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  1. Glad you've pretty much recovered. I, too, consider this some form of PTSD brought on by HPA axis, hippocampal, and amygdalic dysfunction.
  2. "Wow I belong on this thread. I had no idea what a panic attack was or really what anxiety was until the height of my PMO addiction (edging for 5-8 hours almost everyday). Then one day in an instant I lost the vision in my right eye (my first migraine with visual aura) and simultaneously had a panic attack with extreme derealization. It was the scariest shit ever! I was at work and I got in my car to drive home. I called my wife and was trying to explain what was going on and I couldn't even talk. I couldn't figure out when to stop and when to go at the traffic lights. It felt like there was something in my brain that "snapped". From that day on, for about a year, I had absolutely the worst anxiety - unimaginable - a serious living hell. I would get awful visual snow during panic attacks. My hair started falling out. My eyes become absurdly sensitive to light and I had to wear sunglasses during the day at my office. I had derealization but not every moment of every day - it would just come and go at unpredictable times - in stores and in face-to-face conversations were the worst. I went to the ER thinking I had brain cancer or aneurysm. They did brain scan and nothing. Doctor prescribed me therapy visits. That's when I started to learn about depression and anxiety and how thoughts affect emotions. I was still PMOing but knew that was at least a big part of the problem.Someone else in this thread mentioned feeling like explosions of air or electrical buzz was happening in their brain. Yes!! Sometimes it was like there was a perfume bottle in my brain and someone was spritzing it. There would be "shifts" between areas of the brain that were buzzing.Ok so here's the deal: I have not masturbated or watched porn for almost 6 months - since August 17. I don't have panic attacks, I don't have depression or anxiety (there are occasional "flatlines" with depression/anxiety and that last about a week or so each time), I don't have visual snow, my hair grew back, I don't have any episodes with derealization, etc.... I'd say it took about 6 good weeks for symptoms to really clear up pretty good, then another 2 months or so before they were almost non-existent.Keep in mind that I've applied myself 100% toward reboot. For me reboot is bigger than just quitting porn and masturbation. It's about getting into proper, healthy shape mentally and emotionally. I take reboot very seriously. You can read my journal for a report of the progression of my reboot. Unfortunately, I didn't sign up for the NoFap sight until day 69 of my reboot, so there's no journal of the first 68 days.I have absolutely no doubt that quitting PMO is what made the difference for me. I hope you do whatever it takes to quit and find out for yourself. It's not easy but it's actually much harder to live with anxiety, panic attacks, depression, shame, derealization, etc.... I'm pulling for you!!"
  3. Yeah, but in order to have excitotoxicity the MDMA user has to overheat.
  4. "Life is suffering." G. Buddha, 2500 years ago
  5. I have 26. Minimum is 30, 50 is optimal.
  6. Intermittent fasting is the optimal healthy way of eating for human beings regardless of HPPD. Eating every 2-3 hours is just going to overload your system. Digesting constantly wears the body out.
  7. Haven't you said before that back in the 90s you were an addict and would stay up for days taking MDMA and partying? What about that isn't psychological? Everyone on this forum probably had some deep-seated psychological issues going on before the onset of hppd, whether they want to admit it or not.
  8. Yeah, but I mean...every single symptom you listed is a symptom of severe anxiety. Every single one.
  9. Life.
  10. I'm skeptical of anyone saying anything can worsen anything permanently. Stroke victims who can't speak or lift their arms are able to with time and treatment. Don't believe anything just because the internet said.
  11. In other words, a dysfunction in the HPA axis. Chronic stress, a frazzled nervous system. It's one of the reasons I keep getting better, then getting seriously stressed out and my symptoms coming back full force for a week or two. Like a yo-yo. The nervous system is trying to heal but it has an extremely low tolerance for stress, so any amount internal or external is going to cause a setback. Curcumin heals stress-induced dysfunction in the HPA axis and is a powerful anti-inflammatory. It's probably one of our best bets along with a good diet and exercise. You need to take it for 8 weeks though.
  12. How do you become a research subject?