YNot124

Thank you! being positive and self improvement is always great thing; especially when it means a mild happy trip as opposed to a bad one. I was wondering about that, if it could increase intensity with more use; It seems obvious but I wasn't sure. I think this is the one thing I'll take someones word on and not find out for myself. I really appreciate it!

Aye guys, a few weeks ago I read about HPPD whilest looking on information about being 'stuck in a trip'. I self diagnosed myself with HPPD, I've done lots and lots of acid.. unfortunately some of it was probably some 2ci-2ce or some bullshit and maby thats why I'm here today, or perhaps its because I was also diagnosed bipolar, and that caused it, reguardless, I can conciously bring myself back into an 'acid trip' with little effort. I'm still not 100% sure if I have HPPD, but I'm leaning toward yes because from what I've read its a constant hallucination, but you can realize that it IS JUST YOU seeing some shit. I have also noticed that everything (Pain, tolerance to other drugs, food) has a more noticeable mental affect now. I know this might sound wack, but as someone who THOUGHROULY enjoyed acid and had a dream that that would be my reality I think its a dream come true. The world is beautiful.. I can stare into the rain, or at a peaceful nature setting for hours, I eat only healthy food now, avoiding all soda's, fast foods, and generally unhealthy snacks. I work out everyday. I realized what is important in my life and my grades are improving. I train everyday toward becoming an Amateur Aggressive Inline Skater. I can get mentally 'drunk' off a single drink, or a mere sip of wine (though physically it hasn't affected my tolerance.. I can still down 20+ beers.. it just does A HELLA LOT MORE MENTALLY than it did before.) I quit smoking ciggaretts and doing all other drugs (Except on rare occassions, and of course in GOOD moderation). All and all my life has improved. This has all been over the last 4 months or so (Except the drug use.. that goes back a few years), I only found out about HPPD a mere 2 weeks ago. So, I look at it like something you can't change, go with it, and use it to your advantage. Your a modified human being now, see things for what they really are (Not the Audio or visual hallucinations.. of course.. but the intensified feelings). Don't let it hold you back, let it push you forward. I didn't join this board because I want to rant, I wanted to talk to other individuals to see if I actually do indeed have HPPD, and if so, that I can help those who aren't so progressive with it to open their minds and live better lives. Thanks! Good to meet you guys! Tony, 17, FL USA