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  1. Good post! That’s a smart way to spread out your dose Jay1. I’m going to give that a shot here pretty soon thx
  2. I’ve been taking Klonopin for 20 yrs due to the anxiety ect. hppd causes. It was wonderful and made me enjoy life again for the first 3-5 yrs. taking up to 3 mgs daily as prescribed, never abusing this med. Regardless, tolerance does built up rather quickly and before you know it you can start having tolerance withdrawals so you’re actually going through Benzo withdrawal while your on them even if taken as prescribed. Now I am a slave to this drug wish to GOD I never started it. The best way you could ever use benzodiazepines since they’re only meant for short term use is periodically. But they will make you feel so much better it’s extremely difficult to take them on a as needed bases. Just do yourself a favor and read Benzo buddies or any benzo forum where you’ll get a better understanding of the problems (especially from long term use) Benzodiazepines will most likely create. I hate to be anti-benzo because it seemed as if they saved my life! But now I do nothing but regret ever taking them. I’m not some anti-drug person I’m just telling you what happened to me and this is all with the help of doctors. Best of luck to you be careful w these !!
  3. Been on klon for 15 yrs at 2.5 mg currently. I used to feel great just taking 1 mg now i have interdose wds. Wondering if this happened to any of you where you just started feeling like you have a mild flu at all times and i can barely get out of bed. I do and run 2 miles daily idk just so confused. I sometimes wonder if im getting a mild dementia from klonopin take care all!
  4. 256 I dont know your exact situation, but if they really are friends they'll understand! Your health comes before another companies success. Just mention anxiety disorder or whatever you're comfortable with disclosing. Sounds like you were much much happier being a cable tech. (those jobs were my favorite as well the exercise kills anxiety) figure out school from there take care!!
  5. Poisoned is sadly a perfect way to describe it. Exercise usually helps my anxiety and tension headaches, even brain fog. It's the only way hppd is manageable for me since klonopin stopped helping.
  6. Doing drugs permanently made my hppd worse. And Im talking about benzos and opiates mainly. When I started taking klono before I was tolerant I didn't get hangovers and drank like a fish. Now that I've been coming off klono if I drink 2 beers I get a massive headpressure headache for 5 hrs. To answer your ? finally you'll enjoy life a hell a better if you just drink occasionally with waterlike Jay said. Unless alcoholism runs n your family then steer clear, dam rambling lol take care! Btw I did coke a few times and my anxiety got so bad once my b/p shot so high ambulance came to my house cause I almost had a heart attack supposedly, although that sht did come str8 from Colombia...cant win with drugs after hppd it all catches up
  7. Same here, shrooms laced with lcd. It's been 16 yrs. but I've had lot's of great times though so living life is still worth it. Sometimes when I get down and feel sorry for myself I almost pray for death....Thankfully once I get out of that mindset I try to be a functioning member of society and the good times out way the bad as long as I stay busy!
  8. hppd33, Gabapentin usually gives me rushes of energy and dizziness when I up my dose until I adjust to it which usually takes 3-7 days. Once adjusted I feel more relaxed but a little spaced out and hungry 24/7 but it's worth the trade off in my opinion. Make sure you never just stop taking this med. it can cause seizures. I really like Gabapentin and Lyrica due to them helping with nerve pain, anxiety and head pressure (everybodies obviously different) but I get tolerant to them within a couple months even at the max dosage. For me the withdrawals are extremely difficult, a lot of hot and cold flashes and my anxiety spikes up. Hope all works out I didn't read any posts but yours probably should of checked what other experienced. Take care, time to exercise the only true cure in my opinion besides staying occupied. BTW. Even a few of my friends have this same side effect, I can go forever in bed my girl loves it and it still feels great nothing better then putting them to sleep you don't even have to talk when your done lol
  9. Thx for asking! Always good to talk.... I dropped from 4 to 3mg and it's taken me a while to adjust (thats why I never replied was to sick to do anything). I'm finally feeling stronger w/o so much anxiety, more clear headed and sleeping through the whole night. I found a doctor who's going to taper me. She said it will take around a yr. to get to zero. Thank GOD I found somebody willing to help me, I've fealt like I was on my death bed especially the first 3 weeks. I'm going to start dropping .25mg every two weeks and hopefully that will be a smoother transition. Wish me luck take care all, thx again StateOfRegret hope your doing well....
  10. I've been taking morphine (i hate opiates btw) just so I don't lose it. My heart is beating very fast and I always have a headache. I know a doctor that will help me out because she also said this is insane. I'm going there in two days, my friend saw how sick i was and gave me his own rx of 20, 15mg morphine pills so I don't feel so aweful. It's still hard to type I'm so weak and sick and yes I'm scared of protracted wd syndrome. K I have no more energy left to type I have to lay badck down, hope you're all doing well...thx for the replies!!! It's always great to know I have peeps that understand, my wife thinks I'm being dramatic
  11. Nuerontin worked great for a while then after a few months it stopped working for me. I actually was getting horrific hot flashes just like benzo w/d's when I stopped, hope you guys have better luck w/ it.
  12. My Doc is taking me off of 4mg of klono after 13yrs. I have 1month to do it. Is there any way this is possible w/o me going crazy or possibly worse like seizures ect.. I will not be going inpatient I'll be doing this from hm. and even though I'm not suicidal I'm scared I'll lose my mind..Responses would be greatly appreciated thx all!!
  13. Thx Andrew, knowing you we're able to handle the wds gives me much needed hope!!!
  14. 415 style, hope u start feeling better soon i feel ur pain. Going to talk w my doctor about the medication you're on so I can Possibly mask these benzo withdrawal's, I'm going through hell but I'm getting better slowly thx for mentioning that...
  15. Flexeril works great and never made me feel like shit. lt actually takes away my anxiety and head pressure. Try to stay away from ambien and lunesta they're basically benzo. Trazadone turned me into a zombie so be careful w that one. Also zanaflex works well I've tried 100's I know what I'm talking about, take care...
  16. I still smoke and the intense visuals go away for me after a couple days. I also didn't touch anything the first 5 yrs of hppd, no clue if that mattered though. I had the most colorful patterns everywhere I looked for 2-3 yrs and they have become more of shadows and black and white streaks. Not nearly so vivid or annoying. On these boards I've read many ppl saying their visuals died down or they just get used to them, it's the dp/dr ect. that causes the most problems.
  17. I stayed inside my house and wanted to kill myself while losing countless friends the first yr. of this more difficult way of living to say the least. Honestly what saved me was just working, working out and getting with girls. Half the time I didn't even know what to say to them I just smiled and laughed at whatever they would say. Then I met the one I knew I would marry w/o hppd so I just focused on working (anywhere) until we saved up enough to buy a house. PS. Don't do it.....
  18. About 80% of the time coffee works great for me. The other 20 it just raises my anxiety for an hr. but no real problems. When too tired to do anything, I'll drink caffeine and exercise it's def. worth the tradeoff. Even if it does give me anxiety for a while, I'll run it out of myself to release endorphins.
  19. mbellamy09, That's a hell of an accomplishment coming off that much klono after 4 yrs!! I'll be dropping it soon, what were the main things that helped you?? I know what benzo boards say, but cutting while having hppd has me extremely worried, just don't want to go manic one night and accidentally hurt myself or something dumb....If I do a proper taper is it really as bad as some make it seem be honest lol? PS. I cut my klonopin once and I got all the closed eye visuals you are talking about, It went away when I started taking it again but believe me you made the right choice cutting down. It takes an average of 12-18 months to complete your benzo wd's usually, so keep your head up you'll get there!
  20. If you feel like you can't make it without klonopin at first (suicidal thoughts ect.) don't hesitate to take it because of any board they have no IDEA what living w/ hppd is like. This love hate relationship w/ benzo's reminds me of my wife lol take care!
  21. bpl4269.. I might of killed myself if it wasn't for benzo's at first, so I hate to bash them but I just wanted to give you a few heads up of what I deal with on a daily basis from taking klono longterm (13yrs 2-4 mg daily) . Hot and cold flashes most of the day, anxiety is returning even though I'm still on the drug, horrible memory loss, severe lack of motivation, depression is worse then ever even though my life is better then ever, verbal skills are going down the drain and it's getting hard to keep my wife happy do to all the complaining I do from these constant w/d's. Sorry to be so negative when you're feeling great, but I didn't know how bad this drug can become so I feel like I should warn you and others that read this even though most ppl know now a days. When I started taking klonopin I only took 1 mg daily max. After 4 months I tapered off very slowly and once I was off klonopin, I had to go straight to the hospital because my blood pressure shot through the roof and I stopped sleeping and eating. So they reinstated my klonopin and here I am 200 Dr. visits and countless scripts later. BTW I'm in a great mood so I'm not just venting. I know I'm giving you an extreme longterm case but just a look into this benzo w'd horror. A great thing though is hppd got much better after 2 yrs. for me just to give you some hope take care all!!! Again hope I wasnt to negative.
  22. Work on my house when I'm not working. I swim alot, it really helps with the anxiety and muscle tension. Drink beer about 2-3xs a week and chill with my wife and dogs. "disguyhere" try not to take ambien every night, I used to and after a month I completely stopped sleeping until I quit ambien. "hppd33" I really feel your pain about not being able to enjoy things you used to love. Half the time that happens to me as well. But the other half I enjoy so I figure better then nothing. We only live once might as well ride it out feel better
  23. i know wellbutrin isn't a supplement, but it's been a good drug to me the last 2 weeks. I've had much more energy than usual and even go out of my way to work. No sexual side effects, but it does make dp/dr a little worse. To me it's def worth the trade off since I need to get another job and I actually have something helping my depression and motivating me. I did a search on it on this board and it didn't seem like wellbutrin helped others, but I'm going to stick it out and just pray I can stay more positve on this med. Later all!
  24. klonopin, gababpentin, depakote, zanaflex and the occasional tramadol, vicodin My goal is to slowly but surely quit every one of these drugs. I've never fealt better then when I was off all meds!!
  25. I'll try this med next week if my doc gives it to me. If I do I'll let you all know how it goes....
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