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Thanks, folks.

 

I could´nt notice anything from day to day untill it was gone. So gradually it improved. Never had tinnitus. I did´nt have starbursting/halos but maybe some floaters, if I get what that means. My visuals are gone completely.

 

My medication: Zyprexa, Cissordinol, Risperidone, Lamictal, Keppra, Remeron, Wellbutrin and some others I can´t remember. Cissordinol is the last one I have taken. I don´t think medication has helped me much since I always had HPPD symptoms while on them. I think time, and staying away from pot and psychedelics has done it for me. I smoke seldom sometimes, but it does´nt affect me at all.

 

I have one symptom left though, and that is the plastic-head-shell that I´ve been rambling about. It feels like a piece of plastic inside my head that I can dig/break through. It´s really terrible but I´ve learned to live with it. One other member reported having it. Don´t know if it´s HPPD related. Other than that, I consider myself symptom free.

 

All in all, it shows that HPPD can be overcome and I had it pretty severe sometimes. Hope you guys get better soon!

So no medication helped u? It just went away on its own? .....I have that feeling of the wide screen television in my head too if to feels anything like that to u? My friend has arrived with jdtic but I'm fkn too scared to try any...I heard a couple of bad reports on longecity. Bit the dp is just so so bad and extreme that I rlly need to take something to try to reverse this. Perhaps I shid try naltrexone...not sure

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Only Zopiclone/Imovane took the edge off DP for me. I took tiny pieces of it during the day... Maybe some medication worked, but I could´nt tell for sure. It has taken some time...

 

Yes I have the widescreen thing still. I believe it´s not your eyes, but the consciousness that is expanded.

 

If jdtic is approved by the health authorities, it may be "safe". Don´t know, but isn´t Naltrexone what they used in Russia for that DP study?

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Only Zopiclone/Imovane took the edge off DP for me. I took tiny pieces of it during the day... Maybe some medication worked, but I could´nt tell for sure. It has taken some time...

 

Yes I have the widescreen thing still. I believe it´s not your eyes, but the consciousness that is expanded.

 

If jdtic is approved by the health authorities, it may be "safe". Don´t know, but isn´t Naltrexone what they used in Russia for that DP study?

Yeh ur right it's fuking terrible...it is an expansion of consciousness ...solveig had success after taking lamictal for this I'm currently waiting for it to be sent to me now. I can't live with that no wa

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Hey there people! 

 

Im not gonna go into a lot of details since we all know how this is, some of us have it more others less.. but I just had to give you my experience..

Sooo.. Ive been (like probably the most of you) for 5 years a heavy pot smoker, every day non stop the good stuff and VERY strong hash. I tripped the first time in my life with a friend who I did not see in long time and he had this few LSD blotters. I did not took a lot so I didnt even get visual effects from it, I just laughed a lot. So a year after, to be exact the 24 of december 2013 he came back again and we kinda wanted to do the same thing. Only this time he had waaay more blotters with him and 2 different kinds. And not forget to mention it was the damn 24 of dec, we both had to eat like dinner with our familys and stuff, but you know I rolled up a spliff in the morning and didnt even think about the consequences.He kinda had tolerance build up over the weeks he was taking that shit, but I was like still a noob to LSD and I took WAAAY too much like one dose of EACH(bycicle and the crazy einstein thing).. This led on to the most stressfull experience of my life...The typical Bad Trip, like a nightmare were you know its real, feeling like in a lord of the ring movie...smoking weed on the way to town.. of course this time I had major hallucinations...Suddenly my anxiety kicked in, I felt like on crack or something really bad feeling. So I know I said I would make it short but this is kind of a relief for me :) I kinda made it through the day and when I came back home I took theweirdest shower of my life and kinda felt "safe". The next days were weird, I knew smoething had changed but I mostly was happy that this nightmare was gone. I said to my self daaaamn I guess im still coming down but nahaa!! after 3 days I started with the anxiety and I dont know if that may be a major factor in hppd but what really made it like extremely bad was my first attempt to know what was happening... I googled: LSD bad trip anxiety....... THAT SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME I became the most paranoid and even a bit psychotic person in the world after searching stuff on the net.. people who killed themselves, people who never cameback or are in some institutions blah blah blah. So what I did was talk to my mother, she helped me quitting smoking weed and cigs ( that was VERY tough, I could not sleep nor eat for like a week)I even stopped doing coffee. I was very scared because after 2 weeks I still felt trippy and dreamy and cloudy and the whole package. Then I came up with a GOOD information. HPPD and PTSD. once I knew what was going on the crazy switch went to inteligence. I got my mind back, and that just after 4 weeks. I still had some MAJOR flashbacks and the symptoms of HPPD lasted for as long as 4 months or so(now talking in present) I had this dreamy sensation of DP DR but what really anoyed me was my hyperattention, everything that moved in my peripheral vision would get immediately focused and the letters on my computer would start moving to the left and to the right. But I convinced myself that it was all mental. Today I can say I have recovered to 95 percent. And my suggestion to you is try to understand what is happening to you. I would describe HPPD like an optic illusion, once your brain seed it it cannot unsee it. Remember long ago before the first hallucinogen experience? I always tried to imagine what it would be like tripping, but I couldnt. Now that you can every time you think about it is like telling your brain do it! Every time I remember the letters moving back and forth while reading something they start doing it. Its all in you head! If I relax my vision I can make things wave around like a curtain but only if I concentrate. The derealisation fades away the more happier you are and somebody on the first page said it, a healthy body is a healthy mind.That is totally true. You just have to learn to live with your past, you cannot avoid it, you cant undo it. I know HPPD is really bad, and I dont even wanna try to imagine what it might be to live with it for a year like many hear have... you have my greatest respekt! I remmeber having a fight with my father a few weeks ago, and went outside to a walk just you know.. to walk the anger away and I ended up having this feeling Im like very tall SCARY or watching a building while walking and seeing how the perception got different and my brain jusy though im tripping! Its all about teaching your brain to be normal again..Nobody here is fucked up for live like we use to think. You decide wether your happy or depressed. And always look on the brigth side, when all this is a few years in the past you wont even remember you were here writing all paranoid and sleep deprived on a forum. I guess thats why there are not so many 100 procent recovery tories, they just dont care anymore. 

So to conclude I want to apologize for my bad englisch, Im actually from south spain  OLÉ!

 

Here a few tipps I totally recomend:

-Stop drugs (like of course but no really, I tried a few hits of weed and it was terrible, maybe like in 10 years I may try it but not until the time hasnt completely made it)

-No psychiatrist,if they dont know with what they are dealing with they will just give you antidepresiva. Instead try akkupuntur,I did also yoga which actually made me trip a little sometimes but its worth a try.

-Akkupunkture is really helpfull, tell the  him/her to ground you and to balance your ying and yang, it made me feel a lot more confident and helped me come back.

-Try different diets, like vegetables, nut cocktails, try maybe indian food. See what makes you feel better, I usually got very sleepy after eating pork meat or fried stuff. Whatever works best for you.

-I know that in the USA its very common to take vitamins since you can like buy it everywhere like candy, but I dont recomend that. Eat some fruit for breakfast, thats the healthiest thing you can do. I love Kiwis and oranges and bananas, really after 20 days or so you wont even think about what you gonna have for breakfast you just gonna go and take it.

-Sometimes its hard to deal with all the bad things that happened to us, I got pretty hurt in my childhood because I used to fell in love and get friendzoned really hard and that would bring me down while I was on HPPD. So here is something that makes wonders, try google psych-K. That is the ultimate form of connecting to your subconscious and reprogramming your brain, it made miracles in one 2 hour session. Its literally telling a therapist what makes you feel bad and then you just vanish it like magic. Its actually very deep psychology. I think its called kineosology and the science skepticals are kinda against it because they dont know how the uncouncious and the brain works so they cant really prove it jet but really it WORKS. PSYCH-K (made up from psych key, the key to the psych) google it look up if theres somebody who practices it near your town. If you do it you will thank me

-Exercise as much as your body allows you to, dont sit the whole day in front of the tv or the computer, thas just gonna give you tension in your back and make you fat :P

-Change your looks, get a new haircut or color, buy some clothes and everytime you look in the mirror just force yourself to smile. Smiling is the most important thing. You know this dog who enters a room full of mirrors and starts barking, and since they dont recognice themselves on reflections he saw a lot of angry barking dogs.. The other one entered the room swinging his tail. Thats you when you look in the mirror wiht the typical Fuck my life look(I used to have it too) stop feeding you depression.

-The only suplements I would suggest is detox stuff like artichoke extract or something, artichoke cleans your liver, look up for things like that, you wanna clean your liver, your kidneys and maybe even lose some fat. I recomend sauna.

-And the last tip I have for you is dont take your life so seriously, its not like you gonna get out alive from it...

 

I apologice again for stating at the top I didnt wanted to go into details but you know :P once you get started hahaha PEACE

 

Happy rehab!

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I developed hpod about 3 weeks ago. Had all the usual symptoms of anxiety and it was like there was a torch on walls or some sort of led llight. Especially on peoplEs faces. I thought I was fried and I had taken acid about 5 times before it happened. The last time I took it was a bad trip and it wasn't until about 4 weeks later that it happened when I was really stressed. But it may have only been 2-3 weeks since it started but I feel 100x better than what I did. I almost have to look for the lights some times. Though it hasn't completely gone I think its what you believe will happen and staying positive. Talk to people, they will help you. My girlfriend has been amazing in a sense of keeping me busy and keeping my mind off things. I recommend exercise and general healthy lifestyle. Do things you enjoy and don't think about it. It makes it worse. It really does. I first got some anxiety pills off my doctor but didn't want to have an addiction to them to get through on a day to day basis so I onlytook them for the first couple of days. 3 to be exact. The rest I kept my self busy and I found that St John's worth helped me. Could also be a placebo thing. But I figured this was a better alternative as it was a natural product and can be bought at any pharmacy or even supermarkets so I wasn't constantly going to the doctors. I still have them incised of emergencys, which I haven't had yet. I was also a heavy weed smoker until it started but this scared the shit out of me and haven't touched drugs since. Stay positive to all those out there. I hope to be back in a few weeks saying I have had a full recovery. Just believe.

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i have already posted on this forum but id thought id metiontion this, but about 5 years ago i told my pal what happened to me when i was 15 when i got hppd. I didnt know what it was or called till couple of days ago,when i told him about what happened to me he excitedly said 'yes , i ve had that too but only for a couple of days', he went on a tell that me he went to his girlfriend and told her 'somethings not right with me'. He explained that he smoked pot couple of days ago and i feel tripy and explained in more detail. He said she knew what was wrong with him and said youve opened a chakra in your body and you need to  close it. And they went up to a spirtialist church and a lady there closed the chakra and he said he was fine after that .

 

hope that might help someone , iam not the hippy sort but its worth a try...

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Hey guys,

Some of you might remember me from a while ago but I was a very active member a while back, I haven't posted in a while because well, I consider myself cured.

It all began after a single dose of 25B-NBOMe, and threw me into an extremely dark place. I suffered a pretty much constant panic attack for a month after I aquired the disorder. I was depressed and simply waiting for the day to end, now when it gets to that point you start to not want to get up in the morning in the first place. I didn't want to live in that state.

The dissociation was the worst, I didn't think it was possible to experience such a detached view of reality to the point where it might as well have all been a bad dream.

Well, over the course of 2 years the symptoms waxed and waned but eventually started subsiding. I am still left with all my visuals but the dissociation is gone 80% and I'm sure I can make up the other 20.

I tried over 10 medications, none really helping. I contacted specialists but couldn't afford them, my doctors were also very poor and refused to refer me anywhere worthwhile.

In the end I just had to do it all myself. I forced myself out the house when I really would've preferred to curl up in a ball. I started socialising again, really socialising. I got back into my hobbies that I'd completely lost interested in, I worked on my anxiety through reading, meditation and praying everything will get better. You have to maintain that positive mindset no matter what, if you don't have that then you have nothing.

I still have most of my visual symptoms as I said but I consider myself cured. Thank god the dissociation did go away for whatever reason, I feel alive again, I wake up and I don't feel like I'm in a foggy dream, I have emotions, I can be happy, sad, laugh and cry and really feel it like I'm supposed to.

If I could go back I wouldn't change a thing, life is so much better once you've experienced how dark it can get and come out the other side.

Some tips that helped me:

ABSTAIN: Stay sober, a few beers now and again never hurt my recover but stay sober!

Vitamins and diet: Eat well and eat good foods.

Lifestyle: This was the big one for me, change your lifestyle completely in any possible way, change it for the better. Part of my recovery involved a lot of therapy where I let go of things from my past. Socialise, read, be passionate about your hobbies, learn a language, travel, find a relationship, get a job, change your job.

You can do it on your own, or at least improve it as much as you can. I went from being so dissociated and suicidal I was sure I'd gone insane, to going back to my old self.

Sure, I still have anxiety and visuals but I deal with it and to be honest, I never even think about it any more.

Hope all of you are doing well, I can't imagine anything that puts as much strain and stress on the lives of people. Particularly young people that just don't deserve it.

Listen to the long term members, I used to read the success stories every day and convinced myself I was going to get better, and I did.

Good luck everyone, I pray for you all all the time. If you need someone to talk to or advice, anything at all, just PM me. Whatever thoughts are going through your head and no matter how you feel, I've been there.

To the longer term members: hey, and thanks for all your help when I was at my worst. :)

Sam

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Hi Guys,

Have had HPPD for 3 years now. I got it from over abuse of MDMA & alot of stress at the time.

At first I couldn't handle it so I went on medication (Klonopin) as wanted to continue my job.

Until recent times iv been wanting to get better & off the meds. After reading this section it makes me extremely happy.

I just want to know for anyone that has recovered were you on medication & how long did you have HPPD for?

Cheers

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I've talked to my friends about it and found out three of my friends have gone through it. one has lasted for the past couple years and continues but it barely bothers him now. The other two of my friends are completely cured. Took one of my friends 6 or so months to get better and my other friend got better after two years. Both of these people still use drugs regularly and its never came back. I thought i'd share this to give some people a little hope, i know it did for me.

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That's great to hear DoneDoof. then HPPD must be very common around your friends as it seems quite rare. According to some researchers 1/50000 of hallucinogenic users gets it, others says less then 1%, while it's more common to have visual disturbances which isn't exactly the same thing. It only becomes a disorder when it interrupts with your daily life. Do you know what kind of symptoms they were reffering to? On some forums it seems like everyone who ever tripped had some kind of HPPD where they sometimes "like" it or think it's cool, something to brag about if you know what I mean.

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Hello people.

I'm not sure about why I'm wraiting here, in succes histories. I want send you a message of hopeless and happiness.

First of all, I want to say that I don't know what fucking disease I'm suffering. All crazy things, as crazy anxiety and visual disturbances started after a few months of my unique shroom's dosage, so, I supposed that hppd was the condition that caused it. I also have dp/dr since that happened.

Then, I started with tinnitus, pain in neck, harms, legs and other fucking things. What the fuck?; I thought. I was pretty sure that hppd was the only one that could make me to suffering that stranger symptoms, but I started with chronic fever also, so, I continued looking for more information in Internet.

While I was looking for, I had a lot of stranger infections, tooths and gums, dick, ass, etc, so, I thought that hppd weren't doing all of this, or my chemical injured brain wasn't working to fight with these infections?

Not sure my friend. I started with antibiotics, for the flu symptoms, or that was what my doc thought, and my symptoms were unmanageable. I was in the worst nightmare that I never thought that could exist. A lot of severe pain, extreme brain fog, dizzines, high fever, extreme exhaustion... thanks to god my girlfriend was with me in these moments.

Ok, I saw a lot of my neurological symptoms in hppd and vs forum but not the severe pain and chronic fever, so I continued looking for until I found a lot of autoinmune diseases. A lot of people with hppd and vs get worse with antibiotics, I think that we can experiencing a herxheimer (a body reaction when leave a lot of toxines).

But, If in my town I never saw a tick, and is very difficult found somebody touching lsd and allucynogens...... what fucking is happening to me?

I had been very depressed for a lot of months, and now I'm better. You can think, how is that guy better in a place where anybody knows some about allucynogens or tick's bornes disease and living with all strange symptoms. I will respond you.

In middle of that, my girlfriend broked up with me, tired about my condition. My mum lost her work and found that something was wrong, she have breast cancer. And I with my stranger disease/condition!!!!

I felt how a stone, a really fucking biggest stone, fallen in my head. My healthy, succeded and funny live was broken in less than 6 months!!!!

All of that of you can imaginate, isn't a success history, let me tell you the "good" thing about all of this.

If my gf that I really love for 6 years broked up, if my perfect life with drugs and football gone and if my mum lost her work and have cancer, I WON'T BE CRYING IN MY BED. I will fight until my body can't walks and thinks more. Now all of us have to ways, stay quiet or fight and the day that I will die, I will think that I had fight for all that I love, although my fucking and chemical injured brain want to bother me.

Now, I'm helping my mother all that she needs, eating healthy (antifungical, antibiotic, probiotic food) and although I have chronic fever, I had can playing football again. 9 goals in 2 matches, playing better before sick!!! (Better that Cristiano Ronaldo LOL haha) and surely the other players never will remember the match, but I never will forget my goals, because the 9 goals weren't for the goalkeeper, were for my uknown disease!!! Suck my d@&&@ uknown disorder!!!

I want to tell you that always there is a thing to fight, and we have only one time. I wish have other easily live, but we have to doing the best in that, the unique live that we have. I really hope my experience will help some of us and tell you some. Can you imagine chronic fever, severe pain and exhaustion futhermore hppd? I have and I will continue fighting to get better and found what's happening with me (think. maybe lyme).

We have to work hard to get tinny better but, double work, double reward. Keep it!

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Hey guys,

Some of you might remember me from a while ago but I was a very active member a while back, I haven't posted in a while because well, I consider myself cured.

It all began after a single dose of 25B-NBOMe, and threw me into an extremely dark place. I suffered a pretty much constant panic attack for a month after I aquired the disorder. I was depressed and simply waiting for the day to end, now when it gets to that point you start to not want to get up in the morning in the first place. I didn't want to live in that state.

The dissociation was the worst, I didn't think it was possible to experience such a detached view of reality to the point where it might as well have all been a bad dream.

Well, over the course of 2 years the symptoms waxed and waned but eventually started subsiding. I am still left with all my visuals but the dissociation is gone 80% and I'm sure I can make up the other 20.

I tried over 10 medications, none really helping. I contacted specialists but couldn't afford them, my doctors were also very poor and refused to refer me anywhere worthwhile.

In the end I just had to do it all myself. I forced myself out the house when I really would've preferred to curl up in a ball. I started socialising again, really socialising. I got back into my hobbies that I'd completely lost interested in, I worked on my anxiety through reading, meditation and praying everything will get better. You have to maintain that positive mindset no matter what, if you don't have that then you have nothing.

I still have most of my visual symptoms as I said but I consider myself cured. Thank god the dissociation did go away for whatever reason, I feel alive again, I wake up and I don't feel like I'm in a foggy dream, I have emotions, I can be happy, sad, laugh and cry and really feel it like I'm supposed to.

If I could go back I wouldn't change a thing, life is so much better once you've experienced how dark it can get and come out the other side.

Some tips that helped me:

ABSTAIN: Stay sober, a few beers now and again never hurt my recover but stay sober!

Vitamins and diet: Eat well and eat good foods.

Lifestyle: This was the big one for me, change your lifestyle completely in any possible way, change it for the better. Part of my recovery involved a lot of therapy where I let go of things from my past. Socialise, read, be passionate about your hobbies, learn a language, travel, find a relationship, get a job, change your job.

You can do it on your own, or at least improve it as much as you can. I went from being so dissociated and suicidal I was sure I'd gone insane, to going back to my old self.

Sure, I still have anxiety and visuals but I deal with it and to be honest, I never even think about it any more.

Hope all of you are doing well, I can't imagine anything that puts as much strain and stress on the lives of people. Particularly young people that just don't deserve it.

Listen to the long term members, I used to read the success stories every day and convinced myself I was going to get better, and I did.

Good luck everyone, I pray for you all all the time. If you need someone to talk to or advice, anything at all, just PM me. Whatever thoughts are going through your head and no matter how you feel, I've been there.

To the longer term members: hey, and thanks for all your help when I was at my worst. :)

Sam

thankyou this made me feel more positive 

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A guy in spanish forum that consider himself fully recovered of hppd. I paste his message traduced from spanish to english un google.

I came across this post looking at Google on the subject. I suffered from this disorder about five years ago and lasted for a year. The symptoms began to appear a few months after having a time of repeated shots of fungi in short periods of time, with continued cannabis use had already been for quite a few years ago and especially a bad experience with a strong trip with mushrooms ; which led me to a strong introspection of my fears and paranoia generated strong. After the last experience with mushrooms I left cannabis (I did not try it again today). The first symptoms of HPPD arrived as I say a couple of months after the last intake of mushrooms. It's hard to explain. Early symptoms gradually throughout the day stated; the most significant was the reduction in the sense of perception (had the feeling that this visually perceived was not real, or had difficulty distinguishing reality as we knew before). What could be described as a feeling of total alienation, as if you feel that you no longer own your reality, you feel strange because no longer conceive reality as before. Specifically there were a few days where symptoms worsened even got to see in black and white (all without any substance or alcohol), being completely normal. This symptom is characteristic of HPPD; usually joins visual fog type or stelae and auras (I only experience the visual of gray and just a couple of days when I emerged more paranoia).

All this was accompanied feeling quite acute paranoia in which he thought he had caused irreparable damage to my mind. The symptoms lasted one year and were slowly disappearing as they came they left. I consulted specialists and none chose to treatment, downplayed and I digeron would happen gradually finding stability. Also I have to say that in my case these symptoms also had slight relation to external factors in my personal life. Finally add the facts from the consumption of mushrooms, both good and bad, and subsequent testing of the sensations arising from HPPD; marked a before and after in my life; in the way of conceiving the world, relationships, how to take my life ... etc. So I'm very proud of the experience and have learned and grown as a person. To this day I have not consumed any kind of psychoactive or psychoactive cannabis or type of fungi.

I hope I have helped telling my experience.

A greeting.

P.S: He took again MDMA 5 years later of been sober, and fully recovered of hppd and he is suffering hppd again. So, it's rally important to forget any type of drugs again..

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I found this thread: http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/621711-Anyone-had-their-HPPD-go-away-completely

 

I've searched the web so many times with so few success stories that I almost at one point didn't believe in any recovery. I can't believe that I did miss this thread for some reason. This is the one you should read if you get HPPD and stick to that. Positive vibes is the best cure.

There are 5 cases in this little thread where they're talking about serious HPPD that actually vanished within a few years of sobriety.

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My HPPD hasn't gone away completely. I have pretty gnarly visuals somedays. But I've worked through the anxiety attached to those symptoms and now they are insignificant. I don't know how much cognitive damage I've done, if any. I'm sure I've done at least a little. I'd say I'm like 80% "recovered". But, life goes on. And I got back in the drivers seat, and stopped being so scared of myself. 


What I'm about to say will likely be met with some slight trepidation. I started eating LSD again. With more or less, a "guide" or "guru". Old head, part of the "family". He worked me through it. And once I got through it. And saw the beauty in myself, and the world again. And realized no matter what happens here, to me, its all going to be okay my anxieties literally vanished. One second I had them, and the next I did not.

 

And since then I've been on a spiritual path, so to speak. I meditate. I spend a lot of time outside, just smiling. I read a lot more. I feel fantastic. There hasn't been a day thats gone by in the last six months that I've been worried how HPPD will affect or is affecting me. It's insignificant. It's been marginalized.

 

And now I begin to wonder where the sickness really begins. How much of it is us? How much of it needs to be treated by pharmaceuticals? Im not advocating the use of psychedelics for treatment in this situation. I'm merely stating that maybe its more a psychosomatic issue than previously thought. Obviously things like visual abnormalities prove some changes have occurred some where in the brain.

 
But treating the dread, and the feelings of detachment. And waves of unwarranted anxiety, maybe the real key to fighting back. At least they were for me.
 
I can smoke cannabis again, I can drink again. I take psychedelics sometimes. Absolutely no issues since I got over my anxieties. Embracing an issue like this is easier said than done. But I think a lot of it has to do with an individuals inability to let go. Constantly perpetuating this hungry, needless cycle in your head with thoughts of sorrow, and dread, and fear will simply keep you in it.
 
 
You are what you eat, folks. Anyways, this is what worked for me. Sorry if this comes across as offensive to any of you. Best of luck! Much love! And keep on truckin'.
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Do you feel like your cognitive function increased with the decrease of your anxiety?  My cognitive skills seem fucked compared to how they once were.  That plus DP/DR, anxiety, and brain fog (which I attribute to my cognitive skills being fucked) makes this shit a nightmare.  The visuals don't really bother me. 

 

Also, how long did you have HPPD prior to eating the acid and recovering?  It was really like a flick of a switch and you were better?  Ha sorry for asking alot of questions... just intrigued.  Anyways, congrats dude!! Can't say I'll do the same, but I do strongly believe that meditation and generally being more spiritual can do wonders. 

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Do you feel like your cognitive function increased with the decrease of your anxiety?  My cognitive skills seem fucked compared to how they once were.  That plus DP/DR, anxiety, and brain fog (which I attribute to my cognitive skills being fucked) makes this shit a nightmare.  The visuals don't really bother me. 

 

Also, how long did you have HPPD prior to eating the acid and recovering?  It was really like a flick of a switch and you were better?  Ha sorry for asking alot of questions... just intrigued.  Anyways, congrats dude!! Can't say I'll do the same, but I do strongly believe that meditation and generally being more spiritual can do wonders. 

 

Yes I absolutely do. I definitely have more clarity. I can remember most things better. And it really was like the flick of a switch. About year, and a few months. Prior to that I was fairly sober most of the time. But my anxiety was getting worse and worse and I felt like utter shit. I ended up just saying fuck it. 

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Two years ago, when I was 19, I posted on this forum because at the time I was absolutely terrified of the symptoms that I had been experiencingot due to drug use.The heightend sensitivity to light, pronounced floaters, derealization, depersonalization, and severe anxiety were all symptoms that plauged me daily. What made it so terrifying was how sudden it all was. It got to the point that I literally thought I was going insane. That being said, within three months my situation got better. And the key for me, and what I'm sure others on this site have expressed as well, was really immersing myself into an activity, like in my case I took up boxing. Also, abstaining from drugs and alcohol was another critical factor that led to feeling better. What's interesting though, is that even two years later many of my symptoms, such as the floaters, light sensitivity, and other little visuals, still persist. Maybe this never actually goes away, but you do get used to it and for the most part it is not noticible. I still do on occasion drink, but the next day I do notice my symptoms a lot more, especially the more mental dp/Dr ones. But I do try to stay away from other recreational drugs (Smoked weed and experienced symptoms like I had two years ago for a couple of days). overall though things are doing great! I'm attending a great university and things are looking up. I don't mean to brag or anything like that, I just want to let others know that things can get better. Hopefully my story shows that. I never was an active poster on here, I actually forgot about this site completely, but when I did post members were supportive. so when I happened to stumble on this forum I decided to give some positive contribution back, even if it's just a small one. Oh, one more thing, if you are obsessed with your current state and constantly looking up things on the internet, I'd suggest you take a break. That was another thing that helped.

Thanks!

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I'm doing much better myself and I'm only a month and 14 days in. I can ignore the visuals 80% of the time, and depersonalization is still there pretty bad when I think about it, but is completely gone when I dont. I think I will recover for sure. I enjoy getting drunk from time to time.

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