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LethargicAcid

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  1. My hppd demons are gone now I was doing sorcery with the dumb drugs to call spirits and an evil demon went after me by numbing myself. I have a higher power now and I quit trying to see into some other reality 

    I’m done with the distortions and I’m staying in control. I’m following order and getting a job and start caring and taking life seriously. All the stuff I wasn’t doing. That’s his grace.

  2. he said that these substances dont mix well with my brain and that the best thing i could do is stay off drugs to give my brain a chance to reheal. to get on a good path so that i can live life normally without obsessing.

    he said that the dissociation and depersonalization is from anxiety. so get on a path that is positive without drugs so that i can have a chance at recovering.

    he said that something went wrong with the wiring of my brain when i took those drugs. so i shouldnt do any more drugs because it wouldnt mix well with my already damaged and disordered mind. also, he said that they affect me in bad ways and that drugs affect everyone differently.

     

    im going next wednesday so ill keep updated on what he says. he's gonna work with me to recover my brain.

    feel free to comment

  3. I agree that it’s ptsd like u said. Good post. I think it’s CPTSD which is complex ptsd and the hallucinogenic experience triggered that trauma by a mental breakdown. https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.helpguide.org/articles/ptsd-trauma/ptsd-symptoms-self-help-treatment.amp.htm

    that ptsd article would fit the hppd / depersonalization explanation. 

     

    I think emdr therapy is a good treatment for it though I’ve never done it. 

  4. so i go  to intensive group therapy now for mental illness we went over a paper. heres a paragraph:, 

     

                               ENMESHMENT / UNDEVELOPED SELF

        Excessive Emotional involvement and closeness with one or more significant others (often parents), at the expense of full individuation or normal social development. 

    Often involves the belief that at least one of the enmeshed individuals cannot survive or be happy without the constant support of the other. May also include feelings of being smothered by, 

    or fused with, others OR insufficient individual identity. Often experienced as a feeling of emptiness and floundering, having no direction, or in extreme cases questions one's existence.

     

    It's a list of dysfunctional schemas / core values

     

     

    So basically theres a loss of identity, and then the drugs used when aquired HPPD caused a existential crisis from a previous feeling the way that was listed above

  5. Well since being on this website last, I have felt apart from myself and barely able to leave the house because of mental illness.  Kinda going insane for some reason. Feels like stuck in limbo. 

     

    This website has a cool vibe to it so it helps me feel better

     

    I'm gonna try to post some helpful commentz

     

  6. message I sent to Jay:

    a sort of organized Rapid Eye Movement in waking state practice exercise, a special form of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy(CBT) that I made up kind of like hypnosis/hypnogogia  focus exersize that I made up/induced upon myself from taking acid in jail a few weeks ago I invented a new thing a cure for hppd 

     

    but since I found the cure, you don't gotta take acid or anything to practice the exersize

  7. ^ its like being stuck in some limbo where there are no transitions and everything blurs into one another, and one sees the world from a different angle

     

     

    I managed to come all the way back. thru holistic medicine, cbt, hypno therapy, gabapentin, klonopin, (I even did drugs which I highly dont recommend), different types of therapies, meds, meditation, yoga, green tea, contemplation, journaling, and other things. I'm gonna write a whole column on this, I'm just recovering from the residual effects of coming back from something so harsh

     

    ide say people with HPPD are masters of perception. after  coming from this disease, I still maintain the perception.

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