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  1. MadDoc

    Do I have HPPD?

    How long ago did you dose? I ask because it can take a while for anyone to bounce back from an intense trip. You may have early hppd symptoms, it's difficult to say. I'm no doctor but my feeling is that you don't. If you do have hppd, I'd say it's very mild. It sounds like your symptoms are fading which is a really good sign. That being said, don't tempt fate. Stop taking drugs, including cannabis, for a while. Give your mind time to equalize and then assess where you stand. Take care.
  2. I have sinus problems during the winter. It feels like pressure around the eyes and on both sides of the nose. Vitamin C acts as a antihistamine and it seems to help. I take a gram in the morning and a gram at night (orally). I can't take antihistamines like pseudoephedrine because it reacts like jittery speed in my nervous system. I think my sinus pressure is due to allergies. I started about five years ago. I think I'm just allergic to winter. Too dark, too cold.
  3. I did work my way through that, and I won't pretend I understand all of it. That being said, it's wonderful that this research is being done. Brilliant!
  4. MadDoc

    HPPD getting worse over time

    I used drugs during the 1970s. There were two messages. The message from the older generation was drugs would kill you or you would end up in jail. The message from the younger generation was that they were basically harmless. Both viewpoints were ill informed. Regarding productive lives, I'm nobody special. Just a regular Bozo making his way through "this" (whatever this is). I contracted hppd after taking psychedelics for six years. I managed to get through college, got married, raised two amazing kids (adults now), and have a profession that I enjoy. As I said, I'm nobody special but I never gave up. I picked goals and went after them one step at a time. Sometimes tiny little steps. All I'm saying is that it's possible to have a productive and happy life. Never give up, take small steps toward what you want to do do and who you want to be.
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    Flashback from Marijuana

    Don't despair. Three weeks isn't much time. Our brains are adaptable and healing is possible. If you focus on the symptoms, your mind will learn how to notice them. Try to focus on what interests you. Throw your attention and focus into that. After a while your symptoms could fade. I can't emphasis enough, give it time, and have faith in yourself.
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    @Onemorestep I'm amazed and heartened at the your dedication and methodical approach to finding the benefits (and pitfalls I suspect) of these substances. A cure or an effective treatment is out there. Thank you!
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    Medication Advice

    I take a daily vitamin. During the winter I take additional vitamin D. I don't think it effects my symptoms at all. When it comes to prescribed drugs, I suspect that most drugs that treat health conditions won't make your symptoms worse. For example blood pressure meds or statins. I think you need to take it as it comes and see how your body and mind handle each medication. Note, I'm no doctor and have no medical training. Find a doctor you trust, find a doctor who listens. That is, if there is such a doctor out there.
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    Staying away from psychedelics and cannabis is very important. Personally, I don't take any pharmaceutical drugs to deal with hppd. That was the path I took. Others in this forum have had real success using prescription drugs. I'd certainly take this route under the supervision of a doctor. Finding a doctor who understands what you're dealing with is the challenge.
  9. MadDoc

    100% cured

    I can't even imagine what that was like.
  10. MadDoc

    100% cured

    There are some people who post here who say they no longer have symptoms. I don't know if they're experiencing a temporary respite or if the relief is long lasting. @ramaradiego did the volcano erupt while you were dosed? Yikes!
  11. MadDoc

    Intentionaly getting HPPD

    This disorder is by no means fun or enjoyable. For me, it's like having a life long learning disability. For years my nervous system was constantly pumping adrenaline. The visual don't go away, however they aren't interesting, or enlightening. Getting focused on anything took a huge amount of effort. Enjoyable? No. With work i wad able to compensate for some of the symptoms, and over the decades I've learned to accept that I'm stuck with hppd. But fun? Yikes! NO! I too used to love taking psychedelics as often as I could. Sometimes for a week at a time. If I had known I would get this disorder, I would have never touched the stuff.
  12. MadDoc

    cure hppd using Psychedelic

    I'd be very skeptical of taking that approach. I'd also be skeptical of someone making that claim.
  13. MadDoc

    oxycodone and hppd?

    I've assume that hppd has been around for as long as psychedelics were available. Back when I was dosing, adverse symptoms caused by psychedelics was all categorized as "burn out". I've been looking for literature that describes methods and medications to combat burnout. I read the following by Ken Kesey: "Opium will cure acid burnout, but your left burned out for life". Taking opiates in any form is a slippery slope. I'd avoid oxytocin and the like.
  14. MadDoc

    Hppd at raves/festivals

    Jay, that's great! I have always wished I had one iota of musical talent, but I'm all thumbs.
  15. MadDoc

    HPPD getting worse over time

    I too used to take ridiculous doses but my drug was acid. Why did I do it? I just wanted to see what would happen I guess. Go deeper. We were also under the false impression that it was harmless. The handful of times I've smoked weed since I stopped dosing produced panic attacks and a scary psychedelic effect. My brain felt like it was being run by some alien software. Horrid! I think it's great that you reached out on this forum. You're not alone, there's a whole tribe of us who are dealing with this. Understand, there are people in this forum who life happy and productive lives. I've had this disorder my entire adult life but existence has been sweet. Welcome!
  16. MadDoc

    3 weeks and it's pretty much gone

    @oneofmymistakes. Making it better? First of all avoid drugs. Cannabis doesn't appear to be treating you well. You're already doing this which is great! I found that setting goals and focusing on those goals helped a lot. Nurture those things you're good at. Keep at it and I'll bet you can accomplish a lot. If your symptoms are making life difficult, start small, do what you can, but keep at it. Understand, you're not a bad person because you have had adverse effects from using drugs. Learn from the experience and move forward.
  17. MadDoc

    Hppd at raves/festivals

    Perhaps a cry for help? Pure speculation on my part. Not that it's related, but I still go to music festivals and concerts. I'm fascinated with musicians who can play improvisational music. However, I enjoy the shows without having any psychoactive chemicals in my system.
  18. Having your symptoms decrease so much, so fast, is a REALLY good sign! You've been through a lot. Healing can take time, so be patient. I've found that there is no getting back to "normal" over the long haul. Over time, what's normal changes and initially the new normal might be unfamiliar. Life is dynamic but fortunately, as humans we're adaptable. Take care of your body, avoid chemicals, and your new normal is likely to be a good place.
  19. MadDoc

    3 weeks and it's pretty much gone

    Tn99. That's simply not true. I started enjoying life once I got clean. I enjoyed taking drugs but, for me, it was a false "chemical induced". sense of happiness.
  20. MadDoc

    Hppd at raves/festivals

    Hi. Understand that this forum is here to help people who are dealing with the adverse effects of taking psychedelics. When I was young I took a lot of psychedelics at concerts and "events" (Raves came along much later). Yes it was fun, but for the remainder of my life I've dealt with hppd. A high price. All input is valuable, but please be aware that there are a lot of people in here trying to maintain some semblance of sobriety.
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    3 weeks and it's pretty much gone

    Hppdman22, your symptoms went away. If staying sober helped that happen, I'd stick with staying sober. You don't want this disorder to be something that won't go away. Understand, I'm not trying to tell you what to do. It's wonderful that you're doing so well, it's I'd just I'd hate to see your symptoms come back because of cannabis.
  22. I'm still in touch with a number of people I used to dose with. None of them have anything like I have. However, all of these people report that psychedelics changed the way they think and the way they view the world. I think such a powerful experience changes everyone in some way.
  23. MadDoc

    Violent Coughing

    I'd go see a doctor just as a precaution. Spots in your vision can be related to blood pressure. Sometimes when I stand too quickly I see little black dots and I get the dizzies. I think it's due to low blood pressure (at least that's what the doctor says).
  24. Welcome. I have similar visuals. If I look at grass, sidewalks, textured ceilings, carpets, etc. I see animal shapes, faces, Aztec glyphs, and a lot of weirdness in between. My visuals are always in motion, shifting, changing, and if I stare, they get more complex. I've learned to live with it, though there are times that it can be very distracting.
  25. MadDoc

    HPPD since 1972

    I think we get philosophical as we age. I'll have this disorder for the rest of my life. I've accepted that. Like anyone who has a disability, I just try to do the best I can. Life has been good, and I'm hoping I get to be here for many more years.

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