Missjess Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 I was in the airport the other day and everything just looks so fuked up ...my brain is way to dissociated to even process anything 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jimmyb84 Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Airports, shopping centres, night clubs..... Forget about it. Complete chaos 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 25, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 This is so shit ....don't know how I'm going to make it to Brazil!! Do sunglasses help??? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StateOfRegret Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 HPPD or DP/DR can't kill you. You can make it to Brazil, I'm sure of it. It'll probably be tough, but if it's what you want to do, then do it. Don't give up ahead of time. Oh, and for me, sunglasses do help. The polaroid ones (the ones that plane polarize the light) help the most, the cheap ones which are simply tinted help somewhat as well, but not as much. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 25, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Yes I know but I'm rlly struggling to cope with them!! Like it's so fkn shit If I do make it there I hope to god that I can be helped Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StateOfRegret Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Where did you hear of this guy? To answer your original question; Yes, I often feel over-stimulated. It has gotten less severe over time (I can handle more complex, prolonged, intense stimuli). The first few weeks after my HPPD got worse, all I could do was lie in bed in a darkened room. That was literally all I did for two weeks or so. After I got out of bed again, I couldn't handle TV or music or anything of the sort. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 25, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Where did you hear of this guy?To answer your original question; Yes, I often feel over-stimulated. It has gotten less severe over time (I can handle more complex, prolonged, intense stimuli).The first few weeks after my HPPD got worse, all I could do was lie in bed in a darkened room. That was literally all I did for two weeks or so. After I got out of bed again, I couldn't handle TV or music or anything of the sort. I accidentally found him when searching for healers...here watch this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-YhRwI-PWY it will tell u all about him and show u different healing journeys etc Wow that sounds absolutely horrible ....i can go to places but everything just looks so fuked up and I just feel high all the fkn time...when I look at my hands and body I always feel a "hallucinogenic" feel to them not sure how long I can handle this for Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kellen Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 I was in the airport the other day and everything just looks so fuked up ...my brain is way to dissociated to even process anything I get this too. I can't handle the commotion. Being in big busy places. No way. Freaked me out even before the hppd but now, forget it. I couldn't imagine going to a place like Vegas or Japan with all the people and lights everywhere. I think I would crawl into a gutter and assume the fetal position. I will say missjess that no matter how bad it seems now it can and will get better. You may not see it now but in time it will. Promise. Im still in the shitter with this but my life is more manageable. I was out of commission for a while. A vegetable. The walking dead. But I'm somewhat back. And any improvement isn't to be taken lightly. Just be easy with yourself. As hard as that may sound. Know what causes you stress and avoid it for now. Try different meds. I feel lamictal is helping. And also keppra knocked my symptoms out for a couple days before they came back 10x worse. But others have had great success with it. We all empathize with you. This can be a living hell. But don't give up. It WILL get better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 25, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Kellen How long have u had hppd for and how bad is it? Yeah I cud not imagine that either !! Going travelling is gonna be so fkn hard in this state I rlly have to do my best not to focus on the lights and ppl so much but it's hard when ur brain doesn't fuking process anything!! What is keppra? I'm too fkn scared to take meds I always react funny to meds and supplements now since the disaster Iboga trip...I tried jdtic today and that was fuked up! Never again.. Thanks ! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StateOfRegret Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Missjess: Could you be persuaded to write a report on your experience (in a separate topic)? As detailed as you can manage at present, of course :-) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StateOfRegret Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Oh, not to belittle your experience in any way, but I just wanted to say that I've had absolutely crazy experiences with coffee, regular painkillers, magnesium etc. All of it was definitely anxiety-fueled, even though they felt like genuine 'physical' reactions to the drugs at the time. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kellen Posted February 25, 2014 Report Share Posted February 25, 2014 Kellen How long have u had hppd for and how bad is it? Yeah I cud not imagine that either !! Going travelling is gonna be so fkn hard in this state I rlly have to do my best not to focus on the lights and ppl so much but it's hard when ur brain doesn't fuking process anything!! What is keppra? I'm too fkn scared to take meds I always react funny to meds and supplements now since the disaster Iboga trip...I tried jdtic today and that was fuked up! Never again.. Thanks ! I've had hppd for ten years to varying degrees. It had kind of come and gone but never got as bad as it did about a year and a half ago. It was debilitating. I was in hell and I can't compare to others but trust me. I had it really really bad. Hospital visits. Im still off work. My gf left me cause I was an emotional cripple. Funny thing is I didn't even know what hppd was until I finally stumbled upon this site and unlocked the mystery as to what has been going on with me all these years. But ya I was a total wreck and my brain couldn't process anything. I know exactly how you feel. It's maybe 15% better than it was but hey. I'll take it. Keppra is an anti seizure medication same as lamictal but in lower doses it's known to treat dp and even visuals. My vs is still bad as ever but when your mind isn't totally fired all the time it's not as pressing an issue. I can live with it to an extent. You will find something that works for you. Time heals aswell. There is no quick fix an you may have to get burned a few times before you find something that helps. I know I did. But I'm still here. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 26, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 26, 2014 Missjess: Could you be persuaded to write a report on your experience (in a separate topic)? As detailed as you can manage at present, of course :-) You mean write up the progress of my healing trip? YES I CAN I will make a post about it and keep everyone update coz I think everyone should be made aware of another healing alternative to cure there hppd....that is if it helps me!! Which I rlly hope it does 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 26, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 26, 2014 Oh, not to belittle your experience in any way, but I just wanted to say that I've had absolutely crazy experiences with coffee, regular painkillers, magnesium etc. All of it was definitely anxiety-fueled, even though they felt like genuine 'physical' reactions to the drugs at the time. Shit! I was like that for about 4-5 months after my horrible Iboga trip, I couldn't drink coffee, stimulants a big no no!! I wud pretty much get a funny and bad reaction to everything I took!! Apart from sedatives R u a lot better now tho? Or do u still experience these awfull things? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hppd24years Posted February 26, 2014 Report Share Posted February 26, 2014 This shit is so scary and needs to vanish. My hallucinations are dam horrifying. I wouldn't wish this disorder on my worse enemy. This crap is relentless and does not want to quit. I wish u perseverance while finding the solutions through ur journeys of salvation. Good luck.. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 26, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 26, 2014 So I just had a lemon lime bitters from a pub ...now I feel so shit!! I didn't realize the bitters has olcohol in it !! I'm in a rlly bad mood right now and things feel hallucinogenic just a little bit more fuk sake ! I hope this passes soon Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StateOfRegret Posted February 26, 2014 Report Share Posted February 26, 2014 Shit! I was like that for about 4-5 months after my horrible Iboga trip, I couldn't drink coffee, stimulants a big no no!! I wud pretty much get a funny and bad reaction to everything I took!! Apart from sedatives R u a lot better now tho? Or do u still experience these awfull things? Exactly the same here; the only drugs that didn't lead to strange responses were sedatives. I'm somewhat better, yes, but I am by no means over my 'medication anxiety' yet, but I think I've gotten better at recognizing it for what it is. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Missjess Posted February 26, 2014 Author Report Share Posted February 26, 2014 Exactly the same here; the only drugs that didn't lead to strange responses were sedatives. I'm somewhat better, yes, but I am by no means over my 'medication anxiety' yet, but I think I've gotten better at recognizing it for what it is. It rlly fkn sux hey...how r we supposed to get better with supps and medications if we can't even take them!!?? I only take a rlly tiny bit of something now and that's pretty much all I can fkn take Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hppd33 Posted February 26, 2014 Report Share Posted February 26, 2014 It rlly fkn sux hey...how r we supposed to get better with supps and medications if we can't even take them!!?? I only take a rlly tiny bit of something now and that's pretty much all I can fkn take Hey try to walk everyday an hour, it helps me "ground" and i walk with my dog so there is a reason.. I also play since half a year tennis and i do swimming, i really enjoy tennis because you have to fcus on the ball, not your dp and dr- visuals(sometimes, a ball looks like a visual tho;)) My life ws sitting at home and fri-sat-sun completly drunk in the city - now that i had to quit this and life a life which is 180 degrees turned around, sux as hell.. but im feeling i cn get better (like 20% from intoxication now) Also i did a lot of googling for DP, HPPD etc etc, i quit that it made me go nuts sometimes, like i never saw a positive message, then i read someone telling mot hppders dont bitch about it anymore on the forums, they got better or they have too less sympotms to bitch about.. This did help me, and still i am a lot on the computer, but its not like 8 hours anymore, outside is where the world continous. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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