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Everything posted by Jay1

  1. Before calling other people out, fill us in on your drug use so we have a better understanding of your situation.
  2. Well, it's just a precursor to a migraine... There is nothing to really worry about. Chat to a doctor.
  3. Hey Andrew! I think that sounds way more like migraine aura than anything hppd related. Try to relax about it and just monitor the situation, for now. Hope it all goes well, Jay
  4. Yea, stress is second only to drug taking in terms of making your symptoms worse, imho. Thankfully, my stress related spikes have always gone to baseline sooner or later (after a death in the family, I spiked badly for probably 6 months). Main advice is to try and reduce that stress wherever possible. Also, with the low dose clono you take, you could move up to 3-4 days a week without too much risk too, as long as they are 3-4 days in a row, then 3-4 days off (this is just my personal view though, always worth speaking to a doctor first).
  5. It is very, very likely to be connected with the drug use, so I think you can start to work on healing your hppd. Obviously, keep getting checked with the doctor too though. My first advice would be to try and stop the guilty feelings, guilt is there to stop us doing something again... I think it seems safe to say you will never do drugs again, so that guilt is just wasted, negative energy. Forgive yourself and start to focus on your recovery. You will still be a great mum.
  6. Done, please keep me up to date. I can film any time.
  7. Do they move though? I know I can sometimes see eyelashes too that look like black spots. Just trying to get an understanding of the issue
  8. Your post literally says: Reduce or eliminate "All fruit, except small portions of berries like strawberries." "Don’t eat plants they are full of antinutrients"
  9. Sounds very much like hppd. Are you sure the black dots are not floaters? Do they move when you move your eyes? Some of my floaters are black dots rather than the typical lines that most people see.
  10. Great post, agree with every word. I think the make or break for us long termers is to get the right mindset. Discard negative emotions, cast aside self blame and loathing. Focus on the things we still can do.
  11. Cool idea... It's a tricky one for me as the anonymity thing always worries me, even with the blurred out face. I wonder if the whole interview could be animated too? It would need to be done in a way that didn't give it a cartoon edge, but could potential be the answer to the anonymity issue. If that might work. I can film myself talking about my experience (I have a fuji xt3 and some lighting) and you could use that as a source of animation.
  12. "Don't eat veg or fruit"?! hahaha, you will have much bigger problems than hppd within a few months. "Science" paid for by the cattle industry would be my guess.
  13. Yep... It's likely that as you obsess over your visual field, you notice naturally occurring faults in vision I've had floaters since I can remember. They are a physical issue that can be fixed with lazer treatment.
  14. Stress and lack of sleep are the key reasons for spikes in symptoms (outside of drug use). The good news is they are almost always "just" spikes and you will get back to baseline, it might take a few more months, just keep on fighting.
  15. Just a quick note that floaters are not caused by hppd, i've had them since I can remember. hppd sufferers see them more as we focus on our visual field. You can actually get surgery to get rid of them. Head pressure, I wear sunglasses as often as I can, indoors and out.
  16. Yea, we get so many people post for just a few weeks and leave. Would be very interesting to know if their hppd went away.
  17. Yea, i've tried pretty much everything that's ever been mentioned on this forum! Nothing works for me, sadly.
  18. Hi Allen, welcome to the site. I have tried all the meds that are supposed to help hppd and have yet to find anything that works outside of benzos. I prefer to just keep away from meds now and use benzos 3 days a week to ease my anxiety (usually over the weekend when I can be more sociable). I am sure you have built up some good coping mechanisms during your years though and will have no problem helping to raise your child!
  19. They do it on how many users are online at once... Our limit is set at 30 and it went to 85. I have been on the phone to them and they have agreed to set it back down to the current tariff, but I feel this might be a wise time to cut the cord. All it takes is one popular reddit post that directs here and we could be billed for $1000s.
  20. Great, thank you... If I can get access to the domain, let's do this.
  21. I think it's worth trying a few benzo types. I was getting good relief from Lorazepam, then it started making me quite anxious and manic for no real reason. I try not to over think these things and just move on to try the next thing. Keep on fighting! Jay
  22. Hi, I received an email yesterday from the forum company and due to a (one off) spike in traffic, they are trying to change our service from $60 to $330. Sadly, I simply can't pay this amount each month. I see two ways to keep the forum alive. 1) Try to get donations from users and other sources to help pay the forum bill. 2) Try to move the forum to a dedicated server. Can anyone help with 2)? @David S. Kozin.... If we do this, I will need access to the domain name to set the DNS. All the best, Jay
  23. It's very unlikely to be psychosis... More likely dr/dr, some ptsd and anxiety/panic attacks. It's a thought that has crossed all of our minds on here, i'm sure... But getting the correct diagnosis is key (even self diagnosis). Especially as anti-pysch meds tend to make hppd worse.
  24. You've had a clear warning sign, I wouldn't say you have mild hppd, but you certainly have all the precursors to suggest any more dabbling with drugs could trigger something. 12 days is too soon to know anything, so stay totally sober and see what happens. There is every chance you will recover, but take notice of what your brain is telling you. Also be aware that your vision was never perfect, but you were never actively looking for issues... The more you focus on hppd, the more you will see the eye's natural flaws and panic yourself... My advice, try to forget about hppd, distract yourself... get out in the world and do things that you enjoy that don't require drugs/alcohol. If, in a month or so of sobriety, you still feel there are lingering problems... Then start doing more serious research on the topic. All the best, Jay
  25. Stress and lack of sleep can do this. Just try to stay calm and remember that is has gone away before and will almost certainly go away again.
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