Hello, my name is Mandy. I have recently been looking into HPPD for a little bit and am still very new to the idea and want further information because i do not know if i have it or if it's just side affects from LSD
i was smoking weed 2 and a half years straight before I took LSD in October and have done it about 15 times since, taking small breaks in between and what not, but i am finally done with it. I first noticed my perception on life slightly changed after the first time, not taking it as a warning i continued, even smoking weed after taking at least a 1 tab. I've been fine and smoked weed mostly everyday but just noticed that I would get some LSD visuals (i.e increased light, wave like vision, imaginary snow 'visual noise' and give me a different high all together). I knew the LSD messed with my weed high hard but it didn't effect me as much. I tried talking to my significant other about it, who has been doing it for about 3 years now and he doesn't understand what I'm seeing even if I describe it. On March 12th, I took 1 1/2 lsd tab of a black flower. I was feeling fine until I smoked weed, where my vision went kaleidoscope, lines were coming from my partners face and it felt i was slipping out of the dimension. I felt something inside of me 'break' like my vision and what not and it stayed like that for 20 minutes. I've never been so scared in my life. I felt I was trapped that way forever and would not be able to see again, my vision returned but the waves in the bottom corners of both eyes don't stop. I took a half tab the following saturday to see if the trip before was all in my head. It was alright but after smoking weed, i get this paranoid feeling and it makes the waves worse. This past Wednesday I took another 1 1/2 tab, i was already high from weed a couple hours previous and still had the lingering high feeling. While I was coming up, I had a huge panic attack and had to run out of the building I was in. Everything was crazy wavy and lights started to glitter. After the trip was over, i still have the feeling of it lingering in my system. I do not know if it is HPPD and I am not in anyway trying to make anyone feel bad if they have it. I'm just a scared teenager ;p ahah it's been three days and I stopped smoking weed and started eating fruits and vegetables. It's hard for me to eat and everything is still moving in a slow motion. the visual noise have gotten worse. and lines freak me out now
I'm here to search for help to not aggravate it as much. I know it's only been a couple of days since my recent incident and it's still new but Even looking at these posts give me anxiety about what's going on with me and I never suffered from anxiety before. Ive accepted that I'll never be 'normal' again and well, what is normal anyways?