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iHaveSeenEvil

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  1. I've noticed that if I'm even in the same room as someone smoking weed my HPPD is so fucked up the next day, or five. I've stayed hardcore away from weed the past week and I'm feeling better every day. Also, not getting wasted or drinking caffeine has helped. Cigarettes also, I've limited my smoking. And I've been feeling ALMOST NORMAL. But for real, if I get second hand marijuana smoke at all, it's like back to square one. Even the SLIGHTEST amount of it. Anyone else experience this? Small amounts of booze seem to be okay, even therapeutic, but ANY amount of weed exposure will fuck me up so bad. I got wasted like 7 days ago, and fell asleep in a room people were hot boxing and my HPPD was suicidal hell for a few days, and now much better. Is weed a massive HPPD trigger for anyone else? I'll gladly lay that, and anything else triggering to the grave for life.
  2. One of this biggest issues I have is trying to portray how I feel to other people. Anyone with zero psychedelic experience will NEVER know what we are going through. EVER. I am fortunate enough to have a close friend who went through the same thing, and he is better to the point where it doesn't affect his everyday life. He says his DPDR is rare now, and only happens during extreme hangovers. Which is irrelevant, but a success I hold dear to my heart. It's something that non HPPD people will never understand, and it sucks. I do have some friends who at least try to empathize, and don't act like I'm fucking around. It's a true trial of friends =/
  3. As stated directly above me, I had terrible experiences putting my hands in my pockets. It felt like I was putting them into an abyss of nothing and I couldn't figure out where I was putting them. It's impossible to explain but I'm sure you guys understand. My hands felt numb, or weak, or as if they didn't exist. THIS ALL WENT AWAY AFTER A MONTH OR TWO. I've had HPPD for 3 months now, and all the weird out of body and DP symptoms have vanished. I no longer feel like I'm about to float away and I no longer feel absurd body feelings, or any of that weird sort. =)
  4. My body felt weird when I first had my HPPD onset in December of 2013. They were never continuous, but I noticed weird shit. Sometimes my hands felt as though they didn't exist, or when I put my hands in my pockets I couldn't feel them. When I touched the back of my head it felt as though my hands were where my eyes should be. And sometimes I felt like I was about to start flying away. The worst was when I'd have weird vertigo, I felt like someone was pushing me with their fingers, like jabbing at me, and like gravity was going haywire. I felt really unbalanced and like I was being pushed. Was awful. Oh, and my right ring finger would feel like something was touching it. All of these felt 100% HPPD related. Cross my fucking fingers but I haven't had anything like that recently... For like a month. Think it's slowly getting better. Also, yeah sometimes it feels hard to tell things apart from one another. Everything looks like a mess versus separate objects.
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