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1 hour ago, James842 said:

yeh cheers for the advice and I know meth is a fucked drug but Im not smokin it im snorting it and only doing it once and I know its super addictive but I feel confident enough that I won't fall into that hole 

snorting it? that's even worse than smoking it dude. if you're gonna snort anything make it cocaine haha but okay i hope you'll take care of yourself young man. good luck with everything

20 minutes ago, James842 said:

lifes already fucked, will it make them worse or nah?

 

Yes. I know life's fucked I hate it too, but meth is the filthiest most detrimental drug. You're so young darling, and I'm not gonna lecture you and I can't stop you from smoking shard if you want to or that's gonna be your coping mechanism, but from seeing what it's done to my friends and the people close to me and the relationships that have been destroyed, I wouldn't advise it. We all have our coping mechanisms and drugs can be great for that, for me it's benzos (not good either) but I'd choose them over meth any day cause I'd rather chill out and not care about anything and just pass out than be restless, hyper-focused, paranoid, aggressive and sleep deprived than anything. Why meth? 

2 hours ago, James842 said:

Would meth make my visuals worse?

Meth will make your life worse

17 hours ago, James842 said:

Im 16 and got HPPD from excessive LSD MDMA and other drug use, had for like 6 months maybe more now, was gonna try speed and was wondering if this would make the visual effects worse?

Yes stimulants will enhance the visuals, at first I avoided stimulants at all costs, even caffeine, but 4 years later and I'm taking drugs again (occasionally cocaine, MDMA etc.) and I take dexamphetamine for ADHD and it does increase the visuals but not to a huge extent. The visuals are only worse temporarily though, it's not permanent but I would not recommend taking LSD or any hallucinogens again. 

17 hours ago, James842 said:

was also wondering if Xanax would help or worsen the affects ? thanks 

 

Benzos definitely reduce the anxiety which sort of takes your mind off it, but I find the only benzo that actually legitimately reduces the visuals is clonazepam because it has anticonvulsant effects and anticonvulsant drugs are used in the treatment for HPPD.

i have bad after-images too, to be honest i don't think there is anything to fix them unfortunately it's hard, you just have to accept them i guess..

Nothing helps the visuals, but magnesium and B complex reduce anxiety and make me feel a bit better. I am going to try Lion's Mane Mushroom soon.

I just bought a bottle and waiting for it to arrive, it was the tablet form. I read that using powder has a stronger effect, but this was cheap so I thought i would try it.

Has anyone tried it? Did it help? I'm hoping if i use it long term it will heal my brain..

Are you from Australia ? You sound Australian haha I don't think anywhere else in the world uses the term cones or am I wrong

Weird, thanks. I don't suffer from depersonalisation so I'll be fine haha. Visuals and this annoying tinnitus are the only things that bother me. So over them

Wow I forgot what "clean" vision looked like.  Amazing!  And a little heartbreaking

 

Man I can't stop doing this.  I'm so used to movement in my vision that objects look "frozen"... like they're on pause.  So freaking cool.  Kind of creepy too.

 

Man I want my life back!

yes i noticed it appeared frozen, it really shocked me but in a good way. miss having normal vision but maybe we'll get it back one day

do u still have visual snow? this might be common but i remember seeing visual snow as a kid, lying in bed in the darkness. now its just more intense

crazy cool

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Quitting smoking has helped me a lot!

how did it help you?

Hey guys,

Some of you might remember me from a while ago but I was a very active member a while back, I haven't posted in a while because well, I consider myself cured.

It all began after a single dose of 25B-NBOMe, and threw me into an extremely dark place. I suffered a pretty much constant panic attack for a month after I aquired the disorder. I was depressed and simply waiting for the day to end, now when it gets to that point you start to not want to get up in the morning in the first place. I didn't want to live in that state.

The dissociation was the worst, I didn't think it was possible to experience such a detached view of reality to the point where it might as well have all been a bad dream.

Well, over the course of 2 years the symptoms waxed and waned but eventually started subsiding. I am still left with all my visuals but the dissociation is gone 80% and I'm sure I can make up the other 20.

I tried over 10 medications, none really helping. I contacted specialists but couldn't afford them, my doctors were also very poor and refused to refer me anywhere worthwhile.

In the end I just had to do it all myself. I forced myself out the house when I really would've preferred to curl up in a ball. I started socialising again, really socialising. I got back into my hobbies that I'd completely lost interested in, I worked on my anxiety through reading, meditation and praying everything will get better. You have to maintain that positive mindset no matter what, if you don't have that then you have nothing.

I still have most of my visual symptoms as I said but I consider myself cured. Thank god the dissociation did go away for whatever reason, I feel alive again, I wake up and I don't feel like I'm in a foggy dream, I have emotions, I can be happy, sad, laugh and cry and really feel it like I'm supposed to.

If I could go back I wouldn't change a thing, life is so much better once you've experienced how dark it can get and come out the other side.

Some tips that helped me:

ABSTAIN: Stay sober, a few beers now and again never hurt my recover but stay sober!

Vitamins and diet: Eat well and eat good foods.

Lifestyle: This was the big one for me, change your lifestyle completely in any possible way, change it for the better. Part of my recovery involved a lot of therapy where I let go of things from my past. Socialise, read, be passionate about your hobbies, learn a language, travel, find a relationship, get a job, change your job.

You can do it on your own, or at least improve it as much as you can. I went from being so dissociated and suicidal I was sure I'd gone insane, to going back to my old self.

Sure, I still have anxiety and visuals but I deal with it and to be honest, I never even think about it any more.

Hope all of you are doing well, I can't imagine anything that puts as much strain and stress on the lives of people. Particularly young people that just don't deserve it.

Listen to the long term members, I used to read the success stories every day and convinced myself I was going to get better, and I did.

Good luck everyone, I pray for you all all the time. If you need someone to talk to or advice, anything at all, just PM me. Whatever thoughts are going through your head and no matter how you feel, I've been there.

To the longer term members: hey, and thanks for all your help when I was at my worst.

Sam

thankyou this made me feel more positive 

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u will be ok <3 stay strong

hey DoneDoof are you from Australia

yeah that sounds like HPPD

Hey, I too was really paranoid about exacerbating my HPPD symptoms. Before HPPD i already had chronic depression, so its pretty important that I take an anti-depressant. I went onto Lexapro as i developed anxiety, only the smallest dose, 5mg, which has helped alot! Symptoms have sort of remained the same, not really sure if they've increased but it diminished my anxiety and lifted my mood a little.

Moclobemide is a really good anti-depressant for social anxiety. its an MAOI, they're the oldest kind so they don't really prescribe them anymore but they're good. Lexapro is good for anxiety too. well for me anyway. I think Lexapro/Moclobemide and a low strength benzodiazepine would be beneficial, like a small dose of Xanax or Valium

I take 5mg Lexapro a day and it has completely diminished my anxiety. i think it may have increased my symptoms but even when I don't take it the symptoms are the same (visual snow, trailing, after images, rays off of lights) i also haven't taken any drugs since the acid trip was in May, so 5 months ago, haven't even smoked cannabis. will this increase the potential of my HPPD going away???