2muchmandy Posted May 5, 2012 Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 Woke up this morning terrified at full on 2c visuals. Circles on the walls flashing filled in with mental dots. No colours they were like visual snow. Theyv gone and did after a few seconds but today my visual snow is dense as hell and I can see the sorta groupings of 4 dots in circles. Man this is disgusting. I want it to fucking end Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nuroeone Posted May 5, 2012 Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 Just like 2CB you think your done tripping then BOOM another wave hits you hard lol Hppd is always worse when you first wake up, if its passed i wouldnt worry about it. The more you think and stress out about it the more intense its gonna be, RELAX! Occupy yur mind with something else, anything! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
2muchmandy Posted May 5, 2012 Author Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 Yep haha. Yeah its calmed down but my visual snow is still dense. Why didnt my doctor just give me fucking medicine like I asked rather than refer to some psychitriats who wont have a clue Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nuroeone Posted May 5, 2012 Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 yeah, my doc was the same back when my hppd first started, wouldnt give me anxiety meds in the end i just gave up, i think if you can learn to do without them and manage it you will be better off in the long run although that being said i would love something to get rid of a few of my visuals but oh well...we're gonna be like this for a while by the looks of it may as well try to live with it. I had a pretty bad anxiety attack triggered from anger yesterday at work which wasn't to fun, shit got wierd so i know the feeling but i pushed through it and am ok...FOR NOW! lol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
morbide Posted May 5, 2012 Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 I at least have periods of improvement and then it goes back to normal hppd. Last week was very pleasing, visual snow and anxiety were dying off but today everything is worse, things tend to move more than before, snow and static is denser, afterimages are waaay worse, ghosting is horrible. Pretty much no anxiety though. Seriously thinking of trying to get keppra or something prescribed if it doesn't calm itself down. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jay1 Posted May 5, 2012 Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 Don't forget when you wake up, you are still in a bit of a dream state... I would imagine that non hppd people can see weird shit in those first couple of seconds... They just forget about it straight away. Most of us probably check out our visuals as soon as we wake up, to see if it has changed... So we will pay attention even when we have just woken up and still in a bit of a daze. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
2muchmandy Posted May 5, 2012 Author Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 Yeah true jay but this was blinding me man, full on fashing patterns and everything. It went after like 5 minutes. Went back to sleep and now iv woken up visual snow is like I dont even know its so minimal i.cant describe it. Im not paranoid and I generally feel good. Hppd appears to be two steps forward and one back. Good 5-6 days bad 3-4. That shit was bad though, like when it first kicked in, 2cb but negative positive. Fuck that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nepuinthesky Posted May 5, 2012 Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 your body and mind produces serotonin to get you awake. serotonin needs light to be produced. i noticed when i wake up in the dark my visuals are less noticeable than awekening in daylight. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
2muchmandy Posted May 5, 2012 Author Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 Boom! Thats why when I sleep with the curtain open I wake up with different visuals Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jay1 Posted May 5, 2012 Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 did you oversleep or undersleep? This can affect visuals Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
2muchmandy Posted May 5, 2012 Author Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 Underslept, went to be at 4. Woke up at 8 cos my dad was moving my car in the drive ( its very loud ) and I thought someone was stealing it so I sorta woke up dazed and terrified. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TylerKThomas Posted May 5, 2012 Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 Sorry to hear you were having such trouble. :-( Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
morbide Posted May 5, 2012 Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 This might be totally OT but i actually experience less hppd when i oversleep and sleep for like 10-14 hours. Anyone else? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
2muchmandy Posted May 5, 2012 Author Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 ditto man, i always get a good 10-12 hours. im never waking up early again, that shit scared the spine outta me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TylerKThomas Posted May 5, 2012 Report Share Posted May 5, 2012 This definitely is off topic, but could some of you respond the thread I made entitled, "greetings". I have a great need for some clarity and personal insight if, as I am fairly certain, I have HPPD. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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