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  1. I think your best bet is to speak to the doctors about having panic attacks, that is probably the simplest way to get prescribed limited amounts of clonazepam to use as you described. In a perfect world, all GPs would know about HPPD, but that's far from the case. Using anxiety or panic attacks will bypass this (and isn't really lying, as hppd causes both). As for the driving aspect, I have no idea how the laws are around that, from country to country.
  2. It did nothing for me, negative or positive, but everyone is different. For dosing, see something like Erowid I was taking into to try and find an alternative to benzos for anxiety relief.
  3. Yea, i'd stop asap... but obviously consult your doctor and see if you need to taper
  4. Mate, this is a very small community and sometimes posts go through the cracks. We all have our own problems and some times I don't have the mental energy to answer every post, i'm sure others are the same. I'll try and come back to this post when i have (hopefully) better energy tomorrow... But swearing at people is the worst possible way to try and communicate.
  5. Prozac made my anxiety 100x worse and i wanted to end my life to stop the pain... I'll never touch another SSRI
  6. I hope you are doing ok... Keep on fighting, mate... PM me if you need anything
  7. Hey, is it possible to do a rough sketch of where to place the 2 points? I always struggle with the terminology
  8. That's a great find! I look forward to hearing how you get on
  9. Nick has summed it up perfectly. Keep on fighting and please let us know progress over the coming weeks and months.
  10. It did nothing for me, i went up to 2g per day... It also did nothing to hinder me though, so could be worth a try.
  11. If i'm focused... Working or socialising, I'm good, not tired and don't notice any memory issues (at 2mg+ i do)... If I am watching tv, i will probably sleep though, even at 1mg... I've tried splitting the dose, but 2 x 0.5mg does nothing for me.
  12. No probs! I'm glad there was a med there for you, when it was really needed. It's one of those cosmic jokes that we have found a med that actually works for HPPD, but comes with it's own set of problems!
  13. I've used it long term, but not every day... I tend to do something like: Thu 1mg Fri 1mg Sat 1mg Sun 1mg (occasionally, if needed for a social event) 3-4 days off Then have 2 weeks off every 3 months to fully clean the system. If needed, I sometimes up the dose to 1.5mg for really anxiety inducing events. Likewise, I sometimes take 0.75mg is I need something, but know it will be easy enough to get through... 0.5mg doesn't really do anything and 2mg+ shows no significant improvements either (and just makes me sleep). One thing that took me a while to get my head around is it's best used it to treat anxiety, not the visuals and dpdr... When I first got my script, I would take 2mg as that was the dose that would really help my visuals (while also helping anxiety and dpdr)... After a while, I figured out that if I decrease the anxiety using 1mg, I didn't really care as much about the visuals, that were a little bit reduced, but not like the 2mg dose. This really helped to stay away from tolerance, imho. This approach has worked for me for about 15 years now, with little to no sign of tolerance or withdrawal (I had 6 weeks off during lockdown and didn't notice any issues other than my standard hppd/anxiety). I can't really begin to say how much this med has improved my life.... social events, work events etc have become so much easier and just knowing that I have the med on hand, if needed, actually reduces my anxiety. It just needs to be treated with a lot of respect.
  14. I seem to stay just a few inches away from the edge of insanity... I can imagine that it wouldn't take very much to push me over that level, but so far, so good. Being able to work from home has really helped, as has having Clonazepam on hand for events that would really trip me out. Good, patient friends and family too. Keep on fighting.
  15. Zopiclone is an odd one, in terms of visuals... I have very strong hppd visuals and zopiclone changes them... The visual snow and strobing stop almost completely , but the geometric patterns become more like spider webs, which is quite strange at first. So they do have potential to make you see things while on them. I've never had any prolonged visual changes though. The safer alternative (visually) would be a traditional benzo. They are also amazing for sleep (I have slept for 16 hours on a 2mg dose on klono!). If you treat them with full respect and only use them to try to break the cycle, I don't see any issue with them (as long as your doctor agrees, of course!).
  16. If you need something for occasional relief, there's nothing better than clonazepam, for me. If you are confident you can stick to only taking them as and when, then i'd chat to your doctor about it.
  17. Hi, have you tried melatonin yet, that seems to work pretty well for me (5-10mg), i get a slight hangover feeling the next morning, but a small price to pay for getting my sleep cycle sorted. I take it for about 2-3 weeks and it tends to get me back on track. If that doesn't work, Zlopiclone almost certainly will. Again, make sure to just take them for a week or two and see if it helps you get into a natural sleep cycle. A technique that helps me a bit (and this is one i somehow made up myself) ... When i'm in bed and wide awake, I count as fast as I can in my head... As i start counting into double figures, it becomes a real struggle to keep the speed of the counting up.. keep cycling repeatedly between 1-20 as fast as i can until it's a real struggle to count.. For whatever reason, it seems to overload my brain enough to clear out my thoughts and help me get back to sleep. Strange, but worth a try!
  18. The safest option is obviously none, but if you do want to smoke again... Then yea, take a prolonged break and then reintroduce yourself with low THC level weed. For me, once I had hppd, the weed question became moot, as even the slightest amount would make me trip and give me insane anxiety, so the choice was made by my body/mind before I could have a say! You might find the same... If you feel like weed hits different now, then it's probably a sign to think about quitting.
  19. I'm not really comfortable with this conversation on here... Please reach out if you need help to get your life back, there's always a way. Stay strong, Jay
  20. I refer to what you have now as pre-hppd, you pretty much have to force yourself to see the visuals, but they are there if you look hard enough. To me, this is a huge red flag for what might come if you keep experimenting with drugs. I'm sure a lot of us long termers on here had this and kept pushing on with drugs until we got full blown hppd. Personally, i'd quit the shrooms and be thankful that I had the experience and came out fairly unscathed... If you do that, you might well be able to carry on smoking some weed (though that is still a risk, right now).
  21. By definition, if you don't have visuals, you don't have hppd. But my view is that hppd is a collection of issues anyway. Visuals, dpdr, anxiety, depression etc that have been brought on by drug use. So even if the hppd definition is not strictly correct for you, I am sure all the info you find on here will be of use.
  22. Good to hear you are recovering. Sleep, or lack of it, can cause spikes in symptoms, no doubt about it. Hopefully your sleep pattern improves more each week too.
  23. No probs... The only thing that went away was depression. It was horrendous for the first few years and by far my worst symptom, but thankfully eased in year three and is now completely gone. Why it went away, i'll never know (no meds at the time). Depression isn't really a hppd symptom, in my mind, but was very likely linked to the drug use. My baseline is strong visuals (VS, after images, geometric patterns, CEV, strobing/flashing of the entire visual field), strong anxiety and dp/dr. I have always equated my symptoms as like being trapped in the last few hours of a strong trip... Back in reality, but still with quite strong trippy vision, trippy thought processes and all the fun and learning has long passed. I'd rank those into: dp/dr - The worst of them, get rid of that and I could breeze through life. anxiety - It's bad, but I have learnt some coping mechanisms and have the occasional clonazepam to get through the worst of it. visuals - while bad, i could easily live with them if they didn't feed into the dpdr and anxiety. I'd seriously take on everyone's visual issues on here if it meant getting rid of the dpdr and anxiety.
  24. My baseline is pretty stable now and the feeling is constant, but predictable. A few things can change that for me.. 1) Lack of sleep or broken sleep 2) Stress 3) Meds/Drugs (inc alcohol). I think getting natural waves/spikes is actually a good sign and indicates your brain is trying to work out and fix the problem.
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