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Lizord

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  1. So all in all, did the gabapentin make your symptoms worse permanently?
  2. Hi Ville. I found you by googling HPPD and insomnia. I have both. How are you doing now? Has the zopiclone helped you sleep? Does it exacerbate your HPPD?
  3. I've had HPPD symptoms for years (2014ish). Around June this year, I had just finished a week long run of Zolpidem. Two or three days after taking my last dose of Zolpidem, I bought some Valerian extract from a Vitamin shop. I popped three caps, waited for it to kick in, then hopped into the bed. I was blown away when I realized that it felt like I was floating around on a raft in bed. I was completely still, but it felt like I was being buffeted by water currents, or flying on a magic carpet gently moving up and down, side to side. Sometimes, it feels like my bed is tipping at an angle, or like I'm in an elevator going down or up. I've had the sensations ever since. There was ONE night about two weeks ago that I laid down and wasn't greeted by the sensation. I have no idea why. I've taken NO medications, NO drugs, NO mind altering substances of any kind since this started. Is this a HPPD symptom? Thanks for reading my post!
  4. Yeah, I sort of want to blame the fact that the chem was a designer drug, but i got my first symptoms years back from MDMA, a fairly well understood chemical. I've had RCs that never exacerbated my symptoms. They might have contributed to a later condition, but speculating is a waste of time. I'll never touch another again. I don't even take prescription meds anymore. Those aren't really any safer when you have HPPD. And I'm talking in terms of the odds of worsening symptoms, or adding side effects or dependency issues, but that's every man and woman's decision to make with a med professional. I will say, HPPD becoming more common might be a good thing. More visibility might mean more media attention and research, and maybe better treatments. My two pennies. This is sort of my philosophy. Drugs got me in this mess. Time to live clean.
  5. Hi all, long time reader, first time poster. I got a mild case of HPPD from a six month weed bender. There were like five MDMA rolls and three mushroom trips also. I realized i didn't feel myself and stopped smoking weed, using mushroom and MDMA. This happened about four years ago. My symptoms at their worst during that time was mild VS, mild after images(barely noticeable, but they existed), depersonalization and brain fog. So, up until recently, the DR, DP and brainfog have really lifted. I barely have any problem with them. I had used some drugs sparingly on the weekends. Stuff like 3-fpm, Hexen, and some others. I'm not proud of this, but my visual symptoms didn't change from what I could discern, so i thought, why not? One day, I tried a compound I've never had before called 4-mpd. I snroted 30 mgs and went for a jog. When I got back in the house, I realized something was off. My visual snow was a couple levels stronger now. It now climbed freely on the walls with the lights on, and before it didn't. Everything was giving me an after image also. Any light, no matter how dim, caused an after image that would flash for a second of two before fading. I also have illusory palinopsia now; waving my hand causes it to blur across my field of view. It's been a few months since things have gotten this way and nothing has improved. I wanted to hear any thoughts on this situation. I quit all drugs and I mean ALL. I run daily and eat reasonably well. I'm just shocked that my visual stuff got so much worse when it seemed like nothing could make it change before. I'm guessing this will probably never get any better. Wanted to share this experience as sort of a warning. Leave the drugs alone. Ask me any questions, no matter how old the post is, I'll keep up as much as I can.
  6. Salutations everyone! I want to start my story by clarifying some details about myself. I am a 27 yo male. Prior to my experience, I had a diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder w/ co-morbid anxiety. I had issues with alcohol abuse for a couple of years. I found my life insufferably boring and empty. I craved a drink at the end of the day to spice up my evening and help with the negative emotions and thoughts. Okay, so about around 2014, a family member passed me a bong. I was anxious, but very curious and excited to pop my weed cherry. I took a massive rip and became very high. I just laughed and felt very euphoric, but quickly excused myself so I could sleep. The experience was very intense and made me slightly anxious. I became a regular smoker for the next six months. I also took mushrooms on several occasions during this time period. The trips were usually bad and the comedown was a great relief. Nothing I draw horrible memories from today. I also used about a gram of MDMA (it was in max 300 mg doses spaced about a month apart). I became very spacey and had trouble concentrating close to the end of my drug use. I was having trouble finding my way around town and in cities I thought I should have known my way around better. I had panic attacks a couple of times while driving. One night, I was feeling horribly depressed and anxious. I cried and crashed at my parents house. From this point, I stopped all psychedelic drug use. I began to notice my vision was off in a big way. -Visual snow 24/7, most noticeable in the dark -After images (computer screens, car brake lights, ect) and tracers. -Sensitivity to sunlight (not unbearable, but irritating) -Blue pixels that flash in and out of existence when I push on my eyes or look as far down as my eye will in their sockets -I will often notice something moving in my peripherals, and when I snap my glance at it, I will make get the strong impression that it's something it's not. (I see a plastic bag roll in the breeze and instantly think its a cat, but I know it's not a half second later. I will see a twig on the concrete in the evening and think it's moving slightly like a worm, but when I look hard enough, it's not.) -Pressure in the front of my head (nothing too unbearable, mildly irritating at times) -At night, I will lay in bed and see faint shapes of random stuff in the static-y darkness of my closed eyes. As I get closer to falling asleep, almost on the verge of falling asleep, I will hear my inner voice yapping and yapping incoherently or semi coherently. -Numb feeling hands. Felt weird and uncomfortable when I would touch my face. THIS SYMPTOM HAS CLEARED UP RECENTLY. -Anxiety. It affects me in some amount, but seem to be getting better. -My short term memory seems to be a little less effective. I sometimes walk somewhere in the house and forget what I was doing. -I often read a sentence out of order. Certain words pop out and I read the wrong thing. -Feeling like my balance is weird. I felt like my foot steps were unsure. Like that feeling you get when standing on a high ledge. -Feeling very tired and unfocused at random times. -Pure O OCD. Usually religious themed, then it morphed into existential themes. The thoughts hurt me greatly. -Mild DP/DR? I sort of felt visually derealized, but my thoughts were strongly existential and hopeless. I jog everyday and eat very healthy and I think I am adapting to my condition fairly well. I'm always looking for new information to help me understand, and feel more sure of, myself. I think my symptoms are exacerbated by anxiety, but I am extremely worried that I have a cognitive condition, or that I might develop schizophrenia later on. I often feel that If I could just get an IQ test performed or a properly diagnosis of my condition, I would feel better and less anxious, but I digress. So basically for half a year I used weed daily, sprinkled with shroom trips, MDMA rolls, then got really depressed and anxious. I want to say I'm glad this community exists and want to hear what everyone has to say. What are your thoughts on my condition? The most troubling aspect is the short term memory issue, but I recall that I might have had this issue before the drug use, but not so much. I seem hyper aware of my balance and hate the feeling of swaying and walking on hard floors. Is this HPPD? Thanks for reading!
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