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  1. We all have our ups and downs. I'll have weeks where I hardly notice my symptoms, other weeks they're more noticeable. For me, it's how I'm feeling over the long haul. That being said, my CEVs vanished over just a few weeks after having had them for a long time. So, sudden improvements do occur.
  2. @bowties Very well stated. Staying clean and acceptance are key I think. Focus, determination and attitude go a long way as well. Also, keep in mind that this disability can and often does improve. A happy and productive life isn't necessarily out of reach.
  3. I feel tiny amounts of THC. In my case, it produces a very uncomfortable experience complete with panic attacks. I haven't touched marijuana in a very long time. I take cbd oil to combat insomnia and it works well. The oil I take has a trace amount of thc, but even with my hyper-sensitive brain, I can't detect any. I like cbd oil because I don't feel groggy in the morning. In the US cbd oil has to contain less than 0.3 percent thc. I don't take cbd during the day because it makes me sleepy. It doesn't decrease my visuals (my primary symptom) , but a good night's sleep sure helps.
  4. @jake it gets better. It really does. The mind has a way of adapting and hard work toward getting well pays off. I realize I'm sounding like an infomercial, I'm not much of a writer. I have visuals after all of these years, but I'm so happy to be here. People with disabilities can live happy lives. All we can do is the best we can do.
  5. I've never heard of phenergen. I looked it up to reduce my ignorance a bit. Please talk to someone to get some help. Surround yourself with people in your life who care about you. Please talk to a medical professional about what you're going through. Please set aside the notion of checking out. Please. I had what I would consider severe hppd. Over the decades it has significantly improved. I'm nobody special, just another Bozo on this planet. If I found a path toward wellness, then it's certainly possible. Life with this disability has its challenges, I understand that. Things right now may seem intolerable, but you never know, your situation may improve before long. There are also medications that can help. So many avenues that may help your situation. One step at a time. Don't give up, fight back, and never underestimate yourself. You matter!
  6. Thank you for your thoughtful and positive post. I'd like to reiterate, it can and often does get better, much better. Keep moving, keep focused, live healthy, and be patient.
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    I used to smoke weed constantly. All of a sudden it started giving me panic attacks and it made my visuals intolerable . Apparently panic attacks from using THC isn't uncommon. It also seems to happen after not using for a long time. Panic attacks also occur with people who have never used psychedelics. I think these uncomfortable effects can be amplified when dealing with hppd, even if symptoms have mostly dissapeared. Understand that the information I have is from my own experiences and from what people have told me (I'm not a doctor or a scientist). For me, staying away from THC (all psychoactive drugs for that matter) is the way to go. I can't imagine what my brain would do if I smoked the powerful weed that's available today. I hope your symptoms start to moderate.
  8. For a while I had bouts of low blood pressure and I had some of the symptoms you've described. I do think hppd can amplify any common physical symptom with a slight psychedelic lens. Well, at least that's what happens to me. Talking to the doctor can eliminate issues and give you some peace of mind.
  9. If it continues, it might not be a bad idea to talk to a doctor. Those symptoms can be caused by physical issues as well.
  10. Everyone's wiring is a little different. The introduction of psychedelics can change how the brain works in everyone differently. If someone is having symptoms similar to schizophrenia after dosing, I think we should take it at face value (I realize the initial post didn't mention dosing). People come here for advice , information, support, etc. myself included. It doesn't take much to scare a vulnerable person away. Being a little gentle, especially in the "introduction" forum, can go a long way. I apologize if this sounded like a rant.
  11. @Grant your experiences with psychedelics sound very similar to mine. I used to try and see how deep I could go. There were weeks where I dosed every day. I feel fortunate that I didn't end up with more damage.
  12. @4c1d Thank you for your concern regarding the 48 plus hour experience I went through. It happened over 40 years ago. My mind set at the time was that I had hit the jackpot. I suspect such a dose would kill me at my current age. My advice, get moving on with your life. If you're in school, focus on your studies. If you're working, focus on that. I've found that staying focused has served me well. While I don't take medications to deal with hppd, others have had success with them. Finding a way to help with anxiety is important. I've found meditation and long walks away from the noise of civilization helps. Exercise is general is helpful.
  13. I hope everything goes well and I hope the treatment helps.
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    Brain Fog

    Besides the synthetic THC have you used other drugs besides alcohol? After I stopped dosing (I was roughly 20) I started drinking. Not so much that I was out of control, but too much. In my case, alcohol caused brain fog. It can last for days after a bender.
  15. We all experience psychedelics a little differently, but you might not have taken LSD. There are so many tweaked molecules available out there, it's hard to know. If you don't know the chemist, "street" drugs can be a crap shoot. Long, long ago I took a dose of "acid" and ended up tripping for over two days. I think it was DOM (aka STP). No matter, you've had an experience and you're dealing with the aftermath. You didn't mention how long ago you dosed. Lingering effects can hang around for a while. Dosing can be a huge shock to the system to say the least! The good news is you've dosed once. I'm no expert on hppd, but I suspect the fewer times you've dosed the better your chances that hppd symptoms won't be perminent . As Jay mentioned, stay clean! I can't stress that enough. Do the best you can to keep your life moving and don't ever give up on yourself. Hang in there and take care.
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