Yes. I know life's fucked I hate it too, but meth is the filthiest most detrimental drug. You're so young darling, and I'm not gonna lecture you and I can't stop you from smoking shard if you want to or that's gonna be your coping mechanism, but from seeing what it's done to my friends and the people close to me and the relationships that have been destroyed, I wouldn't advise it. We all have our coping mechanisms and drugs can be great for that, for me it's benzos (not good either) but I'd choose them over meth any day cause I'd rather chill out and not care about anything and just pass out than be restless, hyper-focused, paranoid, aggressive and sleep deprived than anything. Why meth?