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  1. so i first realized something wasn't right a week after my first and only acid (or potentially some sketchy research chemical) trip which took place on may 28th, 2017. i was a typical pothead for a couple of years before hand but the stuff has made me feel like i was on acid ever since. about a week after my trip, i took a fat dab which took me right back to my acid experience. After that night i began to experience symptoms of hppd. i would encourage you to look at my post history and read my original post from when i first realized i was experiencing symptoms of hppd. i am making this post because i wanted to shine a beacon of hope for those of you who are experiencing what i wet through over the last 6 months. Here's what i have to say; you are gonna be okay. Its is very shocking to have these changes in your perception of reality. it really is. acid was life changing without a doubt. it changed the way i interpret reality. theres no changing that. i had departmentalization. i still do from time to time, but its something ive learned to live with. my symptoms consist of after images, double vision, floaters, starbursts and halos around lights, patterns and hypnagogic hallucinations before sleep. acid took a crowbar and opened the hell out of my third eye and i wasn't ready for it. i remember how i felt when i was first going through this and i made a promise to myself that if i made it out the other side i would make a post to encourage others to keep trudging through the mud of hppd. Heres the bloody truth. all of the visual symptoms i had when i first got hppd i still have today. they haven't gone away. however, i still do consider myself lucky. Today i feel that i have made great progress in overcoming the burden called hppd that has taken a hold on my life. i am here to tell you that these symptoms do not have to dictate your attitude or the direction of your life. i live with these symptoms and they no longer get to dictate how i feel. Hppd taught me the power of my own will to overcome the negative experiencess that i have in life. it taught me to value what i do have and to not take it for granted. i still have a stable mind and a functioning body, and i will forever be gracious for those things. Basically, if you are coming to this post because you have hppd i really want you to understand that your well being is entirely in your hands. Whether or not your symptoms fade, it is your mind state that really counts and that is the first thing you should be focusing on if you are looking to get better. Everything will be okay. But you have to stay strong in order to achieve that "okayness". Its so easy to get lost in that spiral of negativity but it takes strength to believe in yourself. please if you have any questions leave them below, i will be happy to give you my input. i had a lot to say but i cant organize it all in this post, i know i had a ton of questions when i came to this forum so don't hesitate.
  2. Do you think I'm gonna be stuck with this condition long term? I know there are no concrete answers but do you think I will recover?
  3. As of 3 days ago I've been running each day. I've also been meditating. These things seem to help my anxiety and maybe even the visuals short term. Do you think ambien could exasperate my symptoms?
  4. Good to hear. I know it's hard to say but how much worse could it get for someone in my situation? Any advice on how to get better sleep? I've been taking meletonin here and there but it doesn't really seem to do much. Do you think nicotine will be detrimental to this condition?
  5. Hi all. This is my first post because I am concerned with changes in my vision over the last few weeks. A little over a month ago, I took a single tab of what I believe was lsd. Small, tasteless tab, I held it in my mouth for about half an hour. I tripped for about 8 hours. Smoked weed a few times throughout. I had pretty intense visuals at the peaks of my trip. Overall a nice trip, with a couple moments where I did experience fear. I came down and felt normal after comedown. I was smoking daily, and continued to until a week after the trip, I took a dab and was thrust back in to the acid headspace. I had mild visuals, fractal patterns and some changing colors. Not too intense, but since then I have felt strong anxiety, and in the pst week I have noticed changes in my vision, leading me to worry about hppd. The days following the weed induced flashback I felt very depersonalized, very anxious and it seemed to be less each day. But in the past week I have started to notice changes in my vision. Starting with intense after images, I first noticed watching tv I would get an after image of my tv that lasted longer than I had ever remembered. At work I looked at the parked cars on a sunny day and I closed my eyes, the after image of the white cars and parking lines I could see in vivid detail for about 5 or ten seconds, later I noticed halos around lights, starting with the lights in my house, and then street lights and head lights. I get rather mild tracers off of lights at night, they last a few seconds. During the day they last maybe a half a second. I haven't been sleeping well. When I go to bed I have intense phosphane images and occasionally fractal patterns. Flashes of light. Since the weed induced trip I have been clean from all drugs accept an e cig, I stopped drinking coffee, I'm worried that my symptoms are getting worse. Should I be worried? This was my first and only acid trip, I don't have much to compare it to but it was very intense. Am I developing hppd? I'm not sleeping well because of all this, I am dreaming vividly, likely because of the removal of weed. When I sleep I only dream. I wake up multiple times per night in between dreams. I've had sleep pralisis and acid trip dreams. I'm worried that this is gonna effect my life.