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  1. Today I got a prescription for Trimipramine. Is this worth a shot? I asked for something that I could take to kill panic/ anxiety attacks and she gave me that. But apparently she might also prescribe me Lorazepam if this doesn't work. Also how helpful are tricyclic antidepressants in general? I am only 4,5 months into HPPD, so I do not plan to take synthetic medicine regularly as long as it might heal naturally. But I am curious and maybe I would take it under moments of extreme anxiety but I will try to avoid it.
  2. Yes I was exaggerating with 100% recovery, I just meant that my progress over the recent weeks made me optimistic and I thought LMM will make me feel even better. So it is kind of a disappointment that it actually makes me feel worse. BTW in this discussion several people mentioned that LMM also increased anxiety for them so it might be a common issue: On other sites I read that it can have a stimulating efffect and one user even claimed that it has some effects similar to DMT lol but not sure if that is correct.
  3. Thanks, I currently think about how I can make my diet more healthy. I have always just stuffed every food inside of me that I felt a desire for, so changing my diet feels like one of the trickier challenges. I might use your post as a basis for my future diet.
  4. I feel really bad today, I do not think I will take LMM ever again. I actually really improved during the recent weeks, but today is awful. I actually thought LMM will be the supplement that will help me achieve 100% recovery soon but it seems to throw me back like two months in recovery. I hope my current state is only temporary and the symptoms will decrease during the next days.
  5. So today I still feel kind of anxious, but I have the impression that my DP/ DR decreased. I feel more like myself. I also seem to look less for visuals or maybe the visuals even decreased. Might be deluding myself there though. @MadDoc: LMM is supposed to help with a lot of stuff, many people say it is one of the few supplements that actually work in healing HPPD. You will find a lot of posts about this online, for quite some people it helped to decrease their anxiety, DP/ DR and even their visuals. @K.B.Fante: Yes I think as long as I am feeling this anxious, I won't take a capsule today. I might only take one capsule every second day. SInce this supplement seems to have a strong effect, it might be enough. Maybe I will take valerian with it do decrease possible anxiety/ nervousness.
  6. Okay I really feel bad, I definitely won't take a capsule today anymore. I am curious how I will feel tomorrow.
  7. So I got some LMM capsules, each capsule is 620 mg and it says you should take three capsules a day. I started today, I took one in the morning and felt kind of good. Later on I felt some anxiety but it was not such big of a deal. Than in the afternoon I took a second one and later on I noticed rather strong anxiety, my visuals also seemed to be getting stronger. Also it seems like I am thinking fast, especially when I lie down with closed eyes a lot of random thoughts and pictures are racing through my head. Furthermore I feel kind of depressed and desperate right now. It's 19:30 now here and I planned to take the third capsule between 21:00 and 22:00. But I am not sure, I do not want to increase the anxiety even more for nighttime. Maybe I will just leave it at two capsules per day for starters. Is it normal for symptoms to increase when you start taking LMM? I do not want to give it up completely.
  8. What side effects did you get from SSRIs?
  9. I regularly have a feeling of being stoned or on a low dose of mushrooms. I know that many sufferers have similar symptoms. Is there any medication/ treatment to reduce this?
  10. Anyone made any experiences with RC benzos for treating HPPD symptoms? These are the ones which seem to be available right now: Clonazolam Pyrazolam Flubromazolam Fonazepam Nitemazepam 3-HydroxyPhenazepam 4-Chloro-Diazepam I have read that Pyrazolam is very anxiolytic so it might be my choice for now. But I have actually never taken any benzo so far and RC benzos are supposed to be stronger than normal benzos. So I am cautious and yeah of course I would only take it in moments of extreme anxiety.
  11. Looks like you made great progress. I am also currently recovering from a bad mushroom trip but I am only 3,5 months in. Sometimes it feels like this is going to stay forever, sometimes it feels like I already improved a lot. Thanks for your motivating post and I hope your remaining symptoms will also diminish over time.
  12. Anyone tried castor oil for means of detoxification and did it help to alleviate your symptoms? I got a bottle of it now and might try it for a while but I read that it can lead to nutrient loss and dehydration so I am cautious.
  13. Would you say that you can rule out any chance of 100% recovery after a certain time? Like when you are having HPPD for 10 or 20 years, do you think it is still possible to recover and feel healthy again?
  14. So do you think there are different chances of recovery depending on the age at which it starts? Like when you are 16, your brain is still in some strong development process AFAIK. But I am not sure if this is good or bad. On the one hand, due to the oncoming brain growth, the HPPD might grow out. On the other hand it seems plausible that it is more probable for the HPPD to manifest itself in the brain structures when you get it during this development stage. What do you think?
  15. So I just thought "fuck it" and took one pill again. I am not sure if it is better or worse. At first I thought my DP/ DR feelings get worse, but I think I also feel the antidepressing feature of it. Mostly I feel a bit like "heatened up" or electrified. but I need something more sedative I guess. This pill is probably not the best choice in my current state, but I will see. edit: I also have the impression that this raises my blood pressure. When I took it for several days, I always felt exhausted from running for a few seconds or taking a couple of stairs. edit2: So I was actually able to lie down in bed for quite a while without feeling like absolute shit. That is better than nothing I guess. But when I closed my eyes, I saw dreamlike sequences, I had weird thought patterns and I think one time a short auditory hallucination. So basically like always when I want to fall asleep.