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personal experience is what i wanted to hear though so thanks for the reply and i totally understand you when you say that headspin that i didn't normally get but yeah i will have a good go at it really soon peace

I must say that I've experienced increase's in that department but i am young so i guess i never really looked to far into it but yes it does lock into your brains reward system and send some relaxtion your way afterwards and pleasure so i guess you could be onto something. Interesting read all the same PEACE

Try to learn to realise that theres nothing about them that can hurt you and as weird as it sounds enjoy them i know this sounds easier said then done but I've learned too at this point if they stop you sleeping maybe try fill your day with things to make you dead tired i guess but my 2cents PEACE

I find these images quite peaceful mine have never been grotesque faces though that wouldn't be comforting as you cuddle up haha what i get normally without fail is just a purple sort of dartboard and it almost feels as if i move through the center and a new one forms and this cycle repeats until i sleep but its sort of a comfort for me now

Very interesting read and Great advice IMO I'd like to know how it went when you stayed clean again things improving? Peacee

I have to say I tried this but the burn is just too much stays in my vision for atleast 5 minutes without exaggeration but interesting in itself i read your other post also

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Im only new here and I've read many posts suggesting HPPD gets worse just with time? and sometimes people fully recover and something like getting sick seems to spark it up again? is there ever going to be peace in our futures? sigh.....try to stay strong my friend as i will PEACE

Hey great outlook on it I feel the same way that maybe HPPD is a sign that we were heading down the wrong track and as a sort of smack in the face turned the right way, I honestly beleive that if I never developed HPPD I wouldn't be moving forward as much as i am now its like a no other option way of living a healthy life and just making sure you don't take things for granted peace

Congratulations Ludwig80 im only new here and that was very insperational maybe there is hope for us HPPD'ers after all peacee

And to add the only symptom i can control is the patterns and i can just make them more pronounced and change the colours of them as weird as it sounds i can literally change them from pink to purple hues to blue, yellow, it really sounds quite strange but it is true

As far as Im aware so far no significant DP/DR but i havn't been abstaining from drinking smoking dosing as i should have been this has been my first real shot at it and i know they say you can't say you have HPPD without being sober for months but when theres patterns crawling up the walls and afterimages that last substantial amounts of time with visual snow and the rest you just know that it is what it is, only thing thats hard is I will have to detach myself from my current group of friends exetera because I've only just turned 18 and as you would know its quite difficult at my age to stay away from EVERYTHING even a couple of beers significantly increases my visuals . Thanks for the reply Boogres PEACE

Hey guys as you know I've just started on here so im not really too sure how it all works yet but anyway this is my story, Strangely enough im 90% sure i developed hppd from an E containing MDMA and many other unknown adulterants no doubt and this is when i first started noticing symptoms but at the time had no idea what this was it started when the morning after eating that pill i thought there was "sandflies" in the air it was thick with what i know now to be visual snow and other small visual effects but i somehow ignored that being an everyday pot smoker and went about my business as the time progressed i started taking mushrooms a few times and prodominately acid use which as i realise now worsened the symptoms to a point where they could no longer be ignored afterimages, visual snow tracers light sensitivity,and patterns used to crawl my walls in the most vibrant of purple hues blues and yellows this was all just getting worse and worse and started to really worry me so just recently i have decided to stop dosing stop smoking and stop drinking which 5 days into sober reality seems to be helping greatly with managing myself, but the strangest of all things is now im sobre i can control these to a degree and as for the wall patterns there less pronounced but i can literally bring forth the patterns and change the colour and sometimes the speed in which they flicker, so what i really want to know has anyone else been able to control these patterns before? I can absolutely 100% change their colour at will and the intensity in which i view them sorry if this was poorly structured but im in a rush and just wanted to get this out here and feedback would be great thanks alot peace n love

I'm in the situation now where i feel as if i mose well just keep smoking drinking, tripping with hppd because as i get clean i still live in this altered reality so whats the point anymore?