Jay1

It's a bit like trying to cure a gunshot wound by firing another round into it. I've tripped post hppd and it made my visuals worse.

Inositol worked well for my depression and also has a calming effect. My main advice is to do whatever you can to reduce stress though... If that means locking yourself in a room and watching movies or playing games for the next 3 months.. Do it.. That might mean quitting work or college, but your mental health for the rest of your life is just too important to worry about things that you can rebuild later.

Yea, that's still an opinion. I've had this shit for 23 years and still don't assume to know everything and don't flat out diagnose other people based on my own, unique experience. The guy took drugs and sees shit... SSRIs may have latently triggered it. Either way, SSRI induced visual disorders and drug induced disorders are hardly inseparable (LSD and MDMA are both serotogenic drugs).

Welcome to the board... You are still in the early days of hppd, so there is every chance you will start to see a recovery, especially as you were quick to go sober. My personal opinion is not to rush into the meds and just get used to hppd and find your baseline. If nothing has changed in 3-6 months, then maybe start exploring meds... Just my 2 cents All the best, Jay

Most of the post is good,, not sure the need for the first couple of sentences? The internet has changed... People don;t use forums much any more, things like reddit and facebook are have far more active hppd communities now. That's the nature of the beast. I pay to keep this running more for the history of the posts that hopefully help lurkers and newcomers.

I think alot of that sounds natural.... the eye is far form perfect and due to the nature of hppd, we are contastly looking for changes in our vision and start to notice the eye's natural defects too.. See what the retina specialist says, but I think there is little to worry about.

Thank you for sharing. That is an incredibly harrowing story, very sad, but I am glad to hear that you are healing. I can't begin to imagine how scary that must have been, to be tripping without knowing that it was from a drug, especially at such a young age. Feel free not to answer this, but what happened to your mother? Did she get charged? Did you manage to forgive her? It sounds like you have a very good mindset considering what you have been through.

I have tried microdoses of psilocybin. It had no negative or positive effects. Everyone is different though and I 100% would NOT recommend it. Especially if you are quite new to hppd. Just go sober.

stop stating opinion as fact. If the guy has taken lsd, was smoking weed and has visual issues, then hppd is as likely a suspect as anything. SSRIs might have triggered the symptoms, but no one can rule out hppd.

i've had it for 23 years now too... more than possible and sadly, there are people here who are in the 40+ years club. Here's my medication regime... Not a cure, but quite the band aid! I use a 4 days on, 3 days off benzo treatment with 10 days off every 2 months to further clean the system. It has worked for 10 years now, without any sign of tolerance or withdrawal: Lorazepam (2.5mg) - Thursday 6pm Clonazepam (1mg) - Friday 9am Clonazepam (1mg) - Saturday 9am Lorazepam (2.5mg) - Sunday 9am

I realised that due to the nature of the tv static, it doesn;t need to be a 360 video, you can just set it to play in youtube on your phone, full screen, then put your phone into the VR headset and it gives the same immersive effect. I've done 3 days now of 30 mins and it is quite relaxing (the VS clear up still only last about 20 seconds but that's impressive enough). Hopefully after some months, I might see more results. PS - you could just a get the $10 google cardboard to do the above, as long as you have a half decent phone.

Interesting post, I remember a similar post a while ago, but never as well researched. It certainly works for me in the very short term, but i'd never thought of trying long periods over months. Something I will now be trying. Onemorestep raises a good point about trying this in VR. Having complete immersion could be really helpful. I will research if this is available, if not... I will try to make a 360 video to try.

No one really knows... My guess is it is neurological, some kind of receptor burn out (LSD, MDMA and SSRIs all pump out large amounts of serotonin, which can overload the receptors). Others think it is PTSD... It could be a mix of the two. re: anti depressants, I can only go on my own experiences.... SSRIs (Prozac) made me so anxious that I wanted to die and made all my symptoms worse. Inositol helped me with depression, with no increase in hppd symptoms. St John;s wort didn't really help with depression, but didn't affect my hppd. re: diet, I am vegan and make most of my meals from scratch using fresh ingredients... This has really helped boost my energy, but can't say that is had any effects on hppd, negative or positive

Hi Lolo, It is hard to say if you have hppd or not, but the fact that you have done recreational drugs and have VS and dp/dr makes me think that you either have hppd, or something very similar that will probably follow the same "rules" as hppd. SSRIs are generally considered a problem for people with hppd, so if you can stay off them, that would be a smart move. Maybe you could try different depressants like Inositol or st john's wort? (though please note that, with hppd, some people have issues with many medications, so taper up slowly and stop using if you see further problems). Benzos like clonazepam are used to help with VS and anxiety, but they are addictive, so try not to use them every day. They also can cause further depression, so something to be careful of too. I would try again with exercise, even if it causes some dp/dr issues after, the benefits for anxiety and depression are huge. Similar with meditation. Regards, Jay

btw - at the moment it sounds like you are still in a place where you are free to choose your next steps, whereas for me, I had a mental breakdown (after a binge at Glastonbury 1995) that meant I pretty much no longer had a choice... It was either stop drugs or be in a 24/7 psychotic state. Our disorders can get almost infinitely worse and it only takes one session to go to a new level of hell... This is not a scare tactic, just a simple fact. At the very least, give yourself a real, prolonged break of months.