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  1. Duly noted.
  2. You have HPPD.
  3. Also get high grade fish oil. Your brain needs that shit and unless you're eating salmon and walnuts every day the modern western diet just doesnt provide enough.
  4. I moved to Florida to help a friend out with his business September 2015. He fucked me over, moved back home with nothing October 2. Smoked all day every day to cope. Had to move back in with my parents when I had been living on my own for a couple of years. Had to sleep on the floor, no bed. Grandma was living with us and she was up all night in pain waking me up whenever I finally fell asleep. Couldnt sleep, started staying up all night and sleeping through the day. Quit smoking the pot on November 1. Best friend and I got into an argument and he blocked me on Facebook November 2. Didn't hear from him for 6 months. Panic attack November 7. Thought I was having a heart attack, ended up being panic and they gave me a Valium and sent me on my way. Extreme anxiety, panic and hypchondria followed. It just didn't stop. I went to the ER like 5 times in this period because I thought I was dying. This went on for over a month and one day I realized my perception was altered in December. I was detached from my body and mind and was seeing random non stop images in my head like a picture show. My doctor prescribed hydroxyzine and trazodone to sleep. I couldn't drive and became agoraphobic. I checked myself into a mental hospital in early January 2016. I was prescribed Paxil and Abilify. I stopped taking the Paxil 2 months later in March and got on Abilify at the same time. The hyperarousal/hypervigilance was so bad I had an exaggerated startle response all day every day for the next year and a half. The extreme fear, panic, and startle slowly started going away in April 2017 after I got off Abilify. I keep "getting better" but then getting worse, like this thing fluctuates. There is a ton of stress in my life right now. The family business (counseling/treatment center) was shut down and everyone including my dad lost their jobs. My grandma is dying. Her birthday is tomorrow and they think she'll probably pass then. So I don't know where extreme stress and anxiety and HPPD begin, really. 90% of my symptoms could be psychosomatic anxiety. I know the images and perceptions are hppd but all of the perceptual disturbances were gone in mid-July to late August. They've gotten worse since the beginning of September when I tried to quit smoking and NoFap, and my sleep was also erratic and fucked up.
  5. It's worth a shot. I just ordered some ashwaghanda because it lowers cortisol and boosts BDNF. It's supposedly the best herb to take for anxiety. Try it and see if it works.
  6. You think it might be psychological?
  7. It was the tone of your post. Let's just keep it civil from now on.
  8. Yeah, look up DP and DR on wikipedia. Emotional blunting is a symptom. It's just your brain's strange way of protecting itself against further trauma.
  9. The weed didn't give me the panic attacks. The panic attack happened at least a week after stopping smoking. It spiraled out of control from there and became much worse over the following months. My HPPD was virtually gone or non-noticeable at that time. I had continued to use drugs from 2009-2015 with no real side effects or worsening of my HPPD. It just didn't seem like that big of a deal at the time. It wasn't the drugs anyway, there was a whole lot of stress during that period in my life that basically lead to a breakdown. I think it's pretty sad and fucked up that you find it funny though. I regret what I did, and I certainly don't need your condescending fucking judgments about it. Work out your own recovery. Don't worry about mine.
  10. It's all experimentation. Lowering cortisol can only be a good thing for us though, probably.
  11. Weed all day every day in October. The day of the panic attack my dad had given me a 5 mg Lortab.
  12. So this "feeling" has turned into aches and pains throughout my body. I don't know if I'm getting sucked into another OCD loop but I'm wondering if I might have Lyme...
  13. Bacopa upregulates GABA receptors including Gaba a
  14. I don't have static that bad, no.