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Has anyone tried this medication and what was your results?

I am curious to know what your symptoms are. I didn't log back In until now because I decided not to for the time being but I am considering it again. I feel my symptoms were started by a traumatic trip where I took way too much but had the most beautiful experiences of my existence on lower doses before having a flash back of my traumatic trip right before the symptoms came on. I still feel like it might have been trauma from a bad rather than just the drug itself that caused the hppd.

I felt like this at some point but you adapt. That is what humans do. If you are still having the same level of symptoms after this long I would guess you have gotten more used to it by now. It takes a lot of time to grieve away the mind you used to have and accept life with the mind you have now.

I decided not to try more for now. I know it's a late response but I'm back on here cause I'm considering it again. I went a full 5 years completely sober with no change in symptoms. If it isn't going to get better after 5 years then my chances of recovering are already gone in my view.

I have had hppd for maybe 6 years now. I had the most powerful spiritual experiences of my life on shrooms except for one terrible trip where I took way too much that lead to depersonalization. I have visual snow, tracers, halos and some other stuff. I feel like my iq dropped 20 points and I am more tired than I used to be. Has anyone else tried psychedelics after having hppd? I want to try to take fairly small but somewhat significant amount of shrooms again but am afraid of making the condition permanently worse. I have microdosed many times and I drink and smoke pot often. These things have never worsened my symptoms. I feel like since I already have It it would be hard to make it worse. I know anybody without experience with this would say not to go there but I would like to hear from somebody that has tried.

Im only 19 although Im a little ahead academically since I went to a concurrent enrollment high school. I dont really have a major declared but I am studying mathematics and will likely major in statistics. I am very lucky to have the doctor that I have. I went through a couple of doctors to find him. I think the best place to find doctors is at universities. Something about the academic atmosphere seems to make people more open minded.

I took my first dose four nights ago with no noticeable benefit for the first three days. Today, however, I have found myself understanding mathematical concepts in class better than usual and when I stepped out side to look at the stars I noticed a clear reduction in visual snow. I still have not noticed a change in floaters, blue-field entopic phenomenon, tinnitus, ghosting, or starbursts. So I seem to have some improvement in dp/dr and visual snow. I am very happy about this and hope that I will see more benefits as I go along. I have not had any keppra rage which is surprising since I am naturally an irritable person. The one side effect I have noticed is fatique. I have been falling asleep in the middle of the day for like three hours and am still able to go to bed on time. I hope that this side effect passes but so far the benefits are outweighing the risks. I will try to update sometime withing the next month or so. I should also note that I had a three month trial with lamictal with no benefit to speak of. My psych said that If I do find a medication that gives me a lot of benefit he would like to publish a case study of my experience to help others in my situation. I encourage anyone with experience with keppra to give some input on their experience as well.

Thanks for the reply xspecm. Does it help more with visual or mental symptoms? It's good to hear that it has helped someone. Also how long did it take to start working? I took my first dose last night and I have zero improvement so far.

Thanks for the reply xspecm. Does it help more with visual or mental symptoms? It's good to hear that it has helped someone. Also how long did it take to start working? I took my first dose last night and I have zero improvement so far.

I saw a psych for the first time yesterday and was prescribed lamotrigine. Has anyone had or read about anyone else having success with this medication? I have done a little research on it and it seems to be a waste of time for hppd and vs. I was told to try lamotrigine first and then keppra if I don't have success. I guess because the side effects are suppose to be more mild with lamotrigine or so I was told. I'm starting to think I should have gone straight to keppra. Any knowledge about this subject would be greatly appreciated. I hope all you hppders have a great day! Try not to space out too much, you only live once.

I just saw a psychiatrist for the first time today and my results were great. I was diagnosed with hppd without having to tell him what it was. He said he would be willing to do some research into some medications. I suggested keppra and he said that I could do keppra but he would prefer it if I tried lamotrigine first. I guess because he doesn't think the side effects are as bad. I live in Utah and am seeing a psych through the university of utah (in Salt Lake City). His name is Dr. Matt Moench.

Jay-- thanks for the reply. I have been debating on taking time off school but it would mean losing a scholarship I can not defer. I just started school last week with 15 credits hours and it's been tough. I have read a little on what I can do. cutting out caffeine is difficult with school but I'm doing my best. I drink small amounts of alcohol now and again but it doesn't seem to affect me. I'm meeting with a psych next week and I'm hoping they will believe me. I'd like to try keppra as I've read some success stories with it. MissJess-- Life with hppd really sucks I agree. it sounds like we've had hppd for the same amount of time as I've just passed the 6 month mark a couple days ago. hopefully we will be some of the lucky ones. mg-- I'm definitely trying to hold on to what I still have left. Have you noticed any recovery? if so at what point did you first notice healing taking place?

I feel that I have been going through he'll lately with no one to talk too. My friends, family, and doctors have told me that my problems as all in my head. I have turned to this forum in hopes of finding some friendly and understanding people. I believe the cause of my problems was a bad mushroom trip a year and a half ago. this was my first trip ever. I was in kolob canyon in Zion national park in Utah. My friends and I were idiots and each ate 4 grams for our first time. The high hit me hard and I went walking off. I forgot who I was and even forgot that I was a human being. I thought that I was the only thing that existed. I thought that I had always been and would always be in this canyon. I some some mixed up memories of my life but I thought that I had made it all up to escape this eternal loneliness of existence. I was so out of it that I walked through an ice cold river with snow on each side. I couldn't register cold so I just thought that the energy that was generating my consciousness was being sucked out of me. I thought I would continuelly lose energy but couldn't register death. I was basically convinced that I was losing the ability to move and would continue to grow weaker and suffer more and more for an eternity. you could call it an icy he'll of some sort. the trip ended in a police care. My friend had apparently walked to the ranger station to look for me while screaming that the world was ending. this costed me 4000plus dollars and gave me a criminal record as well as a little jail time. Before getting hppd I thought that was the worst possible outcome I could've had. I've tripped a few time since then (only ever mushrooms) and they were amazing trips that made me love life and question reality in very curious ways. I became good friends with an old philosophy professor. He taught me how to grow mushrooms. we went on a lot of hikes and had deep conversations about nature, beauty, life, and death. and most importantly we listened to a lot grateful dead. During this time I got a 4.0 in the honors physics program at the university of utah. things were looking up for me. I loved life, I was happy and wanted nothing more. everything began to change on March 1st after ingesting a pot cookie. I began to panicked. I had a flash back not of my previous happy trips but my dark kolob trip. the same thought loops were forced through my head and it was even more horrific than the trip itself. I felt a little off the next day but I brushed it off. I was mostly in disbelief that what had happened to me the previous night was reall. that day in chemistry class I noticed tracers and got a little nervous as I had read about hppd back before ever trying mushrooms. other that the tracers and some coming and going snow I was fine for the following month until one day I woke up with a massive head ache, emotional detachment, and severe brain fog. I couldn't even remember the first half of the day. a couple day later the headache went away and I began to feel better. for the next few months the dpdr and brain fog came in gradually worsening waves. every time in got really bad I acquired a new symptom. I've developed auras, starbutsting, ghosting, floaters everywhere, tinnitus, and severe photosensitivity along with my vs, tracers, and worst of all brain fog and dpdr. I don't really know what else to say. school is so difficult that I'm considering dropping out and throwing away my scholarships. I don't enjoy much and don't feel a reason to get up in the morning with the loss of emotions. I also forgot to mention that I get sharp pains all over in my head as well as head aches and head pressure. I used to enjoy nature and learning so much but without feeling deeply it's so hard to enjoy anything. I've never been depressed in my life until now. I felt that I had a natural gift for mathematics but it was taken from me. I guess I'm just having a hard time finding a point in life without the ability to think and feel. I also feel like I use to be so much more friendly and caring but that is leaving me as well. my wife doesn't even believe me and she has kicked me out as this has been emotionally taxing for her as well. we have a child together which makes it especially difficult. I don't know how my life went from amazing to total shit so incredibly fast. sorry about the emotional rant and I know that every one here has similar stuggles. any reply would be greatly appreciated. peace and love to all, --Chase

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