dayum_son

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  1. Finished a few days ago "Red Notice" from Bill Browder. Very nice read. Going to start "Journalists for Hire" from Udo Ulfkotte. German version of the book however, so it's not going to be a walk in the park with my poor and old german skillz.
  2. Found something weird : When I focus on something really hard with my eyes, everything starts to move. Now that's not the weird part. What I noticed is that I would get "exposure" shifts, like the brightness changing randomly. So I filmed my eyes while focusing on something, and weirdly enough, my pupils dilate and constrict randomly for no apparent reason. What the hell.
  3. Good find ! It may not be as uncommon as we (or everyone else) think.
  4. I'm pretty sure green tea makes my hppd slightly worse. Will try again. Looks like every person is affected differently.
  5. ^ That. My HPPD didn't start after a single dose. I dosed up to ~200ugs. It settled in once I started microdosing once a week, and smoking a joint each microdose day before going to bed. At first, I found the VS cool, and thought it was just a side effect. After about a month, I realised it would not go away and stopped all drugs. HPPD stayed with me ever since. It is the repeated dosing that made me develop this disorder rather than the dosage itself.
  6. Just started taking CoQ10. At first, I will do 100mg per day for 3 months, and then will continue with 400mg per day. I didn't start 400mg right away since I have already ordered the 100mg 3 month supply. (I didn't see the 400mg mentioned prior to that.)
  7. Sure, as long as there aren't 300 pages ^^
  8. As far as I remember, studies from Dr. A. suggested that people experiencing a bad trip will have more chances having HPPD. But you don't need a bad trip to have HPPD. If we don't include flashbacks which are more PTSD oriented imo, I would say it is a chemical imbalance, as some PET scans showed.
  9. And better than drugs
  10. Yes I will also start for the first three months at 100mg a day and we'll see from there. I don't want to start taking important amounts of substances, don't know how ze brein will react.
  11. I didn't do any MRIs as of now, because I don't have time. Job, exams, issues with the car and other stuff.....
  12. I'm afraid we can't really scare anyone away from psychedelics using HPPD as a reason. The problem is that you can't see HPPD nor experience it if you don't have it. It's easy to show H users having ulcers and overdoses and such, because it can be recorded and used to scare people away from these drugs. But with HPPD, if you say you have tracers and VS and after images, most people will think it's cool. If we can prove that HPPD damages our brains and be like Alzheimer's where basically you just wait for your neurons to die, that might change the public opinion. Me as an example, I heard about HPPD and flashbacks when I started using acid, did this stop me from using it ? Of course not ! I thought that this only happens to others, mainly people that are predisposed to schizophrenia and whatnot. The other problem is, as you said, the glorification of the drug. Famous youtuber PsychedSubstance makes videos on psychedelics. He keeps talking about harm reduction, test your drugs, 25i-NBOMe etc etc, but he underestimates the risks psychedelics involve. He says that flashbacks are very rare and just PTSD, while he says HPPD is something claimed by attention-whores but nothing to be worried about. In fact, it might not even exist. Harm reduction ? Yeah right. So if we want people to take HPPD (and psychedelics) seriously, we should focus on proving HPPD damages our brains in a serious way and let the public know that LSD and similar drugs are not safe. As Dr. A. said, LSD is like russian roulette, but with drugs. When I heard LSD was physically safe, I told myself : Well it's probably mentally safe for me as well since I'm not crazy ! And all these youtube channels should stop glorifying drugs. Because in the end, you can call it a tool, an eye opener, a mind expander or whatever, it's still just a drug. It won't put food on the table at the end of the day, and won't pay your bills at the end of the month (but will make them more difficult to pay !).
  13. As I have previously read, he already had 3 heart attacks prior to his death. So , or it was just another heart attack, or german BND decided it was time. Who knows.
  14. The book isn't banned in Germany. https://www.amazon.de/gp/aw/d/3864451434/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?__mk_de_DE=ÅMÅZÕÑ&qid=1523989205&sr=8-1&pi=AC_SX236_SY340_FMwebp_QL65&keywords=gekaufte+journalisten&dpPl=1&dpID=51VVgBaPK5L&ref=plSrch You can buy it there and available in Switzerland too. However I can confirm it is impossible to find an english version.
  15. Ok so ordered CoQ10 and a few other things unrelated to this thread like lemon balm (I think you recommended this on some other thread dasitmane). Will keep you posted.
  16. Yeah well I grew up speaking Swiss-German so it should be possible.
  17. This is a bit off-topic but your post made me buy Ulfkotte's book. Time to dig out my old german skills.
  18. Nothing. Zero. Weed and everything serotonin related are the worst offenders. Generally, everything makes HPPD a little bit worse, but not by much.
  19. The only supplement that makes my symptoms pretty worse is 5-HTP.
  20. Usually stimulants make my symptoms just a tiny bit worse, unlike weed. So yeah, I'll look for it.
  21. You need to tell your doctor about HPPD. If he doesn't (want to) know about it, go see another doctor. Docs can't give you the proper treatment if they don't know what's happening to you. It's like asking your mechanic to fix your car but you can't really say what's wrong with it in the first place. He'll start replacing random parts and trying random stuff that might fix the problem or make it worse.
  22. Yeah I'd say give Keppra a try, you can always go back to Lamotrigine after if you feel it is the only med that has worked for you.
  23. If I can find that CoQ10 pretty easily, I'm gonna give it a try. Can't hurt, or is it ?
  24. Damn, reading that first post almost feels like me a year ago. Bad trip, different dimension, everything ugly... Looks like you have the typical HPPD symptoms and should of course quit all drugs. Even ayahuasca. People have had HPPD from aya. And taking a hallucinogenic drug while having a condition which has been caused by a hallucinogen is a bit.... ehm.... un-smart Ayahuasca will make HPPD worse, that's for sure. So yeah, your HPPD is weak, do not make it worse, because you can always make it worse even if you think that's not possible.
  25. Thanks for the update ! I'm sorry to hear about your tinnitus, I hope that it will go away, and probably will. Bad sleep cycle happens frequently after MDMA. MDMA depletes your serotonin levels. Serotonin is responsible for many things like appetite, mood and sleep. So when your serotonin is a bit down, for some ppl it makes them have bad sleep cycles. For some (like me), it makes them sleep like a small child ^^.