Passion Posted April 20, 2012 Author Report Share Posted April 20, 2012 My biggest problem was: I could not read because of the black dots and traces. >.< Even if I did.. I couldn't concentrate on the text.. only on those dots. So glad it's gotten much better. Link to comment
nepuinthesky Posted April 20, 2012 Report Share Posted April 20, 2012 glad to hear. if the snow is on your mind its very hard to not concentrate on it. if you are concentrated in reading for example the snow is urged in the background. its like the kid which knocks his/her head and first starts crying after you asked:"Does it hurt"^^ Link to comment
John Smith Posted April 21, 2012 Report Share Posted April 21, 2012 LSD doesnt burn, it's a very fragile molecule, and PCP laced weed is def not a myth, i thought so til it happened to me, maybe you got some DMT resin off the bong? That happened to my friend once and he tripped balls lol, that could explain the multiple dimensions feeling Link to comment
nepuinthesky Posted April 25, 2012 Report Share Posted April 25, 2012 How are you doing passion? do you still notice improvements? Link to comment
Passion Posted April 28, 2012 Author Report Share Posted April 28, 2012 Yesterday I was in the woods at night and noticed that I can't see in the dark.. ;c I see statics everywhere.. Can't focus,on anything and my vision is really bad.. ;c I see only shadows in the dark. Have you experienced it? Right now it's dark in the room and I can see statics. But my day vision is improved. Now I don't thing that I am 98% cured... Still a long way to go. I don't really remember how the world looked like before I got this. But I want my sight back ;c I want to see in the dark. I don't wanna see statics. Right now my buds are smoking. I have managed to stay away from it.. Just as you told me to. Link to comment
nepuinthesky Posted April 28, 2012 Report Share Posted April 28, 2012 hmm i always had a small amount of static in dark the most people have it. and my night vision was always bad i can remember once i was in the woods when i was a child i cant see my hand infront of my eyes^^ Link to comment
Passion Posted April 29, 2012 Author Report Share Posted April 29, 2012 Oh, good. Makes me feel better. But it isn't really a "small" amount of statics.. it's huge ;c Link to comment
Passion Posted April 29, 2012 Author Report Share Posted April 29, 2012 Oh, good. Makes me feel better. But it isn't really a "small" amount of statics.. it's huge ;c Link to comment
morbide Posted April 29, 2012 Report Share Posted April 29, 2012 Just keep your mind off the visuals and treat your body and soul well, you'll adapt and you have a great chance for it to improve since you haven't had it for a long time so one day you will most likely wake up hppd-free! Link to comment
Passion Posted April 29, 2012 Author Report Share Posted April 29, 2012 Thank you for your support <; Link to comment
Passion Posted May 3, 2012 Author Report Share Posted May 3, 2012 I am so damn scared ;c I want to cry. I cry. I want my life to be as it was before. I am so scared and sad. I am always thinking.. WHY ME? I think selfish and bad.. Why not my friends? Who smoke like.. EVERY DAY. :c I'm scared. Link to comment
morbide Posted May 3, 2012 Report Share Posted May 3, 2012 First of all you have to accept your condition, you will never be able to live in the past forever. I know it's scary but for now just realise that this is a part of your life but there is a chance to recover. What symtoms bother you the most? And how scary it might be, you will not die nor will you go insane. And from what i've read it won't get worse unless you fuck up and drink like a viking or do drugs like Iggy Pop Link to comment
2muchmandy Posted May 3, 2012 Report Share Posted May 3, 2012 very wise words there morbide hes right man, at times u might feel insane, but just ride it out. i thought i was almost 100% fixed but then had a bad week or paranoia, bad vision, but now im starting to get better again...and i cant see good in the dark either. the best thing to do is just avoid the dark Link to comment
Passion Posted May 4, 2012 Author Report Share Posted May 4, 2012 The symptoms that bother me most.. Is my vision in the dark. The thought of never be able to drive in the dark when I'm older and get my driver license. And the statics.. They are not too bad. But I regret it so much. And then my dpdr. Dpdr is the worst feeling I think. Link to comment
2muchmandy Posted May 4, 2012 Report Share Posted May 4, 2012 My advice for drdp is emmerse urself in ur own life. U feel distant from ur friends family and self. What to do is do things that u usually do or used to. Live the way u did before, thats how I combatted mine. Its totally gone. The more u think about being fake or living in a drem the worse it is. U gotta just get out and do stuff and soon ul feel urself again Link to comment
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2muchmandy Posted May 4, 2012 Report Share Posted May 4, 2012 I still get passing thoughts but I shrug them off. Its all about acceptance and relaxing. For me the drdp is connected to anxiety. Cut the anxiety and hopefully the drdp will follow Link to comment
Passion Posted May 4, 2012 Author Report Share Posted May 4, 2012 Yesterday I was so freaked out, I told my mother the whole story. At that moment I was so away from my body that the only thing I asked myself was if this happens for real. It's like when your dreaming at night and don't really know if that is a dream or reality. Link to comment
2muchmandy Posted May 4, 2012 Report Share Posted May 4, 2012 Its horrible man. U tried going to the doctor and getting medicine? Link to comment
Passion Posted May 4, 2012 Author Report Share Posted May 4, 2012 I am a girl.. Hahah. Just so you know. C; No, and I will not do it. Because I heard that most medicine fuck everything up even more. And the doctor is just not an option ;o Link to comment
2muchmandy Posted May 4, 2012 Report Share Posted May 4, 2012 Haha sorry. I say man too much out of habbit I dunno I mean if u look at the keppra threads and the klonopin ones they seem to almost eliminate hppd. Even something like daizapan would take the anxiety away and combat the drdp Link to comment
Passion Posted May 4, 2012 Author Report Share Posted May 4, 2012 I don't want to use medication :c I am scared that they will make things worse. It's like.. very individual of how your body is going to react. Link to comment
2muchmandy Posted May 4, 2012 Report Share Posted May 4, 2012 yeah i suppose u have a point there. just keep on living healthy and thinking positive and it should go away Link to comment
Passion Posted May 4, 2012 Author Report Share Posted May 4, 2012 Thank you for your "hopes".. C; I just want to wake up one day and magically be normal. Lol. I remember that before I "woke up" from my trip, I saw someone put a black paper under my "sight". I remember that I begged for all of it to stop. It stopped. The trip.. I mean. But.. That black paper.. Actual paper.. Were never removed from beneath my vision. I know it sounds strange. But that was just what I experienced. Link to comment
nepuinthesky Posted May 4, 2012 Report Share Posted May 4, 2012 beeing out in the dark is really hard sometimes. was on a festival afew weeks ago in the night time there were only flares and campfire, this was really trippy because of the trails and afterimages, but it doesnt bothered me much i often took psychodelics outside in the nighttime was a little bit like an acid trip. i live in a big city here is always light in the night so this isnt a big problem. but i wouldnt recomend to stay away from going out in the dark because you will better learn to cope things which are fimilar to you. Link to comment
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