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  1. so the last time i took lsd was months ago, and my trip was filled with anxiety and panic. I was just anxious the whole time and had a bad panic attack because i was scared about dying. ;ever since that trip, i feel as if my vision isnt quite the same, and im not talking about the hppd aspect of it. things and people just looking slightly different, and a little more dream like. Everything and objects just look"off" and not quite like they used to, which really bothers me. When i try to recall in my memory how things used to look, it takes on the same "off" look in my mind as everything does now. Is this derealization? Am I stuck like this? will this visual change ever go away? the only things that have changed since i took the lsd was my vision and i have more anxiety now. what is this?
  2. So im 17 and summer is coming up in one week. I've had pretty minor hppd for about 8 months, and I just want this to go away. All my friends smoke weed and I feel so left out not smoking with them. This leaves me pondering a crucial question: should I just say fuck it and start blazing again or should I dedicate this summer to recovery and mental growth to see if I can still recover? I just miss smoking so much but if I knew for a fact that I would fully recover in a year I would be willing to not drink or do drugs until months after I am fully recovered. What should I do it's killing me? My symptoms are: visual snow floaters slight trails in some lighting walls breathing if I pay attention color enhancement brain fog
  3. Is it actually possible for visuals to go away? I know they can get worse before they get better but can they actually ever just go back to normal visually? Just curious need hope or honesty
  4. Yeah I don't plan on using shrooms lsd or anything like that ever, just want to be able to smoke weed again one day once all this is long behind me.
  5. Yeah well the one thing I know for sure is that I won't resume any drugs until I'm 100% visually recovered and I'm going to ease into it.
  6. Also wandering...let's say in 6 months it goes away. If I wait a couple months after it's gone away, feel completely normal and my visuals are gone, would I be good to drink again, and if that doesn't have a negative effect, eventually smoke again? Want to smoke weed again so bad but I will wait until I'm fully recovered and start off slowly and cautiously
  7. So I got very minor hppd from an acid trip around 8 months ago. After the trip I smoked weed and drank a couple times, then I started noticing static and such in my vision... so I have been clean from all substances for 5 months. The anxiety/ depression is much better, and the visuals are pretty ignorable unless in bad lighting and not very bad. If I continue to be healthy and abstain from drug use, having recently quit nicotine as well, do I still have the possibility of recovering? I've heard plenty of cases of ppl recovering and having visuals go away within 1-2 years and that's what I'm hoping for! Is this a possibility? Hppd is minor and I plan on staying healthy as I am 17 and workout on daily basis
  8. Yes and I went to a psychologist for anxiety and told her this and she said she thought it was too. She said that in most cases it will fade away over time and to just abstain from drugs. It's been 7 months but it could take a little longer right?
  9. About 7 months ago I had an acid trip, it was a very small one. Since then I've had these symptoms: visual snow, after images, slight tracers, and light sensitivity. I've also been very spaced out, everything seems kind of Dream like, and stuff like that. Since my visual symptoms aren't really hallucinogenic and mainly just visual distortions, could these be visual symptoms of derealization, or is this just mild hppd? How long should this last
  10. Yes and it's worse in brighter lighting. So how would I make this go away, just abstain from drugs for a while? Cause I wanna get back to my normal self
  11. So I took lsd around 6 months ago. I realized I had hppd a couple weeks after, with some anxiety tied in there. I kept smoking weed and my visual snow and stuff got worse so I've quit all drugs except for nicotine and have been this way for 3 months. But ever since I took the acid, everything looks kind of different. Like everything looks kind of surreal, and colors are kinda brighter, and I'm always spaced out. I don't feel as if I'm completely in a dream or anything, but it's just the feeling that everything looks kinda "off" and something is slightly different. And when I'm in crowds, sometimes the collection of peoples voices will sound different than it used to. Is this de realization that is just a part of my hppd and slight anxiety, or what? And also, should I quit the nicotine to see if my visuals get better?
  12. I took it about 5 months ago and i started to notice this symptom right when I went to school and had anxiety and first noticed the hppd. In my trip I was panicking the whole time, and the days following. I noticed the hppd about two days later. The "off" vision could maybe be described as slight derealization, but idk if it is that and just a symptom of my hppd, or is something more long term
  13. So after my first lsd trip I got hppd, but it was a VERY mild trip. My hppd is also mild. But ever since the trip I have felt just kind of off. Like things and colors look slightly different than before, and in a group of people the noises kind of sound different. I'm also pretty spaced out. I just feel a little different, but everyone says I act the same. It doesn't really fit the comategory of full blown depersonalization, but it could be minor dr or do or something... Is this just part of my hppd? Or is this what they call a "perspective change" from psychedelics. It kinda bothers me so I hope it's just part of hppd. Thx for responses
  14. So after my first lsd trip I got hppd, but it was a VERY mild trip. My hppd is also mild. But ever since the trip I have felt just kind of off. Like things and colors look slightly different than before, and in a group of people the noises kind of sound different. I'm also pretty spaced out. I just feel a little different, but everyone says I act the same. It doesn't really fit the comategory of full blown depersonalization, but it could be minor dr or do or something... Is this just part of my hppd? Or is this what they call a "perspective change" from psychedelics. It kinda bothers me so I hope it's just part of hppd. Thx for responses
  15. So I have minor dp and pretty bad anxiety from hppd but it always feels like there is this negative stress or anxiety surrounding my thoughts. It literally feels like it's trapping me and idk if it's physical or mental but it feels like I'm being mentally weighed down or something. Like something is preventing me from being free and happy and I can't relax or enjoy the moment. Is this anxiety or something more I need to worry about? Also, is it common for people with dp to not be able to like picture themselves in their mind? Like what they think others think about them? Or is my ego dissolved or some shit like that? Thx for all replies