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artvandelay

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  1. that would be awesome. Hope things work out for you.
  2. yeah that was exactly the same for me. Within in two days i was the most relaxed i had ever been but i was seeing some strange stuff. 2cpGotMe, did your visuals get worse over the course of the week or only after the first couple of doses? I'm also interested in whether or not Zoloft will eventually plateau as if this is the case i will definately switch back to it
  3. I just have a few question's to ask? I tried taking sertraline (Zoloft) about 2 to 2 and a half months ago. The symptoms got worse but the relief from it was fantastic. After all this time trying to get used to my new perception, my anxiety and stress levels are still high and although I am hesitant, I really feel as if I need medication to help me beat the stress and anxiety. My first question is do anti depressant's normally give such tremendous relieve over such a short time? I had only taken the drug for two days and I could not possibly be stressed or worried no matter how hard I tried, however my symptoms got worse so I decided at the time to stop. Secondly, How long until this stabilizes. What i mean is if i keep taking SSRI's are the symptoms going to consistently get worse over time or will it increase only the first few days and then stop. I generally think the latter as I have seen people say they have been on the drug for two years and dosen't make much sense if it got worse every time they took it. Would there be a better drug to try in my position? My symptom's include halo's, minor ghosting, bright lights that occasionally flash (mainly happens when I move my head/ get up to quickly), geometric patterns on walls and an image still being there after I look away...This is by far the worst symptom as I have obsessional and compulsive tendencies to constantly check and look for it. Finally when people look at traffic lights at night are the lights rly distorted. Its hard to explain but for example green lights go wayyyyyyy above where they should and it looks as if there are four green lights as opposed to just one. This has been getting worse over time and does it continue to get worse or does it stabilize? I do feel selfish for coming on here just to questions but I do really need help to make this decision. Thankyou for reading.
  4. i'm exactly the same as you...i have now sworn of all substances except alcohol for the rest of my life. It's my birthday in a few weeks and i'm going to have a few beer's then just make sure not to go over the top...alcohol and stress definitely made my symptoms worse.
  5. yeah i have OCD tendencies which makes it worse....i think its time for a holiday lol
  6. Today concluded the worst seven days I've had to deal with. Up until last week I could always manage my HPPD and the stress It caused me but since about a week ago i've been waking up not being able to breath properly and my heart going 100000km. I cant help obsessing over this and it's making it worse as this is literally happening 24/7. I've been strong for four months now but this is starting to get the better of me. Work and uni are very demanding at the moment so I don't know if that has anything to do with it. All I want to do is to not hate getting up in the morning like i do now... Sorry for ranting it's been a bad week :/
  7. after the Xanax wears off do the symptoms come back worse? I've been having pretty bad anxiety lately and have no problem getting it but I don't wont to if It's going to make the visuals worse.
  8. I also get very bi-polar, in the space of a few hours I'll switch from being completely optimistic to incredibly pessimistic. For me the stress has definitely been the hardest. The last four days my chest has been tight and my heart has been hurting from all the stress I get. Does anyone else get obsessive thought about this? There is one symptom I haven't gotten used to and I cannot for the life of me stop thinking about it. It pops back into my mind pretty constantly and I stay worrying things like I'm never going to get used to this and start looking for it which is even worse. I feel for you all
  9. Was just wondering how safe Valerian root is to use as a supplement. Is there any chance of making my symptoms worse? I've already had my symptoms increase once and I'm not going to go down that road again? If anyone else knows of any other supplements that don't have any negative effects feel free to add those in as well.
  10. That's me a few months before getting HPPD. Not really a hobby but I was out in the city with friends so I guess that counts for something Good idea starting this thread...cheered me up on one of my bad days.
  11. At work, the day after the last time I consumed alcohol I first noticed this. Was really stressed out about it till David responded to a thread I made. For my personally it was a symptom that would come back later and later over the course of a day and eventually just went away. One of the few symptoms that has gone so far.
  12. never had a problem with alcohol and HPPD until I discovered this forum. After reading this thread a few months ago my anxiety sky rocketed from hearing other people's problems when drinking and since then it got worse every time I drank. I have been sober now for two months which I am really proud of myself for however I wont drink again until I stop being even the slightest bit anxious about it. I am getting much better dealing with the anxiety, though I do miss drinking. I don't think any of my HPPD symptoms from alcohol where long term related, but for a week or so after it definitely made it worse
  13. What is the reason why SSRI's make HPPD so much worse? I'm finding this somewhat interesting now
  14. Visual what type of medication are you on?? I don't have DP or DR and I am very grateful after reading some peoples experiences on this board. I mainly get shapes moving on walls, objects occasionally shifting and moving, after images and random white dots moving when I look up at the sky. I have decided to stop taking the drug as I do not want my HPPD to become full blown. I don't know if i will take any more meds in the future, however the shift in my thinking for however short it was made me realize how important it is to have a positive frame or mind which i'm starting to work towards. are your visuals getting any better?
  15. Over the past month I have discontinued all drug use and my Hppd has pretty much stabilized. Even though I can cope with the stress better then before the visuals are giving me wayyy too much anxiety. I have been seeing a psychiatrist who has prescribed me Zoloft in an attempt to help with my anxiety/stress. After two days of taking Zoloft, It has made me incredibly relaxed. Not only that but I have started to have adopted a more positive way of thinking, not only to the visuals but to life in general. The only problem is that my Hppd systems have worsened. I now see sort of halo's above cars when I am driving and things seem more blurry from a distance. None of these seem to bother me in the slightest though, and I have pretty much gone from one extreme to the other. I have read up about Zoloft and in some cases it initially makes symptoms worse and then gradually they get better over time. However the general consensus on this forum is that all SSRI's are a bad idea. Should I discontinue taking Zoloft even though it is making me a lot more relaxed due to the symptoms worsening, or should I try and stick with it taking the advice of particular reported cases on success. Any personal experiences regarding taking Zoloft would also be helpful.
  16. I would just like to thank you for taking time to write such a descriptive and detailed response. Your are correct about almost everything....I have been drinking alcohol on average 2/3 times a week for the last 4 years. My dependence on it can be put down to the anxiety I get in social situations and I do find it very hard to find other methods to relax besides drinking. I quit smoking almost six months ago and almost went back to it when abstaining from alcohol as well as the added anxiety of HPPD. However besides drinking I have only done other drugs a handful of times and only done K twice in my life. I am 100% committed to stopping all drugs... abstaining from alcohol is going to be a massive challenge but like you said I may need to alter my lifestyle to make it more tolerable. My anxiety got worse after dwelling on people saying that their HPPD has never subsided so it's good to hear positive reinforcement that it gets easier to deal with over time. If you have any ideas on how I can manage stress besides resorting to drugs then that would also be beneficial thanks again
  17. I was just thinking I could get something to help cope with the constant stress and worry from it.... how exactly to mange to cope so well even with such extreme visuals?
  18. Christmas day last year I tried ketamine at a friends house and noticed that afterwards I would begin to see things morphing on walls. It was very mild and it would only really bother me when I was tired or looked for it. For the next month and a half i continued to binge drink and even did K again and the symptoms did not get any worse. It was only then that I decided to look up it up online and came across HPPD. It was then that I began to stress out about the other symptoms and how people have had to live with this for years without it getting significantly better. My anxiety became increasingly worse and I got to the point where I could not enjoy drinking because I was stressing worrying about the other symptoms. One night when drinking I noticed what I can only describe as small grid like lines in my vision and sure enough when I awoke they were still there. It lasted for about a week and I was on the verge of having a panic attack at work. Oddly enough the day after drinking it went away although my symptoms were heightened dramatically when drunk. I had stayed sober for the next three weeks but I have been unable to go long periods of time without excessive worrying about it and eventually the lines have come back. Last weekend I drank and my symptoms were really bad when drunk. Also I noticed when reading yesterday that words would start to bend and twist which gave me a lot more anxiety. I know that I can attribute my HPPD getting worse to stress and anxiety as I have been sober from all drugs except alcohol for two months and am not starting up again soon. I am seeing a psychiatrist a week from today and hopefully he will prescribe me something to deal with the anxiety and stress. I guess the purpose of this thread is to try and get some clarity into how other people suffering from this are able to cope with the anxiety and stress that comes with these visuals. The times when I don't think about it, the visuals hardly affect me at all but overall it is having a significant effect on my life. If i could somehow alter my way of thinking and accept and embrace it I think I would be get better over time but so far I have not been able to do so.
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