Patthebat88

Thinking about killing myself soon. Im sorry, I cant take this pain anymore

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I cant take these fucking afterimages and trails anymore. Im sorry I cant do it. I fucking dont deserve this. I smoked weed one time in 2008 and had HPPD for about 3 months. Then I was completely normal. I never touched a drug after that. Recently I worked out a little and all the symptoms came back but the visuals are terrible. I see afterimages after 1 second and trails of everything moving. Also floaters and light sensitivity. I have been seeing these for 7 months. I feel fucking hopeless and do not deserve this, smoking weed must have dont something to my nervous system. 

 

I do not want to die but I cant live my life like this. Im sorry. My plan is to get completely over this is to go on a 14 day water fast at a medical facility. Doing this cleans your nervous system as well as your entire body.

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Dont do it. You probably saw my thread and where I was a few days ago and now I feel better. Just hang in there.

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Not sure if that is HPPD, maybe Visual Snow Syndrome (not like it would make much of a difference)

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If you symptoms went away before, then they can go away again.

Stay strong and fight through this

 

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I Got it from weed to its NOT worth killing your self it cant be that bad if its from weed man. You Will be ok 

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I'm so glad I didn't make any rash decisions. I feel about 90-95% recovered and that's without meds. I don't know how to explain it because I'm eating better but not consistently. It must have just been time.

It feels like my nervous system is resetting back to normal. Give it time and yours will too.

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Mythos,  excellent to hear.  Keep it clean and the brain can rewire and the body can be strong.  I realize that, for some, pharmaceuticals can be very helpful.  For some, not so much.  I found that being totally clean worked for me.  Good to have you here.  Life is great stuff.  I dose on it every day.

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