra name brand is litteraly like a magic pill for me. Hopefully it is for some of you guys suffering too. Find a way to give it a try. Best of luck!
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  8. I went to the doctor here in town to get some xanax. He basically refused to prescribe it to me because he is worried i will try to sell them for 5$ each..... fucking doctors. Instead he gave me some clonozapem, which i thought was better than nothing. This med is a joke, the effects are mild even with 2-3 mgs and it just made me really drowsy. Xanax is officially the best benzo out there, great effects for anxiety and doesnt make you drag ass all day and fall asleep while your working (like i did today). I cant see why people are so crazy about the klonopin, its a mediocre drug, especially when compared to Xanax.
  9. I only take it late in evening, you will feel calm and relaxed for a few hours than it will just knock you out. 1mg or .5mg is better to start. Three times a day is excessive, I would take one dose once every 1-2 days as you build a tolerance very fast. It's good for anxiety though you should def get some. I honestly prefer Xanax as kpins are just to sedating for me.
  10. Buddikaman82

    Klonopin Benefits

    I did not like it. Made me feel spaced out and tired. Always woke up next day very groggy. I much prefer Xanax since I wake up next day refreshed with no benzo hangover.
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  12. Buddikaman82

    Meidcation, Take 2

    i think stress and anxiety make HPPD symptoms much much worst. SSRI's and mood stabilizers can be beneficial `if` you can find one that agrees with you. Ever since i got this 13 years ago ive slipped into a underlying depressive state as my vision is so distorted and dissasociation is so bad. I tried nearly every anti depressant i could get my hands on. The one that i had the most luck with was Celexa. It did not make my HPPD worst and `slightly` improved my mood and sleeping patterns. On the flip side it made me FAT as hell and worst yet it made me NOT CARE. I gained a ton of weight on it and when i finally quit i dropped like 20 pounds just within the first two weeks. Its like i was a balloon that deflated. It also gave me Libido problems, but i got over that after a year or so. When i quit Celexa i jumped straight to zoloft it made me feel HORRIBLE. My HPPD was on fire with that medication. My girlfriend however is on Zoloft and she has no issues and it helps her ALOT, she is completely sane and normal on it with a great mood and outlook, so it depends on the person.
  13. Buddikaman82

    FML I relapsed

    You will know within 1-3 days if the drug is a good fit. They say it takes weeks to reach full benefits but in my experience your body will either agree or disagree with it after first dose.
  14. Buddikaman82

    FML I relapsed

    Yeah I relapsed also a month or two ago, it did not help my visuals.. I've had this 13 years and have tried various meds. As for AD's they are hit or miss. The one I would recommend the most is celexa, it has good results for anxiety and did not aggravate my visuals at all. The worst one I've taken is Zoloft, it made me extremely nervous and increased visuals dramatically. Wellbutrin is worth trying, I took mine with celexa, but didn't notice alot good or bad. Lamictal is worth trying also, but it's not an AD and is somewhat mild. The thing about ADs are how you feel within a few days of taking them. My psychiatrist says you should feel a 'calming effect' shortly after starting and if you do, that's a good sign the drug is a good fit. If you feel worse after taking its not a good sign, and you are better off switching meds untill you find one that does. Good luck.
  15. Buddikaman82


    I took Celexa for over a year with mixed results. For a while i believe it was helping my depression and anxiety. At the least i did not feel `bad` from it. I felt like it was not helping me much toward the end, and the worst side effect i had was weight gain. If you have weight issues this can bloat you up pretty bad. I lost 20-40 pounds a few weeks after i stopped taking it and could not lose weight even with diet and excersise while on the drug. I had some pretty bad withdrawl symptoms and fell into a deep depression after i stopped taking it. I think its hit or miss but definatly one of the better SSRI's ive tried. Give it a shot it might help you, you will know soon after starting. 40mg is a good dose.

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