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I'm having sincere increase in floaters the last two days

I’m having floaters that’s for sure..

Hi, I have a question that's been bothering me a lot and I want to ask if someone could give me some more information about MDMA and the danger of depersonalization and derealization. I've been struggling with depersonalization and derealization several times before (more then a year) and I seem to be recovered now. I got my life completely back and have been enjoying it to the fullest (the usual going out and being social). Now last weekend I was going out with friends. One had put MDMA in their drink, but didn't tell me. So she went to the bathroom and she asked to hold her drink. Already quite drunk I just finished her drink because I felt like partying. There were only two good sips left, so it's not that i chugged the whole drink. Then she told me afterwards she had MDMA in it (just a little bit), but she can tell me everything just to make sure I don't freak out. Now I can't stop thinking about that I did some damage again. I mean, it was only two sips, but still I want to be careful. I DIDN'T REALLY FELT HIGH, but the days after my energy and mood was so bad. I don't actually know if it's just because I was freaking out or just overthinking because I'm so mad at myself for taking it or if it really was the effect of MDMA. I'm that kind of person that has been googling DP and MDMA and HPPD for the whole week thinking I fucked up again. I feel kind of different and have an increase in my floaters (which I used to have already), but I was wondering if anyone could tell me if even a small dose of MDMA (like two sips of a glass) could do permanent damage and cause you to relapse in depersonalization or even develop HPPD. What are the usual sypmtoms of HPPD when it starts? And can you actually develop HPPD from a tiny microdose of MDMA without even noticing any high? Pff Thanks in advance