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  1. I have trouble staying asleep if I'm not exhausted, if I am I sleep a long time. But if I'm just tired I'll sleep a few hours then can't fall back to sleep. Shit sucks >,<. Example: right now, awake at 2am on a school night.
  2. How many of you right before falling asleep you'll move in a motion that'll be related to a dream.? For me I box, and I think about my jab. Then I'm in a dream like state and ill throw I jab, like a small move of my hand.
  3. i haven't changed my diet, just doing exercise. my symptoms have been the same since june 2nd. maybe a little worse idk.
  4. not near, i think maddoc is though. i'm in maryland, silverspring.
  5. I know, it's not probable. But it's possible. @TheMythos
  6. So I took acid twice like 4 months before school was over, I had no residual effects and lived my life as normal. On June 2nd I went to a friend's house, it was his birthday. We all brought weed, I brought 2g's my friend did the same. We smoked a duck ton, around 6 grams. That whole time I didn't have visuals, I was chilling. This was like a month after taking lsd, no visuals in that time frame. After that night I woke up, grabbed the bubbler and smoked 2 bowls. I went home and that day was weird. I felt it the whole day, 8am to 1am. I was on my computer for a few hours that day, when I got off I had a massive black rectangle in my vision. Black as hell, I didn't know what was happening. I didn't know what it was. I think I got hppd from weed and not lsd. Now my symptoms are better, I notice them like 3-5 times a day. Things are good, just don't feel like myself, cloudy brain. Thanks for reading, I just had a massive realisation. Replies much appreciated
  7. I've noticed an uptick in my symptoms from summer to school, it's really apparent. More symptoms I've noticed. Starburst are bad, lines on light come down to me. On text I have like double vision above the text. High contrast of text leaves lines in my vision. In white paper I see white dots moving all over the paper. It's enough that I'll notice it but it doesn't interfere in my life. With dp I have a brain fog, hard to articulate my self more. School is super stressful with 2 ap classes and constant work. It's fun and sucks simultaneously.
  8. Same, I'm school time feels like it goes 2 times as slow
  9. So I've been into fighting for a long time, and about a month ago I picked up boxing. I go to the gym and go at the heavy bags for like an hour, working on my foot work and stance. I just one day want to actually box, spar with people and what not. But with this curse I feel like I can't do the things I want to at the risk of this getting worse. Some dude got a concussion on here and had his symptoms come back, harder. So I want some advice. Please and thank you
  10. @K.B.Fante I decided to have a beer at a small get together. I'm trying to sleep right now and I'm having the thing where I imagine words, noises, laughing etc. It's annoying. It went away for a good bit, and I brought it back because of the people I was around. Sucks I can't sit and not be asked if I want some weed or a drink. I'm super tired so I'll force my mind to blank.
  11. Jesus wtf, almost sounds like an experiment on who can ruin themselves faster lol. I mean my dude, wHY? Drugs are fun but meth? Eh whatever I won't judge, but that's wild dude. If you've had hppd before why continue drug use? Is there a reason to sully your mind more?
  12. Yeah I used to meditate before bed, not so much anymore. If I'm feeling off I will though. I consume a little caffeine, I try to eat around a 1300-1500 calorie diet so I avoid soda and what not. But I'll indulge myself sometimes and have a coke. I don't notice any notable uptick in symptoms. I stopped drinking coffee, love coffee but I can't. If anything it might just be me waking up just cause. I wake up a lot once or twice between 1-3 am. I'll see what might it might be. Also on weird thing that happened to me was I ate like a plate of mashed potatoes, after eating it my body felt heavy. I felt like I was drunk and high. It was such a weird experience. @K.B.Fante
  13. Shit did you smoked some laced weed? Did your friend smoke the same shit as you? @Cjb007
  14. @K.B.Fante at night in the dark I full on trip, swirls in my vision, static and other things. It keeps me up, I keep my tv on when I sleep. It turns off by itself in 2 hours so when I wake up it's pitch black. I repeat the cycle of getting up turning my tv on, laying down and falling asleep. The visuals keep me up, they're really distracting in the dark. I think that's why but I'm not 100%. Last night I came home super tired and fell asleep, didn't wake up once. So idk.
  15. People who've suffered child abuse or seen war get dpdr and have it for the rest of their lives. It's a form of ptsd I feel as if. They're connected but have different circumstances. I felt dpish like a week or two after smoking some bud. But afterwards I feel like me.
  16. Many people find therapy doesn't help until they find the right person. Boogie2988 has had dp the majority of his life after a near death experience from child abuse. He has a good therapist after going through many therapists. It's patience, or so I'm told.
  17. For me after I smoked some bud I had wild visuals, literally stronger than lsd I've ever taken. Felt like I was straight on a fuck ton of lsd. My visuals were circles all in my vision covering everything. Essentially pokka dots. After that day I had bad anxiety and more vss for like a week. Afterwards I went to baseline and the anxiety went away. Now I feel better but my symptoms are the same.
  18. Who knows @Cjb007, what's your current living situation? Are you chilling or are you stressed? Have you continued any drug use? If not are you smoking cigs or consuming caffeine? Consider what might be making things worse, also since you only smoked weed you might have weed induced psychosis. It's possible since you feel like you're in a dream. Just consider getting help if it continues getting worse. Much love
  19. After having this for two months I notice when I feel unhappy, or depersonlized. Today I didn't think about hppd at all, I notice it here and there but I try to ignore. When I'm in a dark room, if I look at the tv and look away I get an after image for like a second. Not that bad for me but it feels like it's getting progressively worse. Might just because I'm awake at 2:36 but whatever. Have you picked up cardio at all? I love hitting heavy bags, it's fun cardio. Running is nice but gets boring to me. Pm me if you wanna talk, much love. Originally
  20. Anecdotal reports of people who've been on the site for ages say around 70% of people recover or forget about it and move on with their life. There a a good chance you will too. Just have faith in yourself and fight hard as hell to get better.
  21. That's wild jay, I get like a weird eye twitch now when I'm on a screen for a little too long. ;(
  22. Anyone excited for Dragon ball fighterz? If not Anyone play dokkan battle? If you do drop your user id and I'll add you. Feel free to discuss any other games anime etc, want to get a thread going!
  23. The dpdr tampers off, don't stress about it my dude
  24. No problem man, we're all going through the same thing. Being open helps, its therapeutic.
  25. I think it's the stress of going to a new environment my dude, if you looked bare at the eclipse then your vision would get worse. I think it's just the stress you're feeling, also you're taking an ssri which in this community is a no go. Most people report bad reactions. Try going off the ssri and go natural