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.. I don't need the stress. Hopefully people still come here...

Based on all the info you provided, no, I don't think you have HPPD. If these symptoms persist after giving birth, then maybe, but it sounds like your doctor is likely correct imo.

Congratulations Holly. Hope is important.

@Spartan I'm not surprised you ended up in the hospital. You can't stop benzos cold-turkey, EVER. You can literally die. You got lucky. Make sure if you're taking Klonopin, that you are consistent as far as dose goes, and again, do not stop abruptly. You have to taper as slowly as possible. Withdrawals will also exacerbate HPPD and DP/DR symptoms.

Everyone reacts to substances differently. If you feel klonopin makes your life more bareable, and the other schedule isn't doing it for you, first read up on just how addictive kpin is and how bad the withdrawals are. If you still feel it's worth it, then going through a doctor perhaps begin taking it daily. When you do take it, what is yoyr typical dose?

@Sheyrangely You're seriously promoting bongs to someone that has hppd made worse by thc? Come on. @sapphicc You're handling it well, dont mess up by using weed. The Lexapro could be causing worse symptoms. If you feel you need to, try reducing the dose and see if it helps.

Do you feel it's possible that your hppd symptoms could be heavily influenced by your migraine with aura and car accident? I'm just playing devils advocate, I don't doubt you got HPPD from Valerian. I'd have to look it up but I believe valerian affects both gaba and serotonin.

Wellbutrin caused mild visuals and made me an angry mess. However, anger is often an issue with me, but I do feel welellbutrin made it worse.

@Siren001 I do feel your pain, really I do. It sounds like you're at your wits end looking for help. The only thing we are asking is to be nice. Jay1 is a great admin, we're lucky to have him. I truly do feel for you. As for being banned from r/hppd, they give horrible advice anyway. Many of us have had bad experiences there. I know I'll never return there. This forum is full of reasonable, nice people that want to help. This includes Jay1, who both moderates and funds this community. He's the last person anyone should get mad at. I've been here pre-nodid, and can attest he's always been amazing. I'm changing from being frustrated with you to realizing you're simply in pain. Just be civil and we'll be happy to help. The Australian research is a great idea, just don't be mean about it. I genuinely am wishing you well. Please try and put yourself in our shoes given your initial reaction. Nobody hates you, we're all on the same side.

@Siren001 Your actions vs. your supposed intentions are quite different. You say you're just trying to be helpful, and then you downvote anyone you disagree with, insult pretty much everyone, meme this stupid, zoomer, crybaby bullshit at people, not to mention the PM you sent me whining that I had the horrible nerve to criticize you. I have no sympathy until you stop being a dick to everyone (intentional or not, that is what you are doing and continue to do). If you want help and support, this is a good forum for that. If you want to be a know-it-all and intend on making everyone feel bad then please fuck off and don't come back. You also do not know the history behind this forum, and the amount of research that has been attempted/done before. Some of that isn't your fault: the forum had a problem at one point and many old posts were lost from my understanding. You might be able to find nodid.org, created by this site's founder, through web archivs, that also owns this site. Nobody has been sitting by simply hoping for the best, people have done exactly what you are saying. There have been many efforts over the years to create better lives for all of us. To suggest otherwise is a slap in the face. Nobody is sugar-coating anything. By all means, if you want to be miserable then be miserable, just don't do it here. Currently, there is a reality, which is until people start giving a shit about HPPD, and recognizing it as real, there truly isn't much that could be done other than to learn how to live with it, and to support each other through tough times. You keep assigning people blame for not doing more to help HPPD. What have you done? Oh yeah, that's right, nothing. Until you stop this crap this is the last time I'm speaking with you like you're an adult. I don't regret insulting you, you deserved it.

This interests me. You say MDMA 6 months prior, but what about any other substances since then? Weed, even alcohol in proximity to taking the Valerian, or even an SSRI? Anything at all. What HPPD symptoms do you have, and do you have DP/DR as well?

If you have no anxiety surrounding it, which seems rare, you're a rare instance where I would NOT take medication. You're able to deal with it, which is great. It may very well go away on it's own. There is no evidence to suggest any medication we take for HPPD or DP/DR can get rid of it, it's more to mask the symptoms. I had HPPD and DP/DR for over a decade. Both went away (mild cases of both still, but totally livable). The idea of it going away on it's own is not unrealistic.

I think the idea of DP/DR being a PTSD type of response is correct, especially given the non-HPPD association between DP/DR and PTSD.

It really needs to be said at this point: you are a total fucking cock. Fuck off back to Reddit you over-opinionated piece of shit.

Forget it, it's not worth it.