melissa2010

Hello .. anybody else have intense like head pressure.. is this because of my allergies... i have an itchy throat as well?? Going to make an appointment to see an allergist, have had this pressure off and on now for almost 8-9 months. Maybe I have lyme disease who knows. Thank You.. Anybody else had symptoms come on after 4 years or after getting off of an SSRI?

UPDATE ** I started seeing streaking lights at night (I am amazed cause someone else just posted this a few days ago) whenever I blink I see a streak of light that connects me to the light. ?? Does anybody else have this. I dont have trails from lights but these streak whenever I blink. I've researched it and people with anxiety and LASIK surgery have this problem. It just sucks cause I have it during the day. Also I notice my negative after images more now. Granted they only last for a few seconds I see them in the landscape while im driving or of my computer screen. -- it seems my vision started getting worse about 6 months off of lexapro which I was on for about 2 years. My anxiety has gotten better, haven't had a panic attack in a long time however I often feel very fatigued... and derealized. Does this sound like hppd to you guys?? What kind of like streaks does everyone have. I went to the opthamologist -- who checked my eyes and said they were flawless, however my eye vision got worse and the different glasses maybe what causes the light streaks. ...

Sometimes when I look at trees or look at grass and the sun is hitting it it starts to make me feel off. I know it's derealization, but before when I used to be scared by it, now I am trying to make myself accept it or be intrigued by it. If something looks weird I continue to analyze it why it looks weird. I've had this vision DP/DR for about 3.5 years now and to be honest I think I forgot what normal vision is. I would describe the way I see things as about 3 degrees off and with ULTRA-HD.

I never did all those hard drugs and I still got similar symptoms. Headaches, Terrible DP/DR, Severe Anxiety, Some Vision Changes. Some people think it is a severe anxiety reaction or HPPD. The best advice that I can give you that no one gave me is their practically treated the same way. Don't take benzo's daily and if you can do things to calm yourself.

Idk I have all those symptoms and DP/DR and I'm still not sure if its HPPD or not, go figure. Never did LSD, shrooms, just smoked some weed/synth sometimes and had a panic attack on it. After I talked about it, I had a panic attack and all these symptoms showed up and I've had em for 3 years. May or may not be.

Yea I rarerly have trails or afterimages during the day. Sometimes I get negative afterimages but rarely. The only thing that bothers me is the bfep cause its a constant reminder... And the halos at night, also the derealization makes me panic. I just wish i knew what it was... Anxiety or hppd or idk. Thanks for that videp but i rarely see those and i will try and start to meditatw

Everything changed in my life around december 2010. I had a severe panic attack in math class while telling my friends about my 'blackout' moment when I first tried weed and blacked out. Now after doing some research I do not know if it was regular marijuana or synthetic marijuana but please continue reading. I started getting sweaty, dizzy, numb, and felt unreal while retelling the story. I now know that I was experiencing symptoms of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from the ordeal I faced, or so I thought or I was told. I was never a big drug user, no lsd, no mushrooms, etc. But I have had sprouts of anxiety my whole life. Anyways, days after, I started to develop 'anxiety' and 'panic disorder'. I then started getting 'tinnitus' ( constant ringing in ears), 'Blue field entoptic phenomenon' ( Like seeing tiny white bright dots quickly along squiggly lines in the visual field ) 'snow vision' ( snow or television-like static in parts or the whole of their visual fields, especially against dark backgrounds), and some halos during the night time. My vision got so much more blurrier that I ended up having to get glasses. All this stuff made my anxiety worse because I didn't know what it was so I was up for many nights because of 'insomnia' for about 3 months. I know I could have died because I stopped eating all together. I literally had no appetite. No sleep and eating made me develop ' derealization' so everything became so unreal to me and I wanted to commit suicide so badly to stop the numbness I felt. Everything changed and looked so unreal. I thought people weren't real just things. I began to have severe 'paranoia' and non stop obsessive worrying thoughts that made me feel crazy. I was scared and alone. My mother didn't help me too much because she would threaten to put me in a mental hospital. All she did was stay in my bed with me at night to help me feel better but I felt so alone the whole time. I feel like I went through hell on earth. It was the worst feeling I had ever experienced. I didn't leave my house for months as well because I developed 'agoraphobia' so I was scared to be outside and it made me panic a lot. Anyways... Time has past and I've been through a lot of good and bad things since then. I eat better now, I take omega 3 supplements and vitamins for my health, I stay positive, I've researched and learned a lot about what I went through and I'm able to go out more ( even though sometimes I feel like I'll pass out out of fear, I still force myself to be strong).... I've researched so much that I've come to this website and decided to tell my story to see what yall think. I discredited HPPD because I didn't believe I had all the full blown visual distortions. I mean the number one thing that bothers me still until this day is derealization and its been a long time. Maybe its my anxiety feeding more into it but I feel as though colors are different shade and sometimes my auditory perception feels like I'm high, like everything is amplified. I still have the BFEP and I still have the Halo's. Every once and a while I will get image burn that lasts for 1-2 seconds but that maybe is just my anxiety?? I'm happy I could share my story with you guys. Hopefully you can give me some feedback on what it was I went through and how to deal with anxiety and fear. I just want to live peacefully.. Thank You and Much Love, Melissa