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  1. Thanks for the support, it helps. I've talked to my doctor about this and he's very surprised about what's happened. I guess there's not much I can do for now other than live my life as normal as I can and just hope for the best. It's a real struggle, but I keep reminding myself I've been here before and got out of it, so I should be able to do it again (I hope).
  2. Hello, I'm ndls, a 29 year old guy with HPPD since 2005. I've just had a massive relapse of HPPD symptoms last week. I was given the diagnosis of ADD a short while ago, and got prescribed Concerta. I didn't think much of this, since HPPD was in my mind naively psychedelic related only. The HPPD didn't bother me anymore, and the symptoms had faded down over the years to just some static on walls and not much more. But from one dose of 36mg Concerta I woke up the next day and was instantly back at the level I had when it all started in 2005. What gave me HPPD all those years ago is the rc-chemical 4-AcO-DET. Let's just say I have massive anxiety, rethinking my situation and is what is feasible to expect in the near future, etc. This is a massive crisis for me and to be honest I'm almost suicidal at this point. It is a week after that dose of Concerta and it hasn't diminished at all. What can I expect? Did I threw away what I had and now it's all lost? That's my biggest fear right now.