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Hello! I am new to this forum but not to hppd and all that comes with it. Since i am new here, let me give you a background check: I'm 18 years old, a student and i come from Stockholm, Sweden. I did 4-ho-met once during the autumn 2011, i think i overdosed it becouse it was a trip from hell, the world itself desintegrated... Anyhow, a couple of months after that i noticed the walls moving at home while watching tv and as the worrying type that i am i directly made a search for "4-ho-met side effects" and i read about hppd, it was spot on. So i've suffered from extreme dp/dr, after images, trails, halos, moving ground and visual snow from hell for a couple of months now but last night somwthing wierd happened. I sat at my computer until about 01:00 at night and did my before-bed routine, i jacked off (might be irrelevant, might not) and lit a cigarette at the balcony and then i realized something was wrong. I felt like a human being and i could see darkness, like pale black for the first time in months, i looked up at the sky and i saw stars! I became so happy i almost started crying, i went inside and looked myself in the mirror and i saw a soul, not a mindless shell. Every symptom i had was completely gone but then they came back, first came the snow out of nowhere, like if someone had pushed a button, and with it came the dp/dr, anxiety and the rest. So does anyone have any idea why everything went away for a while (it felt like an eternity)? Was it becouse i was super relaxed maybe? I mean orgasm + a cigarrette is almost like doing drugs now a days. I apologize if i'm writing crappy, english is not my native language Best regards // Morbide
