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  1. Hey guys, so im just trying to gather some information on some meds supplements, as my psychiatrist is unwilling to prescribe any amount of any benzodiazepine. Does anybody have any experience using phenibut? Thinking of buying some and using maybe once a week. Also does anybody have any experience using research chemical benzodiazepines such as Etizolam which are still unscheduled? I know effects would probably be identical to other benzodiazepines but maybe someone here has tried Etizolam personally. thanks jason
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    Hey there, yeah there are definitely differences between manufacturers. Next time you go to the pharmacy, specifically ask for either Roche or Rivotril brand clonazepam, as I've heard they are better brands, although likely more expensive. EDIT: Or just talk to your pharmacist at the pharmacy you normally refill at, and ask them who manufactured your prescription BEFORE your last refill, and then request that brand again for future refills.
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    Feeling much better.

    I've found SSRI's have always made my visuals significantly worse, as well as potentiating the feeling of having HPPD in your body. Just take it easy on the benzos, eventually the day will come that they stop working, or that you'll have to stop taking them which will trigger a relapse that's worse then when you first ever got HPPD.
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    Lmao what I read "My dad might be my sisters uncle but I have some swedish and scandinavian in there" hahaha. Just kidding of course. Yeah my dad has it in a much more noticeable way, but his doesn't cause him the social impairment that mine causes me. For what it's worth a tiny bit of cocaine makes me much more socially functional, to a point, but if I exceed a certain amount it has the opposite effect. Sadly my doctor just tells me that like any other illness, borderline personality disorder exists on a spectrum and I just happen to be on the more affected side of that spectrum. It was like pulling teeth getting him to prescribe me keppra, and he downright refuses to let me try naltrexone. Yeah i'm on keppra 1000mg/day, and it makes me extremely somnolent, like so tired I struggle to lift my limbs out of my seat if I have to get up. But as time goes on my body gets more accustomed to it and i'm not as tired. Keep in mind that process has taken many months. What toxin were you 'exposed' to if you don't mind my asking? Under what circumstance?
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    Wow thats actually really funny. I've said that exact thing too... kind of like a little autistic but not really. Don't mean to derail the topic but I read that little bit, and in my head im thinking wow I thought I was the only one. I got it from my dad as well. Like a little tiny neurological blip in the way my brain functions that causes me to be extremely highly functional but also completely cognitively ignorant of social cues, and behaviours - or hints. I just don't respond and carry on as if it hadn't happened. (Mine became 10x worse when I got HPPD versus before I had it)
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    I think I have HPPD of some sort and need help

    Oh christ no, you'll learn to adapt. For me i've certainly had to make some changes to my life - but I have used this as an experience to redirect my life in a slightly different direction. For what it's worth, I take 1000mg of Keppra a day, which really helps me with my depersonalization and derealization. Give yourself time - it could take years, but youl get better. Just keep your nose clean, if you know what I mean.
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    @VisualDude no experience using neurosteroids - I was on enough of them as a baby having been born 3 months premature. 😂 On an unrelated but related note - has HPPD destroyed your ability to read and respond to subtle social cues? Mine certainly has, however my doc has diagnosed it as borderline personality disorder or a complication from being born premature.
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    I think I have HPPD of some sort and need help

    They'll become much less of a burden on your mental state as time goes on - let me put it this way, i've had HPPD for 3 years now and I drink every weekend, among other things. At the very onset of my HPPD I couldn't leave my room. So - yes things will improve over time.
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    I think I have HPPD of some sort and need help

    I like this stuff, plus you can order it online. https://www.davidstea.com/ca_en/tea/organic-mothers-little-helper/10233DT01VAR004072.html Otherwise, melatonin works well, and if you really need the help you can always talk to your family doc about the occasional ativan.
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    I think I have HPPD of some sort and need help

    Melatonin won't have any negative effect on your HPPD. You should go to one of those fancy tea places and get yourself a nice calming herbal tea perhaps.
  11. Hmm, maybe ambien is different - i've taken zopiclone (Imovaine) which has a very similar moa and found that it was almost identical to taking an ativan or two. Maybe just take a milligram or two of ativan if you find you need the help getting to sleep.
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    I think I have HPPD of some sort and need help

    Yeah it's quite common for people to develop HPPD weeks and months later. Certainly wait a couple of months and see how things go. If you can, abstain from using any form of benzodiazepine until your sure that you've hit your baseline, as using a benzodiazepine before then can confuse your senses into what your baseline actually is - causing you to think things are getting worse when they are not. If perhaps, 6 to 8 months down the road, you feel like you'd like to try out some medications to help you, you can check out my thread regarding available medications below - although I would recommend sticking it out for as long as you can without medications and seeing if you can recover naturally. Good luck
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    I think I have HPPD of some sort and need help

    Yeah it really took me about 2 months to stabilize, but you will adjust soon enough. For what it's worth I wasn't able to leave my room for like a week after mine started. Did your trails appear well after your last trip? Or did your trip lead right into your HPPD? For me I was tripping, went to bed, and then woke up the next morning still tripping, and haven't really stopped since.
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    I think I have HPPD of some sort and need help

    Hey there Zander, How long has it been since your HPPD has set in? Typically things gradually improve over the course of a few months - until you get to your baseline, which is the point that your HPPD hits a point where it stays the same. If you smoke weed at all, i'd recommend that you stop - any drug use will cause your symptoms to become significantly worse. If you really need some relief from your symptoms for a short while, you can always see your family doctor and have some ativan prescribed to you, just don't get too heavy into them, they're only a temporary solution to help you adjust to your new set of symptoms. Other then that, if you continue to live healthy habits, your HPPD should only improve over time.
  15. Ambien is a partial benzodiazepine receptor agonist - it will have a similar effect on your HPPD that a benzodiazepine would.

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