bpl4269 Posted April 21, 2013 Report Share Posted April 21, 2013 So i kinda feel shitty about myself right now. Popped 3 benzos at work to numb me from the pain of depersonalization. Then proceeded to chain smoke cigarettes for the rest of the night. (Im not even a smoker!) Idk what the fuck is wrong with me. I guess i just want to escape from this bullshit. And if that means taking benzos and smoking phillies, i guess ive proved to myself that i dont care... Depressed, angry as fuck at the world, pretty much want to kill myself right now. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ludwig80 Posted April 21, 2013 Report Share Posted April 21, 2013 Hang tight friend. Lots of us have made many far worse self destructive decisions after our on set. Go easy on yourself and know the path to getting better is not linear. Focus that angst you feel into energy and motivation to make your life better. Go run, apply for school, learn an instrument, build a resume, pack a bag and go travel, whatever- harness that energy and use it positively to change things 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bpl4269 Posted April 21, 2013 Author Report Share Posted April 21, 2013 Hang tight friend. Lots of us have made many far worse self destructive decisions after our on set. Go easy on yourself and know the path to getting better is not linear. Focus that angst you feel into energy and motivation to make your life better. Go run, apply for school, learn an instrument, build a resume, pack a bag and go travel, whatever- harness that energy and use it positively to change things Thanks for the advice man, i guess im just in a bad spot right now. Hopefully i can change that soon. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shaolinbomber Posted April 21, 2013 Report Share Posted April 21, 2013 Count your blessings. I fell into full blown Heroin addiction so remember that it can always be worse. Trust me on that one. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bpl4269 Posted April 21, 2013 Author Report Share Posted April 21, 2013 Count your blessings. I fell into full blown Heroin addiction so remember that it can always be worse. Trust me on that one. Guess your right man, kinda regretting last night though because my visuals seem worse this morning. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jay1 Posted April 22, 2013 Report Share Posted April 22, 2013 just learn from it and move on.... Dwelling on mistakes does you no good Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
John Smith Posted May 13, 2013 Report Share Posted May 13, 2013 Yeah man ive become a chain smoker, it was actually makin me feel depressed as hell. Id just sit down and smoke 2 pakcs of cigarettes. It made my depersonalization and ghosting a bit worse, so i recommend you quit while youre ahead. Im in the process right now, and ALL I WANT IS A GODDAMNED CIGARETTE... IVe snorted 4 roxys, smoked 3 packs of cigarettes, drank a 12 pack, smoked weed, 3 xanax, 5 klonopins, and gotten in a fight which basically consisted of getting the shit kicked out of me while i was laughing, in about a 2 hour time frame...thats self destructive bro...dont let yourself get there. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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