danimals21 Posted January 31, 2015 Report Share Posted January 31, 2015 My names Daniel I have been using Psychedelics for the past 10 years. First off let me start out by saying that I am diagnosed as bi polar although I think I just have more anxiety and depression as I was coming off coke when I was diagnosed as bi polar. Since one of my first LSD trips I had some of my first hppd symptoms however they were pretty slight. It just started as some visual snow however it was never that bad. Over the years I started experimenting with research chemicals and needless to say it has drastically increased my hppd. These drugs include 25i 2ci 25c and so on and so forth. I sadly have even injected 2ci before. I feel like most of my drug problems have come from me having hppd because I thought I was in a dream world. A year ago I ingested about a gram of MDMA (wasn't tested could have been anything) and later on that day ingested an unknown substance somebody gave me. I was driving to work when I started tripping and it was very scary and unpleasant because it was unexpected. I made it home luckily and I had the most terrifying trip of my life I seriously thought that I had died. After this experience I ended up in a psych hospital and shortly after I went to rehab. This was the high point of my hppd symptoms now I constinatly see visual snow 24/7 however night time seems to amplify the effects drastically. I have delays on everything when people walk by me I see a color blur of their after image, when people sit in front of a white wall I see an aura around their body almost as if they were glowing, if I look at a picture frame or a TV for example and more my eyes away I see the outline of the object where ever I put my eyes and so on and so forth. Anyways I'm trying to get clean again I have 3 days so far.. I have had 2 years before and still had symptoms so I have been skeptical about trying again. However I might as well just do it I barely even trip nowadays anyways as I have the symptoms 24/7 plus I just want to find that true happiness again and be happy with myself without the use of drugs. Anyways I just wanted to give a little of my testiomony and say thanks to this site because I legitly thought I was going crazy before I read that there were other people like me. Anyways wish me luck with my sobriety it will be a struggle (for me mostly with alcohol,MDMA, And psychs) but I know I can do it as I've done it before. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jay1 Posted January 31, 2015 Report Share Posted January 31, 2015 Good luck mate, I have a similar backstory to you. Getting off the drugs is tough, even when you know the further damage it does. I had to cut out pretty much all of my friends (and even move to another town). It was tough, but the real friends were accepting when I was strong enough to be around people again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
danimals21 Posted February 1, 2015 Author Report Share Posted February 1, 2015 Thanks for the reply man that's exactly where I am right now especially since I'm on a lease with someone who uses. I know I can do it I've had 2 years clean before (still had the symptoms but they don't really bother me anymore). Its just those fuck it thoughts I get that always mess with me. I've been to 5 meetings this week though so I'm going to try and keep it up. Almost have a week clean which will be the most I've had in about a year. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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