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  1. I normally don't take many drugs, especially not psychedelics, but I got into this tianeptine stuff which is a lesser known but extremely potent legal opioid with terrible withdrawals. I felt so miserable that I didn't logically prevent myself from taking a dangerous psychedelic. My symptoms were fine as I experimented with opiates for the last years though, taking kratom and Tramadol frequently and also some other supplements like phenibut. I'm not recommending anyone else take that stuff, but for me it wasn't really worsening my HPPD. I should note that I do feel better from most of the symptoms of the DXM though, like the dp/dr and stuff. The only thing is that my palinopsia is still a little worse, and colors are brighter than they used to be, especially red. It's annoying and it's a reminder of something that ditsurbs me, but other than that not debilitating.
  2. So just to be clear, you still have these symptoms now right? The fight or flight explanation doesn't really make sense to me. In my experience, greater sensitivity to light and deeper perception of colors is associated with my afterimages, and that's what it sounds like it is with you also. If you have no other visual issues, this might be the very first, most mild symptom of a visual condition. You and I are lucky in that we seem to have milder HPPD. You might go through some weeks of depression but most likely you'll eventually get used to it even if it lasts forever and you'll forget about it. However, do be hopeful that it will go away. For most people it seems like if they milder HPPD it does go away, but remember how you feel about drugs now, and note how sensitive you are to them to as to avoid worsening it in the future. Sorry but that's really all I can say.
  3. I'm gonna relay my own experience with trails and afterimages, and some things I've realized about it which I think could possibly be a lead to some treatment. Of course this is completely personal and probably won't apply exactly to other people, but it might have something valuable. So first of all, I developed palinopsia before I used any drugs. It was not very strong though. It didn't bother me too much. Then I started smoking weed and it became significantly worse. It happened particularly from two heavy smoking sessions, getting worse on each one. It became very depressing and difficult to manage. A few years after that, I tried Gabapentin, though I didn't take it therapeutically. As other people have reported is an effect of the drug, the palinopsia got worse. However, it returned to baseline after the drug left my system. Just recently I took a large amount of DXM in order to cope with an opiate withdrawal. The palinopsia got permanently worse again. Since then, I tried Gabapentin again, and once again the palinopsia got worse, but it returned to baseline after I stopped taking the drug. However, this time the trails I saw on Gabapentin were worse than the previous times I had taken it, before the DXM, so basically Gabapentin makes the trails worse in comparison to your baseline, whatever that is. If I never had any trails to begin with, it would probably result in an effect similar to what I see anyway. So I have a couple of things to takeaway about this: 1. Some drugs induce a long-term effect of worsening my afterimages, as if the brain, after experiencing the effect on some drug, comes to think of it as normal, and doesn't return back to my previous vision. However, some drugs don't do that, namely Gabapentin. There's something about certain drugs such as weed and DXM, which makes the brain retain the visual phenomenon and not go back to normal, while Gabapentin induces the trails differently, in a way that doesn't foo the brain in that way. 2. My brain seems to really think that this vision is normal, because even after taking another drug that would induce palinopsia, it makes the symptoms worse, rather than just leaving it at baseline. 3. If I could understand the mechanism by which drugs like weed and DXM affect my vision in a way that makes it not go away, vs. the way that Gabapentin affects the brain, I could determine a couple of things. One would be which drugs would be safe to take and which would be harmful, and two would be that I could possibly find a drug which affects the brain oppositely, reducing the afterimages. Also, if I could understand the mechanism by which the effect stays with persistence, I could possibly find a drug that has that same mechanism, but in reverse. 4. My palinopsia isn't just some sort of illusion which is induced by my own neurochemistry alone, it's the result of a very specific effect on the brain, which certain drugs apply in the exact right way to make the brain think that this new perception of vision is normal, and to make it the baseline. So hopefully that's interesting to someone. I don't know how I would go about pursuing any further research into this, but maybe it will help someone else. I'd be curious to know how much other peoples' experiences line up with this.
  4. That's quite a lot of supplements. Did you start doing all this stuff really early on in your condition, or did you wait a few months? I only ask because I'm wondering if maybe just living a normal life, without going out of your way to ingest supplements and act abnormally in your lifestyle, could possibly be the best way to deal with the condition early on. Perhaps all those supplements are just making things worse, especially as you experience frustration in it not working. I know that's a stupid suggestion, but it's just what came to mind. I don't know how on earth to deal with this stuff.
  5. I have chronic pain issues but I've been hesitant to take CBD due to concerns about it worsening my HPPD. I know that might seem irrational if there's no THC in it, but I originally got my HPPD from marijuana, so to me it doesn't seem worth it to try it. In your case, you've already recovered a lot so I would suggest just trying to live more naturally and healthfully for a while instead, that way you don't relapse. But that's just me.
  6. I got HPPD from weed five years ago. It still hasn't gone away. I came back here because I got worsening HPPD from another drug just recently (stupid I know). For me, the symptoms were just palinopsia mostly and other annoying visual stuff. I didn't even smoke that much weed, just like the equivalent of a couple bowls (I was a total beginner). I got really high, I know that, but didn't hallucinate or anything. Nonetheless, HPPD occurred from it. I don't know if it was laced with anything or not, but I doubt it.
  7. I developed palinopsia a few years ago from smoking marijuana. I've stayed away from psychedelics ever since but for the last few days I've been withdrawing from tianeptine which for those of you who don't know is a horrible opiate drug with withdrawals regularly cited as being worse than heroin. I took a 2nd plateu dose of DXM last night (8-12 hours ago) in an attempt to stave off the withdrawals. It had a positive effect of removing my opiate tolerance, at least for now, which is allowing me to take kratom and get near complete relief from my symptoms, but at the same time I'm noticing my palinopsia getting worse. I got some CEVs when I was peaking and they subsided a little, but it's already been twelve hours and the afterimages are still there and seem to be getting worse. One thing I noticed about my original palinopsia was that after smoking, it took like two days for the palinopsia to peak. It started off seemingly not as bad, or maybe i just started noticing it in more places. That's what I'm seeing with this. As the day goes on, the afterimages seem to get worse. Has anyone else experienced this phenomenon? I was thinking that perhaps some HPPD symptoms are the result of the brain being shocked by the sudden removal of a drug, and that maybe tapering off would help, like taking a small dose of the drug to let your brain adjust. I certainly am not looking for any excuse to go near that syrup again, but I'm just wondering about that. Are there any medications or anything that I might be able to do to stop this from getting worse over the next days? This is so depressing, the horrible withdrawal and now this. Thanks for any advice.
  8. HPPD is a very broad term, but your case seems like it should fit the definition, but you should probably see a neurologist. Just tell them everything and get some tests done to verify that you don't have any physical brain damage, which Ecstasy can sometimes induce (although not from one use usually). If your physical brain is okay then you can start seeking treatment for HPPD. Stop doing all drugs for one thing. Did the Xanax consistently help up until the withdrawal, or did you only notice a change when you first started?
  9. I am stopping, and I have thought about how lucky I am. If I'm this sensitive to the most mild psychedelic imagine what taking LSD would have done. It's good I discovered that I have this problem without ruining my entire life. It's still a pretty tough break though
  10. Hello, I'd like to preface my story by mentioning that ever since I was a little kid, I've had lots of HPPD symptoms before doing any drugs. The first one I noticed was visual snow. i wasn't born with it, but it developed when I was probably about 5. I actually thought it was normal. I also started seeing CEVs, with big splotches of bright colors moving around in my vision after closing my eyes for long enough. Then when I was maybe about 13 I started developing mild palinopsia. I never saw afterimages per se, but if I darted my eyes somewhere, and they happened to pass by a light, I would see a long trail of the light. There were a few other symptoms but they were pretty mild. About a year ago, I first started smoking cannabis a few times a month (not synthetic). It's the only psychedelic I've ever done. For the first 6 months or so I had no problems at all. One night though, I got much higher than usual. I don't know exactly how many hits I took, but even my friend who was an experienced smoker admitted to being really high. After I came down, I was driving home and I noticed some trails or afterimages along the white lines on the street. I could see that something had changed about my vision as time went on, but it was really mild. I would see more afterimages than usual and was more sensitive to light. I ignored it and attributed it to being a coincidence. I smoked a few more times, but in small amounts, and it never got worse. Convinced that the weed didn't cause it, I decided to get really stoned again just to see what would happen, and sure enough the palinopsia got much worse. I now saw true afterimages after looking at anything, even if it wasn't very bright. The afterimages lasted about one second. I felt very depressed but eventually got used to it. Now here's where you'll stop feeling sorry for me. 3 months after the last episode, I decided to try smoking in a very low dose again. Since I didn't have any problems with the lower doses before, I figured it might be okay. I only took about 5 hits or so and the palinopsia did get a little worse. The afterimages are more intense and easier to induce. Also, my visual snow has noticeably gotten worse. It's been about two weeks. Needless to say I've learned my lesson now, but it does suck because I'd honestly like to continue smoking, but I guess I can't take any more chances. Migraines run in my family, so I have a feeling that this is an underlying migraine problem that's just been exacerbated by the weed. I've been seeking treatment from a neurologist (although I didn't tell him this was from a drug). He prescribed me Topamax which I tried briefly and experienced no results from. I don't like that drug because it messes up my cognitive function so much. That's the extent of my treatment thus far. I decided to join the forum after learning that this was HPPD. I hope I can get back to my old normal one day.
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