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  2. Thats actually really interesting. Sounds like you very well may be having issues with your cerebellum. Per chance are you on lithium?? Any other medications? I would recommend seeing a doctor about this. The two things you are describing are directly linked to cerebellum issues. Do you have an vertigo per chance? HPPD can cause issues the same as well.
  3. To be clear and fair, only a very few leaders within the "international health system" work in Psychiatry and they have used far too extreme methods to make also lethal injection a part of reality. Their methods include rape and murder of kids as a decoy, all done in utmost secrecy ordered by a genuine psychopath who is the fake policeman which is disclosed but yet not proven with empirical evidence.
  4. I have more of s difficult time say buttoning my shirt or even opening a zip bloc bag. It’s like my fine motor skills have gone down quite a bit along with slight depth perception issues. Honestly I felt pretty good on Sinemet but Inhad similar issues so I had to stop. My balance also feels wonky.
  5. The pedos don't know how to treat a lady. Proof here:
  6. Can you be more descriptive of your coordination issues? also best way to deal with them is to remember they just abnormalities and to ignore them. It’s difficult tho no doubt!
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  8. I find diet really helps too. I’ve cut out sugar the past year and gluten for the past few and it makes a big difference in my life. There’s some good research on the keto diet being good for anxiety (it helps with seizures so it definitely reduces excitability). Other things that have helped for me: 1) Wellbutrin: ironically this allowed me not have to take benzos at all during the daytime and helped me begin my taper again. Seems counterintuitive as it’s a stimulant... can’t say why. 2) bpc-157: there’s some promising research out there about this peptides ability to reset tolerance to gaba drugs. It certainly helped mine. 3) inositol: this helps me... but for many others it makes it much worse. I don’t recommend it unless you’re feeling like taking a risk. 4) go on a walk. It actually works. 5) I bought a dog! One of the best things I’ve done for my anxiety.
  9. I’ve just received some Sarcosine in the mail (100g). I was wondering if anyone has had experience with this? The only person I’ve really found on the forum who’s tried it (Jess) didn’t seem to have a good time. But I do seem to react semi positively to enhanced glutamate. Glutamine seems to help remove a lot of negative symptoms I have (apathy, social withdrawal, etc). Would love to know if anyone has tried it. Best, oms
  10. So Ive concluded that this stuff is pretty safe (for me at least) in the short term. Can’t speak to long term use. It’s highly effective at deepening sleep. Almost too effective... it seems to make me a bit groggy the next day and worsens some of my flat affect symptoms. But it also stabilizes my mood. I’m pretty sensitive to the stuff though I don’t believe others would find they have such side effects. As a supplement i I give this an B+. It kicks insomnia and frequent waking in the ass. Doesn’t seem to be particularly habit forming physically. If it didn’t make me groggy the next morning when I’m trying to get out of bed it would get an A+.
  11. So this stuff seems to do the exact opposite of what I intended—it keeps me up all night. I’ve trialed it for a few days now in hopes that effect would fade and lead to better sleep but unfortunately that has not happened. I imagine if taken during the day it would be quite nice. Boosts my energy without feeling like I have some sort of stimulant in my system.
  12. Solveig "SOL" Mørkedal was brought into the religious cult of Psychiatry, because she was a soldier and suspected of being a terrorist. We have the fake policeman in my country as well and he created a real world troll for himself in 2006 in order to not get arrested. His troll is to protect and hide away the pedos.
  13. Hi all, ill keep this short as I tend to praddle on... I am having a hard time distinguishing what day of the week it is, what time of day, and my cognition is almost non existent. I also suddenly have poor coordination and my arms and hands feel at times like lead. I don’t understand the world completely. in order to continue trying different treatments I have to work so I can stay with my folks. I am currently employed but am worried I won’t be able to maintain my job. I have to be able to have a basic mental map-a sense of sequencing. Yet I’ve, as of now, lost that ability. It’s like I am not “locked in” to my day. I know these things take time just any advice would be very much appreciated if you’ve ever dealt with such symptoms. thanks a million
  14. Hello people . I’m new to this website and idk how active it is here but I just wanted to tell my story as short as possible. I first started taking LSD at age 16. At age 18 I had my last LSD trip. Not knowing it was going to be my last. That last trip was different. It wasn’t bad or it wasn’t good . It was different. But that same day I had smoked once it started to go away. And I was driving and all of a sudden I lost connection to reality . It was scary. And I didn’t know what it was . A week later I had this flashback. And it tripped me out. That night I woke up at 3 am in the morning to thunder and rain . When I woke up I felt scared. I thought I was feeling that way cause of the thunder. I’m a painter and I have this painting of a fish I did on my wall. I remember looking at it and it looked different . I got out of bed and I went to the bathroom and I saw myself in the mirror and I just felt very very off . And I knew something wasn’t right . I was fucking terrified. I went to my parents room and took a shower in a bathroom they had in they’re room. I remember showering and all the thoughts going thru my head . I felt as if I wasn’t in reality same time I knew this had to do something with my constant taking of LSD. I got out and I slept in my parents room on the floor. I was a 18 year old. Sleeping in my parents room cause I was tripping bad . I had to . My little brother was already sleeping on the floor so I slept near him literally grabbing on to his foot while sleeping cause I needed to feel like I had someone normal connected to me so I can stay sane. I didn’t say anything about what I was feeling. Idk how but I fell asleep . I woke up the next morning and that was day one of HPPD. Everything was different . Everything. My life flipped...... that was a year ago. October 28, 2016. And till this day I still have it . It has its ups and downs . And my answer to it is to stay bright, stay sharp, love yourself and love others. Keep yourself busy and please stay sober. Spread the word.
  15. 1 tab of LSD about six years ago. A few weeks after I started noticing some light geometric patterns on the wall and at night road signs would ghost a bit but I thought nothing of it. A few months after that I took one ssri in the afternoon (for ocd) and later that night when I went to bed I woke up with this panic as if I was on something. My first thought was serotonin syndrome but that doesn’t make any sense with one pill. I eventually calmed down and felt normal. Maybe some months after that I remember closing my eyes and seeing a star and thinking that was strange. Then I realized I could not hold a visual image still in my mind like on the trip. Also certain objects looked like they had personalities almost (even though logically I knew this was an illusion). I also got the childhood memory mind pops often before sleep. The getting tripped out by objects and mind pops faded but the typical visual noise, cognitive fog and after images stayed. I was upset at first but things were mild and I actually found my semi psychedelic mind quite charming. I was ssris for OCD over the years after the HPPD and no issues what so ever. I experienced DP only upon waking from naps or rarely from bed. Maybe three times in four years. I also would lucid dream effortlessly only during naps. All in all I had a happy life. Until last August after that one ssri and then, as stated, I woke up and the DP stayed.
  16. What initially triggered you're HPPD? I do find it a bit strange that an SSRI and low dose of Modafinil would have such a dramatic effect on your symptoms. Very strange indeed.
  17. Ps: was just recently prescribed klonopin but I’ve been using it sparingly. All I want the ability to enjoy a fucking television show.
  18. Hi, thanks for your reply...I did cut the dose in half but alas that was too much. I read a post on tapatalk recommending modafinil for reducing dp/dr (as it’s been linked to high theta and I also get flashes of old dreams and memories all the time) I also got the idea reading an old post by former member Onedayillsailagain about how it helped his dp a bit. I had mild hppd for about six years. Back in August I had taken a low dose of an SSRI (I had been on years before with no issue) -went to bed and woke fully depersonalized. I had been planning on moving and proceeded to move anyway and tried to make it work but reluctantly had to go back and live with my folks after a month. I feared I had permanently worsened my formerly mild condition but got some assurance that ssri may of just spiked me for a while. I hope this even worse modafinil spike goes down as I don’t think I will be able to function at this level for long period. Yikes
  19. Yah I'm not exactly familiar with anyone recommending Modafinil for HPPD, whoever did is.... well they know nothing about Modafinil lol. It sounds to me as well that you're doctor is probably not familiar with HPPD. You probably jolted your neurons quite a bit. How long have you had HPPD for? You'll have to give it some time. Things will probably calm back down but it will probably take a while. Sorry youre living with you're parents. Maybe you should try finding better employment if possible. Also I didn't see that you had tried benzos? Benzo are usually the first line of prescription by doctors for this. They act directly on the GABA receptors. I also personally recommend lemon balm. I would always take it instead of the benzos when I could get away with it. Just get it in the dropper bottles and dose accordingly to your level of symptoms. Also in the future, its good practice to anything you take that you have never taken before is to take it in small quantities and work your way up. So like with the modafinil it would have been good to take just a quarter of the smallest dose possible. Then half, etc. Hope this helps you out.
  20. Hi folks, well after about 6 months of riding out an ssri spike I had managed to be able to cope with my new dp/dr symptoms. I could enjoy music, do the odd Netflix “ binge watch” and, crucially, start to think I could maybe move out of my folks house in a few months. Unfortunately moving out for me was conditional-I did not want to live in a lily white retirement gated community working fast food (I’m 27) with my folks but I did not want to go and bring the dp out into my new life either. I thought not cure but improvement. I got massively into cardio and eating right. Though I also tried Keppra, Lamotrigine and Sinemet with Sinemet seeming to help the most and I was not on Lamictal near long enough to evaluate. I had also set up some neurofeedback appointments that are upcoming. i am wary to just put any old pill into my mouth-but I had read some promising anecdotes from some HPPDeers on success reducing dp/dr using Modafinil. So I figured how about I try something that may improve me just a bit more so I can get off of Planet flipping burgers And living with folks. I don’t know if Modafinil spiked my anxiety which sent my dp/dr into overdrive but it’s been hell. I no longer have any sense of time-my cognition and ability to plan is all but gone. Coordination is noticeably worse. I can’t ignore my “alien” voice like I used to be able to, my coordination is horrible and I can’t get carried away by a good book or film. That’s all out the window as of now. I’ve tried forcing these activities but it’s like words and images just fall into my eyes and I either don’t care or can’t follow. If I can’t hold together this, as of last week, job so easy a monkey with a spatula could do it my folks will be showing me the door. To quote Gilbert O’Sullivan ”Such is life or so they say” Any advice would be much appreciated. Be well
  21. dosent even exist anymore, odd was there a year or 3? back... remember showin it to my old girl. sux
  22. I have prolly only posted a few times in half a decade, I was a teenager in the 90's and just don't have the drive to debate anymore... makes me weak.
  23. speakin of, wtf happened to meth lab? he was the original head of HPPD.... someone I sgtill value as a fucking if not the most, pioneer of this group... last I saw of him he was bingeing and I was trying to keep the peace and he just lost it... I miss that dude man, prolly one of the most memorable people ive ever come acrossed. hope hes well.. you all owe a lot to that dude and pogb, who I cant remember why he disappeared.... think it was pre-hppdonline
  24. hppdonline, was 2003 I think,,, DK gets credit where credit is due, we don't get along much anymore but it was the jumnp from stormloader/hppd to hppdonline(DK's work) my name and who I was at the time, somewhat of a posterboyfor hppd that got hppdonline off the ground..
  25. No Im not familiar lol. I wasn't aware that this forum has been here since the 90's.
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